November 10, 1999
5:23 pm
Depression setting in
Sinec I have a few friends that I e-mail several times a week because of a lack in time to see eachother I don't notice when things start to go wrong. But now I have a red flag that has been waved in front of my face. A good friend of mine is off at college this year and she is desperatly crying out fo rhelp. She has been so depressed since she left and I don't know what to do. Now thought she has decided to stop eating to loose a little weight, even though she isn't fat at all, and I am terribly concernd! What do you do when someone is 45 minutes away *that's fast driving 45 minutes* and you only see her every weekend or so..to get her to eat? Make her cookies to take home back to school? No, she won't eat them! Giver her healthy snacks? Then se might think you're doing that to help her out in loosing weight! This girl is anything but fat and she isn't eating! Why do people do that? And then I have a friend who is "fasting" because of a guy! How dumb is that? He is fasting for a reason, I think it has something to do with the girl who was in a car accident, but I'm not totally sure. She is dating him, and so she is doing it because of him! Ah! I'm going to stop eating so that they can see how dumb it is, but then again, I could go a week, or two or 12 without eating :) *Gosh! I hope that Adam' doesn't read this! By the way! We're back together incase I didn't mention that!* The only reason I would stop eating is to get more time in to study, which is what I need! I got my report card yesterday and I got all A's except a B in Psych. and a B in Alg II...I hate my alg teacher!Okay! So I am trying to decide ona major, but it's hard! I thought that I was going to major in "Creative Writing" and I still want to, but I think maybe that it's a silly idea! So then I was thinking, what if I major in Psych? I am stuggeling in the class but I like it so why not? I don't know! This senior year crap is hard! Really really Hard! :{
Why does everything have to be so complicated?
I keep saying I quit, but I can't quit everything stressfull. What would I do then? :o) Do you know that I think I am a persimist because of the way I was nursed as a child? Ha! Psych! What a class! Take it sometime! Then, when you're fighting with you parents or you boyfriend/girlfriend/spouce, you can blame everything on things from when you were potty trained and how all the way back to how you were nursed! :o) But Freud says that that is all stored in your id, and defence mechinisms are used to hide the direct meaning, or somethign alone those lines :)
Why is life so stressfull?
