January 28, 2000
11:36 pm
The inferno of my life...
Well, I know I have gotten really bad at writing in my Journal, but I hope to start up again. I have been so stressed out that I forget to write! I have been working on an English paper on the poet, Sylvia Plath, and I am really likeing her and her work! It is about half done and is due on Monday so I hope it turns out okay :) I finally applied to ONU and should know soon if I got in, or I guess that I did get in :) *need to think positive about that if nothing else!* I have been having a really sucky weak and I don't know what to really say. Adam and I are fighting, my friends really hurt me at lunch *but they didn't realize they did*, Natalie hit me in the face *on accident with her glove and it hit my eye which was open*(oh, and I am so not mad at her for that but yeah) and I am exhausted!At lunch today everyone was talking about a girl we found out was pregnant and who had an abortion. Almost everyone said that her having an abortion was wrong and blah blah blah *I'm not saying that to sound mean, I respect their oppinions, I just am saying that because they elaborated but I can't remember everythign* "If she's responsible enough to have sex, she's responsible enough to deal with the concequences" Maybe, but I don't know. They don't think it should be a form of birth control, and neither do I...but if she was using protection there isn't much she can do! She can't raise a baby and it would ruin her chances of playing the sport she plays next year, which might keep her from college, which would make her on welfare, which would mean in the long run we are paying for her decision to keep the baby. They were all so condeming and it made me want to cry, and I don't even know for sure why..........
So yeah, I guess that is all I really wanted to talk about...no, I lied! I just need to say that it is really upsetting when most if not all your friends are beign weird. Some are extra moody, some are distant, some are bitchy....and I know that I am not the most pleasent person to be around, but still! It seems like everyone is having problems...and taking it out on eachother!
