While flipping through a magazing, I read an article on abstinance. I always felt like I would wait until I was married to have sex, I just thought it was right, something special I wanted to wait to give. Then, as I got older and started dating I felt like maybe I would only wate until I was sure I was ready. As my hormones rage on I feel like sex is just a natural thing to do. I feel like if I were to take the step, I would do it because I really truley love Adam. But I just have so many questions!
After it is done, you can't undo it. There is no way to take back your virginity in full. I have heard about second time virgins..something about people who had sex and then changed their mind and decided they weren't ready and decide not to do it again until marriage. Sounds nice, but I would feel like there is still something different. What makes sex such a big deal in people's life these days?! Why do people feel like just because they are filled with emotions for another person that need to have sex? I just don't understand.
So many things in this world are complicated enough as it is, why do people put themselves in such compromising positions? Why do they do things that they know could eventually hurt them? Why would you want to do something that could mess everything else up? I have seen too many times friends that sleep with their boyfriend's because they love them, and they feel or they are ready, but then things change. Sex complicates everything, and I feel at this time in my life that no matter how good it would feel, why complicate my life more than it already is?
I do love my boyfriend more than anything, but I feel like sex will be too much for us to handle now. We need to consitrate on us being happy, and talking, and being in love. And sex right now just doesn't play a role in it.
