Once Upon a Time
(or, why I am the way I am)
Slow Like Honey
-Fiona Apple-

You moved like honey in my dream last night
Yeah, some old fires were burning
You came near to me and you endeared to me
But you couldn't quite discern me

Does that scare you? I'll let you run away
But your heart will not oblige you
You'll remember melike a melody
Yeah, I'll haunt the world inside you

And my big secret--Gonna win you over
Slow like honey, heavy with mood

I'll let you see me, I'll covet your regard
I'll invade your demeanor
And you'll yield to me like a scent in the breeze
And you'll wonder what it is about me

It's my big secret--Keeping you coming
slow like honey, heavy with mood

Though dreams can be deveiving
Like faces are to hearts
They serve for sweet relieving
When fantasy and reality lie too far apart

So I stretch myself across, like a bridge
And I pull you to the edge
And stand there waiting
Trying to attain
The end to satisfy the story
Shall I release you?
Must I release you?
As I rise to meet my glory

But my big secret
Gonna hover over your life
Gonna keep you reaching
When I'm gone like yesterday
When I'm high like heaven
When I'm strong like music
'Cuz I'm slow like honey, and
Heavy with mood
I suppose you're wondering why I am the way I am, though why you would be so nosy, I have no idea. I guess it's not that important, so I have nothing to gain from keeping it secret. I do so love secrets, don't you? Sometimes I love to collect them and write them in a little book, but the most important ones I don't dare even share with my little book, but I'm getting off the subject again aren't I?

I guess it all started before I was born, my mommy met my daddy at a rock concert, I quite sure that drugs were involved, but drugs or not, I "became" that night in an old beat up van. Everyone's always saying that they want a rock and roll father, but let me tell you, it's not what it's cracked up to be. I have seen my father since, I think he did a reunion tour last year. He really loved the way I sing, in fact he still hums some of my tunes when he's not highly medicated. Appparently, ever since that night, he hears voices in his head, oh well, must have been all those drugs in the seventies.

Maybe the love of music is genetic, I've always loved to write and sing it, there's something very haunting about an unfinished song. Genetic or not, I was in love, it does sounds silly, in love with just a melody, but you show me a lover that's just as consistent, believe me, I've looked.

So I'm sure you're wondering, hey, if she loved music so much, why isn't she a music major? Trust me, you wouldn't be the first to ask, and I'll do the same thing I've done to everyone else, laugh ar you.



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