i think i need a pithy qoute for here.
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today my husband asked me if i would get depressed if he told me about someone being pregnant.
i guess i didn't fully understand how fully attuned he was to my moods. yea, i do get upset when i hear about how fertile everyone (but me) is. i was very sad when my best friend from college announced that she was pregnant. she was always better at everything. she had the talent, the drive, and because of that, the career. i thought i would be better at realtionships and "homey" stuff (you know, i am a disciple of Martha Stewart). i was married first and bought a house first. i thought i would be the mom first. when she miscarried, i felt like i had something to do with it. i know that i didn't, but i was giving off some (not many) bad vibes. i still feel guilty. i know that my depression is about my own insecurities. i also know that my depression is felt by everyone in my life.
until tomorrow
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