Title: How it happened...Tom's version
Author:Tauna (blktauna@shawstudios.com)
Series: VOY
Part: REV 1/2
Rating: [R] 
Codes: P/K
Summary: Tom looks back on what it took get what he wanted.

Archive as you will. I'd love to know if you enjoyed it. Constructive
criticism is welcome. Flames are not.

**Disclaimer**
Tom and Harry belong to Paramount. I just play with them. 
You should be over 18 and unoffended by two boys in love to read this.


How it happened...Tom's version 1/2 (VOY: P/K) [R] 
by Tauna

I wonder if you realize I made Sandrine's just for you. Everyone thought
that I did it to suit my own fantasies, and well, they were right but
not right at the same time. 

I wanted you as soon as I laid eyes on you. I saw you over the rim of my
coffee cup on DS9 and if I had thought I could have gotten away with it,
I would have fucked you there, bent over the bar in front of that little
ferengi jerk who was baiting you. I admit, back then, I was a dog and if
you had given it up, I probably would have just fucked you and left it
at that, but you made me work. Me... Tom Paris... I was so insulted, but
so intrigued at the same time.

I used to just purr in your ear. I can't believe no one ever called me
on that. No wonder you were confused, I used the same body language on
you as I did the girls I chased. I guess that's why I chased the girls,
you wouldn't put out and well why do something yourself when there are
others willing to do it for you?

You didn't seem to be frightened but you sure didn't help a whole lot either.
I dragged you on dates with me and the Delaneys. If I hadn't told them what 
the deal was ahead of time, they would have eaten you alive. The
worst part being that you wouldn't even have enjoyed it. My god, you would 
have me so wound up by the end of the night sometimes it took both of them 
to deal with the result. I laughed when they thanked you for it and you 
had no idea why they were thanking you.

I loved watching you eat. I still do. Your lips are amazing. I still
remember the first time I kissed them. They're so soft. And you still
have no idea. Every boy should learn clarinet. It truly does prepare you
for the future... I've always had such a thing for your lips and your
hair. Oh the way that hair used to swing when you walked. One time I
actually strained something keeping myself from wrestling you to the
floor. You laughed at me when you cut it off and I whined at you. By
then it wasn't the cheap thrill it used to be but I still love to touch
it. 

I used to sneak into your room at night. You didn't wake up back then...
At first I just stared at you. You laid there like a little mummy all
wrapped up with that stupid mask on. Your arms used to hug your chest
and I wished they were around me. You looked like a little kid. I can't
tell you how many times that saved you. But anyway, I got so horny just
looking at you that I decided I had to come up with some way of having
you. That's when I built Sandrine's. I wanted a place to take you where
I was in charge without seeming to be. I programed Sandrine as I knew her.
She would have been more than happy to help me anyhow. She would kiss
you, and stroke you... you were so embarrassed it was cute. I wanted you
to get used to being mauled in public. You looked really square and when
I hacked into your service record, I found out just how square. Geez...
my fingers should have been bleeding from the sharp edges. But I am the
one to want what I can't have so I stuck to it. 

You never blinked once at all the times I had my arms around you, hands
on your shoulders, the occasional "accidental" brush of fingers over
that beautiful butt of yours. You were real easy in Sandrine's. Every
once and awhile you'd snuggle against me, but when I'd touch you, you'd
pretend you thought I was Ricky or Sandrine. I loved how you would get
all bothered by the smoldering glances I sent your way. You said to me
once "I feel funny" right after I had snuck a feel. I almost choked. You
stood there all pink and confused with a raging hard on. That's when I
knew I had won. Paybacks are a bitch, and it was your turn to step off
the lift limping... 

You still teased me mercilessly. You just wouldn't seem to get the hint.
I know _now_ that was a load of crap but then... I spent enormous
quantities of time thinking up bizarre schemes to get between you and
those grey service boxers you still insist on wearing. Then there was
Akritiri. You grew up then, and you did it beautifully. I lay there in
your lap cursing whatever evil god had put my head there with no
strength to do what I wanted. But I said to myself "what a way to go!"
and simply reveled in your touch. If I hadn't known before, I knew then.
You guarded me with your life and I think we began to understand each
other even more. That's when I realized how much I had changed over our
little trip. I knew it was because of you. Now I realized that it wasn't
about you bent over the bar on DS9, it was about you and me against the
world. And if I had any say in things, it would be forever. 

You even forgave me that thing with B'Elanna. I don't know what I was
thinking. I never told you this but it was you she had always wanted.
She said she felt unworthy... I never understood that from her either. I
had to stop it when she told me she loved me and the only thing I could
think of was you. That's why I was surprised when you were so freaked
out over that thing with that little Varro tramp. You were busting at
the seams and well, I know you hadn't really come to terms with the
thought of "us" yet, so something had to give. You were so upset later.
It didn't matter to me. I love you just the same. 

I think I may have to thank her though. That's when you came to grips
with the concept of sexuality. A whole new world opened up for you then.
And I have to say I was the smiling recipient. I knew that Capt. Proton
adventure would come in handy. I still laugh at how slow you are
sometimes. You never once wondered why you were in chains, tied up,
whatever... Even now you are too innocent for your own good. But maybe
that's one of the things I cherish most about you. That and they way you
are continually shocked when I discover another one of your kinks...
who'd have ever thought behind that innocent smile was a man who could
come screaming from having his foot chewed on. 

You are a continual amazement to me Harry Kim and I love you more than
anything in the universe.