May 25, 1998
My mind is distracted and confused
I have nothing left to lose.
Like a gypsy I lost my way,
And now I must pay.
Too much heartache in my life,never thought I would be just a wife.
Somewhere out there, there is way
that I can go and still stay.
Too many lonely nights
hiding from the light,
thoughts that I cannot explain
falling down on me like rain.
The feelings I would rather hide,
all the times that I have tried,
My tears are bitter and empty
its grown cold inside of me.
I have thoughts of days that have gone by,
and the dreams I missed make me cry
I live my life in disbelief,
wondering why my heart still beats.
From the cradle to the graveit's only love that we all crave.
A feeling that is not real,
just a trust for others to steal.
And in the corners of my mind,
I can look back at a time,
when life was still what I wanted most,
but that person now is just a ghost.
Shadows live inside my head,
along with voices of the dead.
They haunt me in my sleep,
I lie awake and weep,
there's nothing to be done or said.This is where my path has lead.
And so here I shall stand, still in time
looking forward and behind,
frozen in this place I am,
doing only what I can.
But it's ok, I am comfortable here.
What's the difference here or there,
Life is the same in the end,
and happiness is just pretend.
So in the shadows, I shall hide
all the pain I feel inside,
and what you see, is just a myth
But it's one we all can live with.
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