Thinking back to the numerious meetings I was at the farm
of the Gurdjieff Stichting Nederland in Loenen aan de Vecht in the Netherlands
where Michel received us and he tyrelessly answered our questions, I really
regret the passing of Michel de Salzmann.
In all those meetings together I have learned very, very
much from him and I am feeling now as if I lost a companion on my personal
voyage.
Not a companion who made everything according to my whishes,
but one who honestly tried to bring me further and further on my path.
I know him as a real teacher helping me, even when he did
put high hurdles before me, putting me from my secure place and left
me puzzled behind.
Now again ..............
I thought I knew him a little bit, but I have to confess
that he found me on his way and tried to his utmost to line me up behind
him as he did with so many. I was withstanding him like he was withstanding
me. I see now we were in a battle, but than I tried to search where he
was standing. That is why in those things there is no winner.
I simply lost the help of my adversary on the 4th of August
2001.
I fully forgive him all the things he did to me, because
he did those for heaven sake.
