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Good times have befallen me with this Part X. I?m really glad I?m here with Ada. We?ve been remembering the ?good ole days? when life was less complicated. We?ve been remembering the life we had before we became best friends. Then we?ve recalled memories of people we know and have seen recently. Like this one girl, who shall remain nameless that I despise, who didn?t recognize me when she saw me. Looking back we both have realized that we?ll always pick up where we left off at. It?s strange seeing how much everything is still the same here in Kentucky. Almost everyone here is just as dumb and backwards as ever. Then after thinking a little bit I?ve realized that people in this town are very close minded, which is why I never really fit in. I?m very open-minded when it comes to a lot of different people. I give the people without a chance that they might not get. Upchuck for instance. I honestly don?t find him the complete abomination that everyone else does. Yes he is nicer when he?s himself and not off being a jackass to someone. part of that I think is that people don?t allow him to be who he is; he?s not given enough room. Then again he has been nothing but nice to me personally so I don?t have anything against him. I have decided that it?s best to learn about people from themselves and not other people. that way you get the truth and not heresy. Then again people tend to exaggerate the truth around other people. It?s sad but true. You can?t ignore what people say entirely. it?s just a matter of sorting through what you?ve heard and what you know, comparing the information and seeing what?s the most logical. Unfortunately a lot of people have trouble doing that due to a lack of common sense and life experience. We?re all too quick to judge people. I know that most of the people I ran across here were like that with me. I came off sometimes as being very stuck-up. All that is is my pride. I am a very proud person. Proud of who I am and what I?m about. I have a lot of self-confidence and lack fear when it comes to other people?s opinion of that. People here tend to take that as a threat. Out in Eugene they figured out that it?s my defense mechanism that I use when forced to deal with an unknown situation or new people. Because I realized this I was able to make friends quicker since they realized it was only a facade. My friends in Eugene know me as a person better than here. But people in Louisville understand me as an artist a whole lot better, which is what I?ve missed the most. The exception with this has got to be Ada and Elliott, who know me for me and love both sides and appreciate me with one word: Lia. Just as I accept them with the only words I can use to describe them: Ada and Elliott. Farewell for the evening.
End Part X.

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