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That's When I Realized...
I don't like to cry. Have you ever cried and actually thought about the
reason you were crying as the tears were falling from your face? Well, one
day, I cried, and cried so loudly, that I actually heard myself. I was taken
aback. I asked myself the reason for my pain. And while trying to blame
someone else, I realized I couldn't. I have been crying all of my life, and I
never understood why. I never thought I would. Until one day, I had to
focus, regroup... I had to be me, well, become me...
When you look in the mirror, do you see yourself? Mirror, mirror, on the
wall, who is the fairest, of them all... lol... the mirror probably told you
it's your shadow.
Often times, I wished I were my shadow. I could be me with out the pain,
the emotions, all of those mental, physical, and emotional feelings with
which I suffered. My shadow didn't have to think. It always follows the
correct path. Before I became NLUVWSELF, I thought I was following
my shadow... I even tried to talk to my shadow to better understand the
concept of total blackness. No matter how you view life and all of the
encumbrances... everyone's shadow is the same color...black. My shadow
wouldn't talk back. I would whisper, tell secrets, jokes... I would speak
loudly, and even scream sometimes. But my shadow never spoke. And
that's when I realized...
That I was my shadow. I am my shadow. I was afraid of the blackness, I
was afraid... I was afraid of me.
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