Thursday
1/21/99
tossing, turning, waking with a jolt and rolling over to reach for someone who's not supposed to be there. the cold chill on her shoulders, her bedsheets in a jumble at the foot of the bed, the goosebumps rise on her arms and across her breasts. she shivers and rolls onto her back to let her heart, that weak thing, stop thumping so painfully, threateningly. she won't move for fear that this could be the time her heart gives out. this could be her last scare, her last adrenaline rush. what did she dream about last night that frightened her so? she dreams of him, but can't remember. she knows she dreams of him. she sighs and tries not to miss him, to think only of her breathing, keep it steady and secure while her heart slows to its usual bumpy rythm. her lips are slightly parted, almost blue, now, as she moves her hands to lightly feel the skin on her belly. she's cold and feels sick as the chill hits her bones. her hands, her feet, ice. she sits up to reach the blankets and is immediately thrown back down. sharp, a knife of pain in her chest. is this it? is this the end? she starts to miss him once againa dn begins to feel her tears on her cheeks and on the pillowcase beneath her head, and her breathing becomes cobbing heaves, accentuating the pain, deeper needles under her ribs, but she can't stop crying, she's so lonely, she's so cold. she can't stop missing him.
- fallen
previous thoughts of the day
Softest
Thought of My Day... by Elkantar
excerpts from my dissertation on life
Knee-high, Leather, 6 inch Heels
Jesus
I'm doubting everything lately... rohandor
Pride noiraranea
"I am woman" dollpini
the Dream Train
excerpts
I Do Not Want This... by Trent
There once was a little girl... 2 (y'all better read this one...)
Everything
Thank You
Wrestling Woman Inards
School and Psychoanalysis...
Vengeance!!!
Brandon
listening to Bush and feeling sassy...
There once was a little girl.... 1
I want to believe
Timing by rohandor
...for you have left your first love.
On Love
the Mystical, Magical Land of Algebra2
Something Wicked This Way Comes
What does one do?
Cold Sweat Nightmares
Hate Me
Personal Inventory by Dollphini
First Contact, with Kyle
:::whispers::: Lime-Green Elephant
"They say that sex between two people who really hate each other..."
Boys are Yucky
What happens if we all fall down?
Vegas
BluesMan84
Politics and Wealth
The Nature of God
The Nature of Man
Beauty
Only the Good Die Young by Dollphini
Ode to Shawn
poetry
the embrace
about me
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