...My eyes are red and swollen... yes,
But it is not due to crying;
I have simply been staring
At a red light for much too long,
Awaiting the green,
Awaiting a sign,
Awaiting the sun.

...There are no butterflies
Fluttering in the pit of my stomach
When i think of you,
No twinkle in my eye
When you make me laugh,
Nor any smile on my face
When i see the beauty in your name.

...The phone rings
And it does not even enter my mind
That it could be your voice on the other end.

...The thought of being face to face with you
Does not terrify me in the least
Or even excite me one bit;
My heartbeat does not go haywire
At the anticipated magic we could create together

...If, for days, we do not talk,
I do not miss you at all.
Sure, one might notice a frown on my face
Or a lack of sunlight in my eyes,
But it has never anything to do with you.

...You are not the green for which i wait and wait,
You are not the soothing sun after the wind and rain,
And there is no way you, of all people,
Would be the one whose heart
Holds the sign with my name on it.

...Yes, we have much in common,
But those are only trivial matters,
Certainly nothing to base a relationship upon.

...Each time i listen to the songs
Whose beauty and sound we both love,
I am not reminded of you by the music and poetry
As i am sure that they do not remind you of me,
And I certainly do not like to pretend that
At that very exact moment,
You are, somewhere, singing along with me.

...And when i'm alone at night,
Longing for someone to hold,
It is not your arms
I would like to feel around me,
Not your shoulder
On which i would like to lean my head,
Nor your lips i dream of,
Placing a gentle kiss on my hair.

... No, you are not the lover
Whom i've fantasized about for so long.
Imagining you here with me
Doesn't, in any way, entice my senses
Or even begin to stimulate my body.

...We do not challenge each others' minds;
Never have you captivated me with
Your thoughts, your wit, your kindness,
And nor did i ever captivate you with
My art, my imagination, my sensitivity.

...You don't spend endless times wondering,
Going over all the what-if scenarios in your head
Just as i, myself, never worry about you or me or us.

...The very last thing i want to do right now
Is reach out for that empty space
You keep hidden inside your weary heart.
I have no desire for all i know you could offer me,
And all i have in me to give i don't want to give to you.

...We are but two estranged souls,
Travelling in different directions;
Fleeting memories are all that we were ever destined
To give, to keep, to be to each other.

...I deeply care for you, but only as a friend.
I certainly do not see in you a man
With whom I would perhaps like to
Share my past, present and future.
Nor I am secretly wishing
That you will one day see in me the woman
Whom you've been seeking for a lifetime.

If you can believe all that
Then I shall believe it too
...With time.