In my head, nothing is left but a few thoughts gone astray
And even if i, for once,
Was given a choice
Only myself i fear i would still betray

***

The cartoon bubble over my head has been colored black
I need no more words to
Fuck you or damn you
My hands are filled with sticks and stones to attack

I had built a solid wall against which i could rest my back
But life and you
Have turned my body to blue
Now that wall bears a wide unfixable crack

***

With fingers tracing and retracing your name in a sigh's mist
I come apart in portion,
The prey of quiet desperation,
Clenching the remnants of my sanity in both fists

My mouth ached for an angel but it tasted the lie of a devil's kiss
Raping my conscience
Of its last illusions
I was forced to lick my own blood off your lips

***

But even when you cut off my tongue i vowed to be your light
I wouldn't let myself believe
What my eyes had seen
The dark clouds inside you rained on my sight

In you i had found the sun of my day, the moon of my night
On the stage of my heart was a dream
But violence starred and stole the scene
The curtain now falls at the close of a domestic fight

***

I am no longer the slave of your life, the prisoner of your bed
No more will you fuck me
No more will you damn me
Because on the floor there you lie, under my hands, dead

For years, my husband, you were the master in my head
I tried but from you i could not flee
I cried but no one but you ever heard my plea
Now freedom has come but its cost is my touch stained in red

And as i sit beside what's left of you
What's left of me leaving me torn in two
What more could i say that hasn't already been, in vain, said?