i dont know what concerns me more.... that im an alchohalic or thtat geocities is so easy to break into that i was able to do it drunk without rememebrering mh password, or that i'm writing in my public journal while this intoxicated.... i dpm't kmnpw if i vee ever been this drunk... yet i can write html... amozing.....!@!!!!!!

so you want a journal entry.... i'm very happpy that ken brought alcohal with him... cause i think i've done in my supply.... i don't know if what i'm saying makes sence... since i'm doing this with my eyes closed.... i cna't tell you all i'lve been honest...


Im being honest right now thoughM


the only person i've ever loved is getting m,arried... and i can';t evben see the letter s i'm writing... infact if it weren 't for the space bar none of this would make any sence... it's good it s large... other wise i wouldn't be able to find it.....
br is hared to typw
if yo've ever writen html drunk y0ou can feel my pain....
i f3eel bad for all of you who i 've known after my time with my lov e... cause you've never met me... you've met an unreal monster... a creature uncapable of love or sympathy.... for all of you that met me before i died i'd like to say sorry for your lose... he ne ver met to hurt anyone.... sean is dead... i'm sorry .... leda left him and everything he thought he was vanished like a movie... thatnk god for the home row or this would have never existed.

he misses you all... but alas... he is gone.... farwelll... and good ridens... i'd say. i don't really want him around making me miserable... with all his love and his meaning... isn't pleasure reason enough to suvive... i think so .... he s here tonight though... i left him incharge for way to long... he didi a good job... yet stilll.... he broke a major rule... and fell in love, and he's paid fpr it ever since... he should 've done drugs like normal prople people... and he signed up for the navy!!! whzat the fuck... such a son of a bitch... what a baster3ed.... i can't completerly control him.... that's wha tai get for trusting my body to such an ass fuck... leda... what a stupid fucking thing to be so upset for...

oh by the way... i'm NIB is back ... so fear while you can... i'm your fear. your hatred... your final breath... i've come for you... whether i'm the evil... or that pussy sean... i'm here for you... pray while you can .... i'm coming all the saome... may your gods help you...