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~~~~~~THE WALL~~~~~~

IF

If I was down
Would you hold me close
Restore my faith
And lift my spirits up...
If I was afraid
Would you wipe the tears
And take away the darkness from my dreams...
If I was afraid
To bare my soul
Would you stand beside me and wait for me
If I told you I loved you
And the way you make me feel
Would you turn and just walk away from me...
But if you told me you were down
I'd hold you close
And make your spirits soar once more...
If you were afraid
I'd wipe those tears away
And shed the light upon you...
If you were afraid
To bare your soul
I would hold your hand
And wait for you to come to me...
If I told you I loved you
Then it must be true
If I thought it would hurt you in some way
That's only when I'd close my heart
And have to walk away...
JULES

IT DOESN"T MATTER...

It doesn't matter to me what you do for a living
Or how much money you have
As long as you enjoy the adventures of life
It doesn't matter to me how old you are
Only what your dreams are.
It doesn't matter to me to me how you came to be here
Just if you've ever touched your own sorrow
ot felt the joy of your own presence.
I want to know if you can see the beauty of the world
Even if it's not present everyday.
It doesn't matter to me who you've been with
Just if you can let ectasy fill you from your fingertips
To your toes without limitations
And to truly feel and be felt.
It doesn't matter to me where, what, or whom you have studied
I just want to know what sustains you from inside
When everything else falls away.

Could you...

Could you ever really see...the real me?
Could you ever really see..the truly good and passionate side of me?
Could you ever really see...how much I love you and want you with me?
Could you ever really know in you own heart...how much you mean to me?
Could you ever really look beyond...your own past and betrayals and know I wouldn't do that to you?
Or will it all be lost for nothing, due to your own insecurities?
Only when you allow yourself to accept me completely
Could you ever...really love me.
JULES

THE SPECIAL MOTHER

"Armstrong, Beth, Son. Patron Saint, Matthew. Marjorie, Daughter. Patron Saint, Cecilia. Rutledge, Carrie, twins. Patron Saint...give her Gerald. He's used to profanity."
Finally, he passes a name to an angel and smiles,"give her a special needs child."
The angel is curious. "Why this one Lord? She's so happy."
"Exactly," smiles God, "could I give a special needs child to a mother who doesn't know laughter? That would be cruel."
"But does she have patience?" asks the angel.
"I don't want her to have too much patience, or she will drown in the sea of sel-pity and despair. Once the shock and resentment wears off, she'll handle it ok. I watched her today. She has the sense of self and independence that are so rare, and so necessary in a mother. You see, the child I am going to give her has its own world. She has to make it live in her world, and that's not going to be easy."
"But Lord, what if she doesn't believe in you?" asks the angel.
God smiles, "No matter. I can fix that. This one has enough selfishness."
The angel gasps, "Selfishness? Is that a virtue?"
God nods, "If she can't separate herself from the child occassionally, she'll never survive. Yes, here is a woman whom I will bless with a child who will be less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied. She will never take for granted a spoken word.She will never consider a step ordinary. When her child says "Mama" for the first time, she will witness a miracle and know it. When she describes a tree or a sunset to her blind child, she will see it as few people ever see my creations."
"I will permit her to see clearly the things I see-ignorance,cruelty, prejudice-and allow her to rise above them. She will never be alone. I will be at her side every minute of everyday of her life because she is doing my work, as surely as she is here by my side."
"And what about her, Patron Saint, my Lord?" asks the angel, his pen in mid-air.
God smiles, "A mirror will suffice."
-Erma Bombeck

Prelude To Love
Once she was enticing, He looked.
Once her words were joyful, He listened.
Once she caressed him, He felt.
Once roses bloomed, He preserved them.
Once she was in love, He shoved her away.

"I wasn't like you" I try to explain as my hands shake and my tears hide in terror...
But I was. And I am.

Strangers on a Quest...
We were strangers seeking a quest that could not be classified
As time flew by you opened up to me, as I did you
All your thoughts, dreams, and hopes
You entrusted to me.
Leaving the past where it belongs
And beginning to heal all the hurt inside,
I see you leaving little by little
nd continuing down the road of life
Accepting what you feel you can not change
And with that you will be free to open your heart and truly set it free.
Someday when you leave, I know I will cry
But I will smile too
For I know two souls who have touched in a special way
Will never truly say good-bye.
Jules

There's more to me than what you see When you just look at me
There's more to me than the stops
And stares that surround me
Look deep inside and you just might find
More beauty there

Jules

I call this the Wall of Graffetti (excuse me if I spelled that wrong, I don't own a dictionary...afterall everything we need to know we learned in Kindergarten, right?) If you are offended by nudity, feel free to click your back button.

You loved me when I was laughing
But you hurt me more and more
You took away my bright smile.
I gave you far too much
I gave you the best gift you can give
You took away my trust
You send me empty letters
Thrive on empty promises
But for them I no longer fall.
You never deserved my loving
I once again have a bright happy smile
Which is once again mine not yours.

Somewhere along the way
By chance to souls met
And somewhere along the way
They connected in a way
That enters the core ofeverything they stand for.
And somwhere along the way
They knew that meeting wasn't by chnace
That destiny intervened and made this link.
Somewhere two souls took a chance
A chance on trust, a chance to share
In everything that they are.
Somewhere along the way, as time moves on
They may come together or distance themselves from each other.
But no matter
Because these two souls shared what each one needed
And somewhere along the way
Allowed their souls to reach out, to touch and to love
And that lasts forever. JULES

We were strangers never dreaming what we would find
What we would have to go through
For all those times you stood by me
Became my strength when I was weak
You're the one who held me up
Like a gentle breeze that carried me
And saw me through it all
When I lost my faith
You gave it back to me
Became my voice when I couldn't speak
My eyes when the tears wouldn't allow me to see
And still saw the very best there was in me.
I know this much is true
Through the lies you were the truth
And my world is a better place because of you. JULES

Although I'm far from you
There is so much more ahead
The single thread that binds us
Has suddenly become thread
Let's soar higher than we ever dreamed alone
I want to weave it through every tomorrow
And dance through each day
Just think, I might be the one
Who was truly meant for you!

If you judge people, you have little time to love them

It only takes a minute to have a crush on someone
It only takes an hour to like someone
And only a day to love someone
But it takes a lifetime to forget someone

My Sad Eyes
Looks like it's over
You knew I couldn't stay
She'd be coming home today
We had a good thing, I'll miss your sweet love
Why must you look at me that way
Sad eyes turn the other way
I don't wanna see you cry
Sad eyes you knew there'd come a day
When we'd have to say goodbye
I never used you, you knew I really cared
I hate to see it have to end
But it's over

No man is worth your tears
When you find one that is
He won't make you cry

MASK
A mask covers her
Her inner self hidden from most
Afraid, but willing to face the unknown
As she takes her steps through the journey of life...
She has come close to sharing herself
But time and time again the invisible chains pull her back
And only in her dreams is her reality before her eyes.
But one day she knows
There will be no mask to wear
Like it or not to the visible world
She will know who she is
Where her place is in the world,
And will give freely and unconditionally
And her question to you will be...
Can you? JULES

Broken Wing
She loved him like he was the last man on earth
Loved him with all she had
He'd break her spirit down, then come lovin' in on her
He'd give a little, just to take it back
She'd tell him her dreams, He'd shoot them down
He loved to make her cry
She keeps an eye on the sky
She carries her dreams with a broken wing
But man you should see her fly!
-Matina McBride

I didn't come here to find love
I just want to have some fun
In this virtual land
It takes me away from reality
When "real" becomes routine
And sometimes no time to dream
I may be confusing at times
Defensive to get attached
This happens when I'm fighting my thoughts
My way to stay "detached"
I care for my friends in here
In my heart I know they are real
So please have patience with me
I'll prove to be a good friend
Just don't try to change something good
Because I would hate to see it have to end

Unbreakable Hearts
I suppose I should know sometimes love just comes and goes
But I believed foolishly
We'd go on and on
One day someone will come to you
And rock you tightly in ehr arms
Please remember this when you drop your guard
Nobody has an unbreakable heart
From an angels tears to a fallen star
God makes everything
But unbreakable hearts
-Jessica Andrews

It's Sad To Belong
Lady when you looked my way
I had a strange sensation
And that's when I knew...
That it's sad to belong to someone else
When the right person comes along,
Oh, I wake up in the night
And I reach beside me
Hopin' you will be there
But instead I find someone else
So I live my life in a dream world
For the rest of my days
Just you and me walking hand in hand
To a wishful memory
Oh, I guess that's all it'll ever be
Wish I had a time machine
I could make myself go back
And I would live my life again
And rearrange it so it'll be
Yours from now on.
Oh, it's sad to to belong to someone else.
-England Dan&John Coley

Why does it hurt so bad this time
It's not like it hasn't happened before
Someone comes in and enters my space
Then the sound of a closing door
I tell them to becareful before you start
Don't say things you don't mean to me
But time after time they go for the heart
And open it for all to see.
I'm tired of being the one who cares
The one who gives without an end
But maybe these were not real men.
It would take maturity to mean what you say
Yet so coldly play their game
And tell me to trust them, they won't let me down
Yest here I am deceived, once again its the same.
Through it all I will rise again
Another will come with a smile and a taunt
Oh Baby, I Love You...you are all that I want.
But someday there will be honesty there
The one who was meant to be mine for all time
Will sneak up on me and kiss me from behind.
I'll know right away he'll love me forever and a day
He will be strong but gentle, loving and kind
Won't betray my trust or mess with my mind.
I wish he would hurry and get here to me
'Cause I'm sick of the jerks that I hear and see.
Then life will be full and I'll shine like the sun.
Until then I will sit and just be with my friends
And give berth to the so-called men
Who live to cause pain and heartbreak to all.
I'll listen to hear my name as he calls
Come, love, sit with me and let's talk of all things
I can feel my spirit soar, my heart take on wings.
To the others I say be careful what you sow
"Cause a garden of pain I know is all you grow.

Jules

Can I cast my eyes upon you
Can I count on you to walk with me
Down that long and windy road
When two hearts slowly surrender
And are sworn to understand
It completes a union between a man and a woman
So please don't misunderstand me
I don't wanna go too far
Without knowing just one answer
Can I trust you with my heart...

When you met that certain someone
You've been searching hard to find
It's a new love full of passion that can
Sometimes make you blind.

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