When you lose someone that was special to you, that was in your life. You go through some strange emotions of grief.... And no matter how much you cry, nothing will ever bring them back again, so You have to go through a process in which you come to terms with their death...

Grief

These poems are dedicated in Loving Memory of my boyfriend, James Michael Bashaw, PMC of Robert L. Wade Chapter, (December 10, 1979 - August 26, 1995)
He was a light that will forever shine in the hearts of many people and will be greatly missed. He is watching over us as our Guardian Angel until we meet again

Remember

I can't explain why this has happened
I'm can't even begin to try
He left so suddenly
Without telling me good-bye
Why he left so soon
I will never know
Tell me why it hurt so much
When I had to watch him go
I rememeber when we met
The stars were shining bright
When he took me in his arms
We fell in love that night
I remember every moment
Every precious melody
Why did this have to happen now
Why did he have to leave?
There is so much left unsaid and undone
He didn't know what he meant to me
Now he'll never know
I only wish that he could see
That I'll miss his voice... his laugh
I'll miss his smile
I guess i'll miss everything about him
For a long long while
But now his time on earth is over
But he is still in my heart
And he'll remain here with me
No matter how long we are apart

You must have been an Angel

You must have been an Angel
sent from up above
to grace me with your presence
and shine me with your love
You were so many things
that I never knew
There were so many things
That we never got to do
You came into my life
You brightened up my day
Then when I least expected it
You suddenly went away
But whenever I want to see you
I just close my eyes
And I am in a place
Where people never die
And you are by my side
Smiling from ear to ear
You turn to me and say
Though we've been apart, I still love you dear
But you must remember
You have a life to live
And you have so much
That you need to give
Do not cry for me
I am happy here
Do not yell and scream
When you shed your tears
For I am by your side
Watching from above
And you will always have
My undying love
I am in a place where people never hurt
It is a happy place
With rainbows and clouds
I always have a smile upon my face
I'm so sorry I left you dear
I really had to leave
My time on earth was over
I'm sorry I left you to grieve
But  I will always be an Angel
Watching you from above
To grace you with my presence
And shine you with my love

You Were the One
You were the one that was stong
When I needed a shoulder to cry on
You were the one that would laugh
At all of my dumb jokes
You were the one that would hold me
When I needed someone to
You were the one that would love me
Just because, no reason at all
You were the one that would tell me
That everything would be alright
No matter how bad things got in life
I will still be okay
You were my rock
You were my strength
You were my friend, the best I ever had
You were my love
You were my one
that I thought would be there all of my life
Just to tell me along the way
That I would be okay
But you arent here now
When I need you the most
When I need one of your hugs
Your shoulder to cry on
Your words of comfort whispered in my ear
Your smile
Why did you have to leave now
When I need you the most
When I want you the most
I dont understand what is happening
Why now?
Why me?
Why you?
You were my one, my angel
I need you so....
I wish you were here
But you arent and never will be again
So I will see you again in Heaven, my love
I'll see you in Heaven, be waiting for me

All My Life

All my life I waited for you
I thought all my life you will be here
I thought we'd be together
You'd always be near
But now you are in Heaven
And all my life I will grieve
And wonder why so soon
That you had to leave
All my life, I will never find someone like you
Someone with your smile, your heart
Someone who genuinely cares
Now All my life we'll be apart
All my life I will love you
All my life I will care
I will cry by your grave
I will talk to you like you are there
I will never forget you
No matter how long I am here
I will always smile at your memory
I will always hold you dear