Here is all my thought on me going on a mission. I figured that I'd just put them all on this page, get all of the doubts out of head, and help me get prepared for serving the Lord. I'll just write everything that enters my head.

1. My music. I listen to the radio all the time. I mean ALL the time. I have linked a lot of songs to memories, so every time I hear them, I remember the event or feeling. All of the songs I listened to during all three years of EFY I have connected to strong memories. The songs each remind me of EFY.
2. My new nephew. I will see him a couple months old, when I am in the airport leaving for Romania. Next time I'll see him, he'll be two years old! I'll have missed his growing up years.
3. My family. My brother will be graduating as the class of '99. I won't be there for his graduation. We're close, and we have a lot of fun together. I'll miss my mother's Over The Hill Party. I'll just plain miss my dad.
4. My friends. I won't be there for their mission farewells. In fact, in less they write me, I won't even know if they go, or where they serve. I'll miss hanging out with them. They have been the best people in my life (besides family)! I am so thankful that they accepted me, I've never had such good friends.
5. Internet related friendships. I've made many friends on the Internet. I don't want to lose contact with them forever. My family is going to terminate my Internet account once I leave. Unless my Internet friends write, I will never hear from them again. I don't want that to happen.
6. Especially For Youth. I wouldn't be able to attend anyway, because I will be 19. But I will miss going to it. It has been the best event in my entire life! The people, and friendships I've made there are so unique and I'll miss that experience incredibly!

1. My family. I wish I had treated them with more respect. They have given me so much! I really owe them everything. I don't know how I can be so ungrateful. I love them a lot. My parents raised me well, my brother is one of my best friends, and my sister is wonderful. I need to tell them I love them much more than I do. I am going to miss them so much! I am so glad I am blessed with them.
2. My scriptures. For about a year, I think my sophomore year, I was inspired by Seminary to ready my scriptures every single day for 10 minutes. I did it faithfully, I think I missed 3-7 days that entire year. But after that I tried to get inspired again, and I was, but it didn't last. I would forget one night, then the next, and so on. I need to read the whole Book of Mormon from front to back before my mission. I'm going through that cycle again. I was really motivated, but now I'm struggling again. Writing this is encouraging me again!
3. My callings. I don't feel that I really magnified them. I didn't really try that hard. I was too selfish. I am afraid that I will want to do the same thing on my mission. I won't let myself though. My mission means too much to me. I will work as hard as possible. One of my managers at work told me, "You will get discouraged, times will be hard. Just remember to put forth just a little more effort. If you just take a couple more steps, right around the bend will be the greatest reward. You'll get exactly what you needed to keep you motivated." I really like that manager. He reminds me of John Bytheway, for all you EFY, BYU Education Week, and youth conference goers.