I thought it might be a good idea to state something more about myself for those who visit my website that don't know me.

Found this in a horoscope years ago, which is telling about my "life" pretty much in one paragraph!

"By now you should have learned how little human will (even that so powerfully wielded by the forceful imaginative and creative powers of the Cancer) can affect the will of Fate. Because you somehow lost your faith in Fate, you recently suffered an extremely despondent period. Letting fear and worry overwhelm you also undermined your health. But your stars indicate this isn't the time for fear or worry - more a time to believe that nothing is impossible, because nothing is! You have been taking life far too seriously. Remember, the reason angels can fly is because they take themselves so lightly. Try it."

After reading that I was surprised how this was 100% true about me and my past up to that year. Now I am facing my new challenges soon to be conquered, and I already had a taste of what that will be like. My family is a bunch of doubters and nea sayers, so I feel like Don Quichote often. Germans don't do this affirmation thing! They don't tell themselves or other people "you can do it" or "you can become anything you want" or "you are special" ...it is a cultural thing, but makes me depressed whenever someone puts my dreams down immediately without even knowing one thing about them or me for that matter. My friends know me better than my family because they really care about me as me, a person.

I am an action person - I hate boredom! That's why a recent Horoscope for me read:

"The Sun is in Taurus and the Moon is in Libra. This won't be a peaceful day at work, that's for sure. It's not going to be very relaxing at home tonight, either. It looks like there's enough chaos to last most people a month. You're pretty good at handing situations like this, however. A little-known fact about your sign is that you kind of like excitement. You seem to be such a quiet, placid sort of person that nobody would really suspect it. Truth of the matter is, sometimes you stir things up. That won't be necessary today, however. They're pretty well stirred up enough without any help from you. You could go ahead and play the role of the peacemaker or moderator. You're good at that, too."

You find that interesting? Well go to my Zodiac page and you'll find out more!

Work/Life
My main interest has always been my work..really. Now you are going to think I am a very sick person..and you are probably right. I find fulfillment only through my work, and at this point in time that is not the case anymore. I lost two of my best jobs I ever had due to some financial trouble of my employers (and partially other "problems" as well). I was powerless, and therefore moved on, or tried to. Now I am in a job that provides me with a living, lot's of freedom, a great boss and collegues, but none of the things I need most in my life,........ ADRENALIN...or... a busy schedule, meaningful work where I feel like I have accomplished something, when I go home at night, lot's of contact with people, responsibility and variety.

I am an organizing talent, always keep deadlines, focused (usually)..smart and with extremely good intuition. This applies to my private life as well as my professional life. I organized 3 moves across the Atlantic so far, and everything went smoothely each time, and I did the planning and execution of those moves entirely on my own. I always think if you can do that, you can have your own company. That is really my big dream, to have a small business of my own. Unfortunately it is not easy to find something you want to do, and decide which is best. Then there is luck, money and being at the right place at the right time - not my forte'.

I waited for my big break all my life, and 1997 one big break came along, just that I did not notice it. I received a job offer as an Executive Assistant to the President of a large Steamship Corporation, but due to some rumors I heard of a pending chapter 11 (bankruptcy) I was very hesitant, since I had been there twice before losing a job due to financial problems of my employer. Also I was already on this new position, and just finished most of my training. I thought it was a really bad time for another move. It seems that "timing" is always the problem in my professional life.

I followed my gut feeling which told me to be careful, and not accept at this time. Later I read in the paper that this company was indeed bought out by Canadian Pacific which has no financial problems. So, I guess I made the wrong choice. Lost out on an opportunity that comes around only once in life.

Favored hobby
Other than my work, I have my Mom who lives in Europe (Germany). My dad past away three years ago, and we both had trouble adjusting to that. Now we are doing ok, although our lives have forever changed. We both face the challenge of survival daily, as she is a widow with small income, and I have a meger income as well and am not able to support her like I wanted.. or myself in a great way for that matter. But we are both doing ok compared to other people, so I suppose we can still count our blessings. I am in the middle of huge comittments and that will take at least a year to see "land". Two job losses in less than 2 years really put a strain on me financially. I have however, been able to keep my house, and that is an accomplishment too. For a while, I thought I would lose it all and end up on the street. Too bad I sold it to move back here (Germany) - unfortunately I did live to regret that, and hoped that never happens. :(

I used to have hobbies as well, but since I moved to the US, I have never picked up new one's here. Well except maybe for photography - it is my great passion and I bought a fancy camera last year. Now all I need is TIME to drive around and capture things on film.

My companions
In Germany, I used to have a horse, my pride and joy... until my back started giving me problems, and I could not ride anymore. Later when I met my future husband, I decided to sell it. I always missed my horse, and do..up to this day. I also had a cat, which died a few years later. Now my physical exercise is more or less limited to walking/hiking...biking. I love hiking!

Now I have new pal, my cat Sammy (she has er own site). She is crazy, a little menace, but she is my joy. She is smart and cute, and a good companion. She plays, she loves (when SHE wants to), ... she is there. Meanwhile I have pictures of my important people and animals in my life on this webpage .

Potential hobbies
All my life I enjoyed painting and drawing, not very good at it, but still it is very calming and beautiful. Due to all my chores and errands on weekends though, I always feel it is not enough time to take my pads and paint brushes out.... which is a shame. One day I hope to resume that hobby. If I would die tomorrow I would regret this most, that I did not continue painting.

Traveling girl
Well, my other favored is traveling, something I rarely get to do nowdays. I used to have a job that send me traveling a lot, and I really enjoyed that. I miss that a great deal. Once a year I try to visit my mom in Germany though, but lately that has been a problem due to job changes. Well I still managed to go, but under what circumstances...where up until a few years ago I would be on the "road" jetting from City and Country to Country within 3 months visit 5 different places ahhhhhh... those were the days!

Secret addiction (Babe's and Hunks and Men)
When I am at home though I love to watch movies, they are my (secret) passion. I can watch 12 hours back to back with no problem at all. I prefer old movies from the 40's, 50's era of the great stars, all the way up to early 60's with my last favored of that time being "My fair Lady", and "Breakfast at Tiffany". Also *THE* most favored movies of mine ever! My favored actors/actresses are first *Audrey Hepburn*, and *Cary Grant*, Jimmy Stewart, those three are very special to me. Further Gary Cooper, Katherine Hepburn, Doris Day, Rock Hudson, etc.. a few of my all time favored are further, "Roman Holiday", "Sabrina", "Affair to Remember", "It's a wonderful Life", some old German movies that always "get" me like the first one I remember when I was very very young "The Buddenbrooks" and of course my all time favored to this day the "Sissi" trilogy....more *names*??, Doris Day's movies, Cary Grant's movies w/ Katherine Hepburn "Philadelphia", (great chemistry) and many many more that I cannot think of the names right now. All the old "Father of the Bride" movies, old Hitchcock movies like "Birds" and many more.
In new movies my all time favored would be (youngest first)"Hope Floats", "As good as it gets", "Face Off", "The Rock", "While you were sleeping", "Pretty Woman", "Dirty Dancing", definitely "Arthur", "Wall Street", "Speed I & II", "Howards End", "Birdcage", "Waiting to Exhale", "First Wifes Club", with my favored actors/actresses, Julia Roberts, Sandra Bullock, Antonio Sabato (hummm), David James Elliot (JAG) hummmm, Bill Pullman (who is the cutest most charming "young" man I like besides my main man David James Elliot), the Baldwin's. So much for beefy hunks. :)

But then there are also older actors who are the more "dangerous" type (to me anyway) because they draw me in and I have no explanation other than the charismatic personality, like Hector Elezando (Chicago Hope) and one special man - *Sir* Anthony Hopkins(whom I adore!!! Anthony, can I have a date with you????:) who all have magnificant aura's and would get a date with me any time! :)) That reminds me of the charme of Robin Leech I think is his name, who did "Lifestyle of the Rich and Famous", he is another charismatic individual (and British too), seems like the british gentlemen (Cary Grant aka. Archibald Leech) have a certain distinctive charme.... ahhh I should have become an actress, even have abit of a talent there, maybe then I would have met them? :) ....

Musical entertainment
I love music too, preferably R&B, but also Pop, Classic, contemporary country and rock, this variety is so broad it is hard to name just a few that I like, it would be easier to name who I don't like or don't care about. That would be hardrock, metal, rap and techno ...pewwww...

Conclusion
Let me bring this excursion into my life to a quick end here. I hope this gives you a little insight into my personal life and what or who I am. Otherwise I am a true "Cancer", compassionate, caring, nurturing and a funny person. I am a hopeless romantic, I have watched a few too many "romance" movies in my younger years...but I realize it is more wishful thinking than anything else! However, I hate to be controlled, manipulated or harrassed or you could make acqaintance with a not so funny side of me!! :) This applies to my personal as well as professional life.

Thank You for your interest! :)