push me to the end of the earth
down into the sunless space
decease of here will do you good
for i am not worth your life
i am in your way, too much trouble
keeping me here will just drag you down
down here in the emptiness with me
it is not a pleasant place
it is not a place for you
you deserve more
i deserve nothing
you should be happy and live
for i am only worth an eternity of guilt and death
so don't wait for me
don't even try to make me like you
the contamination will kill you too
so leave me here to die
let me crouch here alone
allow me to bleed
leave me to cry
i am not worth your time
so please, go away before i get to you
i love you, so don't come near
i hate myself
and this hate kills
it kills me and all that's around me
so please go away, go far away
disremember me
for i am not worth your thoughts
leave me and save yourself
and i'll just fall down this endless emptiness
stars flying away from me
and let me fall, fall, fall, fall, fall
until there's no more space left
and i'll scatter through the bottom
all profused in the depth of the end
i'll feel nothing
because death will be no different
than what i'm feeling right now


© copyright, 1998

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