My Twisted Thoughts
Basically, this page is where I let all of my feelings out.
Many of my views or opinions may be different from yours,
but I want you to know that I usually do not act upon my views or opinions.
They are just my opinions, and I will not look at any of you any
differently for having a different opinion than my own. I may
try to argue my opinion, but I will not insult or put down
your own opinion. I am hoping that you will treat my
opinions and my views with the same respect with which I treat
yours. That being said, enjoy listening to me run my mouth.
First Installment - 10/30/99: Can somebody please tell me why a black person
thinks that they are never wrong? I'm not racist by any means,
I just want an answer to my question. At least three
times a day at school I hear "I ain't doin nuthin," coming
from a black persons mouth. Then they continue to bad mouth
the teacher because of course, IT'S A RACIAL THING!!! It's
always a racial thing!! It's never because they were actually
doing something, because we all know they're perfect angels.
They couldn't possibly do anything wrong. But yet, when black
people call us such names as cracker and whitey, nothing
is said. Why is this? If black people can see so clearly
racism towards them, then why can they not see their own racism
towards other people. It works both ways, and I would be
very happy to see it work out so that there is absolutely no
racism at all, but it never will be that way until black people
realize that they are at fault as well as anyone else. That
is all that I have to say for now.
Second Installment - 11/3/99: As far as I am concerned, there is no such
thing as what you call "God". There is nothing in this
world that can possibly persuade me to believe that one person
created all beings and all of the universe. I can not see, if
there really were a "God", how everything in this world could
be as bad as it is. I mean think about it, if you were
"God" wouldn't you make the world as perfect as possible? And
this dying for your sins, what is that? God must've really had
faith in his creation. I have had many people try to tell
me that I'm going to Hell because I don't believe in "God".
"God" isn't very forgiving then, is he? If "God" supposedly
forgives all sins, then wouldn't he forgive even the sin
of not believing? And saying that there is a Heaven
and a Hell is contradicting "God" himself. If "God"
forgives all sins, then why is there a Hell? He obviously doesn't
forgive all sins, or no one would be sent to Hell. I've
never read the bible and I never plan to read the bible because
I believe that it serves no real purpose to my life. You
can try and persuade me to believe in "God" all you want, but I'm
telling you right now that you probably won't get
very far. That is all.
Third Installment - 12/10/99: Who wants to join me in making the biggest
New Years party possible? So far I have no one to join me. I'll
be all alone. New Years Eve is my birthday, so I'll be seeing
some people on that day. But I'll probably be sitting home
by myself while my friends go out and party themselves
stupid. After all, everybody's wrong anyway. The new
millenium doesn't start in the year 2000, it starts in the year
2001. Ask any science teacher, they should be able to prove
it to you. I mean, my social studies teacher taught me that,
any science teacher should be able to do the same.
-- People tell me to be normal, follow what everyone else is doing.
Well, I'm sick of following what everyone else is doing!!
Most people are stupid anyway, they just follow because
they are afraid they might be rejected if they don't.
They're right, but who cares!! I've been rejected all my life and
I'm doing just fine, aren't I? Maybe I'm not normal. Oh well,
that's the way I am, and no one's gonna change me. Tah tah for now.
Fourth Installment - 12/19/99: I don't know if I will get around to editing this
thing before the holidays. So, I wish all of you people
that might view this a very happy holiday and a happy New
Year. I wish the best for all of you and all of your families.
What will this New Year bring? Probably nothing.
Everyone thinks that the world is going to end and everything.
Personally, I think that this is all just a big scam by Bill
Gates so he can make yet some more money by selling programs
to make computers Y2K compliant. And what the hell
is this Y2K? Are people too lazy to say year 2000? I mean,
it's not that hard to say. People always have to simplify
things and try to make them sound cool. Y2K!? Doesn't sound
too cool to me. Anyway, you all have a happy holiday and
I'll see you next year.
Fifth Installment - 2/22/00: What happened the other day just proves what a
loser I am. I have been scoping this girl out at the mall for
like three weeks. I have liked her ever since like 7th or
8th grade and blah blah blah....I'm sure you don't want
to hear the whole story. Anyway, I haven't seen her anywhere
since like 8th grade so it's been like 2 or 3 years.
Anyway, so I'm scoping this girl out at the mall for like
three weeks, and she probably thought that my friends and
I were stalking her. It had taken me those three weeks to
get up the balls to go talk to her. I finally got up the balls
to go talk to her, and up walks her boyfriend. That could
of possibly been me if I would have had the balls to go
talk to her in the first place. I've got to respect the
guy though, he's one lucky son of a b*tch, having such a
beautiful girl like he does. GOD DAMNIT!!! I'm a loser!!!
Peace out.
Sixth Installment - 3/8/00: Okay, I am sick of people trying to tell me how I
should live my life, and other things that go along with MY
life. For some reason, my "friends from the hood"
think that I should not hang out with certain friends
from other various places. For example, my "friends from the
hood" are trying to tell me that I should not be friends
with these two certain beautiful girls that happen to go to Swartz
Creek. Ok, something happened between one of the
girls' dad and one of my friends. I won't go into details because
I don't really know the details. That gives two of my
friends, him and his brother, a reason to be mad at the girl.
That doesn't give any of my other friends any reason to be
mad at, or practically hate, the girl. They just have to
follow the almighty cool one. The other girl just happened to
be friends with this girl, so she got pretty much hated as
well. This is bullsh*t! That's all it is! I am not going to
hate two perfectly nice girls just because one of them happened
to do something to one of my friends, and my friends try to
tell me that I am wrong for this. You know what, F*CK THEM!
Every single one of them. They are the ones that are wrong; not me.
Anyway, so comes my next point. Why are parents so
protective and so damn gay at
times. Okay, this story also has to do with these two beatiful
girls. I like these girls. I dunno how much, I just
like these girls. I'd go out with them, but they're taken,
not that I have any chance with either of them even if they
weren't taken. Anyway, back to my story. Something happened
over the summer between these girls and my friends and I.
No, it was nothing sexual you perverted bastards! Anyway,
as a result of what happened, they were told that they
could never see ANY of us EVER again. I never
realized how bad it was to me until
just today. It's finally nice out, so I walked down to where
they babysit and stayed there and talked to them for a little
while. Then comes the time that one of them has to go to
Bible Study. So, her dad calls and says that he will be there
in five minutes to pick her up. Knowing that I am not
supposed to be there, I walk away to leave. As I'm walking away,
I hear one of the girls say, "Now don't any of you tell anybody
that he was here because if my dad finds out I will
be in so much trouble, and I will never be able to babysit for
you again," to the little girls that they were babysitting.
Her saying that is what hit me. That is pure bullsh*t that
I have to sneak around just to talk to her, and she has to
cover up for when she does talk to me. Why are parents
so bullheaded? Why can't they just let things go and let
their children redeem themselves. There's no way that I
could redeem myself with these girls' parents. If you know
me, you'd know that I look like the biggest crackhead out there.
So, there's no way a father would trust me with their
daughter. So, I guess I'll have to keep on sneaking around until
their parents realize that this is bullsh*t. Like that's
gonna happen. Anyway, that's all I have to say for now and
I hope you understand my grief. Peace out for now.
thinks that they are never wrong? I'm not racist by any means,
I just want an answer to my question. At least three
times a day at school I hear "I ain't doin nuthin," coming
from a black persons mouth. Then they continue to bad mouth
the teacher because of course, IT'S A RACIAL THING!!! It's
always a racial thing!! It's never because they were actually
doing something, because we all know they're perfect angels.
They couldn't possibly do anything wrong. But yet, when black
people call us such names as cracker and whitey, nothing
is said. Why is this? If black people can see so clearly
racism towards them, then why can they not see their own racism
towards other people. It works both ways, and I would be
very happy to see it work out so that there is absolutely no
racism at all, but it never will be that way until black people
realize that they are at fault as well as anyone else. That
is all that I have to say for now.
thing as what you call "God". There is nothing in this
world that can possibly persuade me to believe that one person
created all beings and all of the universe. I can not see, if
there really were a "God", how everything in this world could
be as bad as it is. I mean think about it, if you were
"God" wouldn't you make the world as perfect as possible? And
this dying for your sins, what is that? God must've really had
faith in his creation. I have had many people try to tell
me that I'm going to Hell because I don't believe in "God".
"God" isn't very forgiving then, is he? If "God" supposedly
forgives all sins, then wouldn't he forgive even the sin
of not believing? And saying that there is a Heaven
and a Hell is contradicting "God" himself. If "God"
forgives all sins, then why is there a Hell? He obviously doesn't
forgive all sins, or no one would be sent to Hell. I've
never read the bible and I never plan to read the bible because
I believe that it serves no real purpose to my life. You
can try and persuade me to believe in "God" all you want, but I'm
telling you right now that you probably won't get
very far. That is all.
New Years party possible? So far I have no one to join me. I'll
be all alone. New Years Eve is my birthday, so I'll be seeing
some people on that day. But I'll probably be sitting home
by myself while my friends go out and party themselves
stupid. After all, everybody's wrong anyway. The new
millenium doesn't start in the year 2000, it starts in the year
2001. Ask any science teacher, they should be able to prove
it to you. I mean, my social studies teacher taught me that,
any science teacher should be able to do the same.
-- People tell me to be normal, follow what everyone else is doing.
Well, I'm sick of following what everyone else is doing!!
Most people are stupid anyway, they just follow because
they are afraid they might be rejected if they don't.
They're right, but who cares!! I've been rejected all my life and
I'm doing just fine, aren't I? Maybe I'm not normal. Oh well,
that's the way I am, and no one's gonna change me. Tah tah for now.
thing before the holidays. So, I wish all of you people
that might view this a very happy holiday and a happy New
Year. I wish the best for all of you and all of your families.
What will this New Year bring? Probably nothing.
Everyone thinks that the world is going to end and everything.
Personally, I think that this is all just a big scam by Bill
Gates so he can make yet some more money by selling programs
to make computers Y2K compliant. And what the hell
is this Y2K? Are people too lazy to say year 2000? I mean,
it's not that hard to say. People always have to simplify
things and try to make them sound cool. Y2K!? Doesn't sound
too cool to me. Anyway, you all have a happy holiday and
I'll see you next year.
loser I am. I have been scoping this girl out at the mall for
like three weeks. I have liked her ever since like 7th or
8th grade and blah blah blah....I'm sure you don't want
to hear the whole story. Anyway, I haven't seen her anywhere
since like 8th grade so it's been like 2 or 3 years.
Anyway, so I'm scoping this girl out at the mall for like
three weeks, and she probably thought that my friends and
I were stalking her. It had taken me those three weeks to
get up the balls to go talk to her. I finally got up the balls
to go talk to her, and up walks her boyfriend. That could
of possibly been me if I would have had the balls to go
talk to her in the first place. I've got to respect the
guy though, he's one lucky son of a b*tch, having such a
beautiful girl like he does. GOD DAMNIT!!! I'm a loser!!!
Peace out.
should live my life, and other things that go along with MY
life. For some reason, my "friends from the hood"
think that I should not hang out with certain friends
from other various places. For example, my "friends from the
hood" are trying to tell me that I should not be friends
with these two certain beautiful girls that happen to go to Swartz
Creek. Ok, something happened between one of the
girls' dad and one of my friends. I won't go into details because
I don't really know the details. That gives two of my
friends, him and his brother, a reason to be mad at the girl.
That doesn't give any of my other friends any reason to be
mad at, or practically hate, the girl. They just have to
follow the almighty cool one. The other girl just happened to
be friends with this girl, so she got pretty much hated as
well. This is bullsh*t! That's all it is! I am not going to
hate two perfectly nice girls just because one of them happened
to do something to one of my friends, and my friends try to
tell me that I am wrong for this. You know what, F*CK THEM!
Every single one of them. They are the ones that are wrong; not me.
protective and so damn gay at
times. Okay, this story also has to do with these two beatiful
girls. I like these girls. I dunno how much, I just
like these girls. I'd go out with them, but they're taken,
not that I have any chance with either of them even if they
weren't taken. Anyway, back to my story. Something happened
over the summer between these girls and my friends and I.
No, it was nothing sexual you perverted bastards! Anyway,
as a result of what happened, they were told that they
could never see ANY of us EVER again. I never
realized how bad it was to me until
just today. It's finally nice out, so I walked down to where
they babysit and stayed there and talked to them for a little
while. Then comes the time that one of them has to go to
Bible Study. So, her dad calls and says that he will be there
in five minutes to pick her up. Knowing that I am not
supposed to be there, I walk away to leave. As I'm walking away,
I hear one of the girls say, "Now don't any of you tell anybody
that he was here because if my dad finds out I will
be in so much trouble, and I will never be able to babysit for
you again," to the little girls that they were babysitting.
Her saying that is what hit me. That is pure bullsh*t that
I have to sneak around just to talk to her, and she has to
cover up for when she does talk to me. Why are parents
so bullheaded? Why can't they just let things go and let
their children redeem themselves. There's no way that I
could redeem myself with these girls' parents. If you know
me, you'd know that I look like the biggest crackhead out there.
So, there's no way a father would trust me with their
daughter. So, I guess I'll have to keep on sneaking around until
their parents realize that this is bullsh*t. Like that's
gonna happen. Anyway, that's all I have to say for now and
I hope you understand my grief. Peace out for now.
