Author's Note: This story is based totally on the manga... so there was no Naru/Molly + Nephrite/Neflyte...just in case any wonder. This story was inspired by one of the pictures in the Pretty Soldier Sailor Moon Picture Collection I- It's the one where there is a picture of the 4 senshi, each being held by one of the 4 guards... It's a what if sort of story. Please, Please C&C this... tell me if I made any glaring mistakes, tell me if the format was confusing... tell me you didn't like my writing... but PLEASE C&C. Thanks! Oh, and please tell me if you like the ending or not...I'm not too sure about it.

Letting Go
By Monica Shin
monica@nyc.pipeline.com

 
     *Wha...* 
     *Our prince is calling...* 
     *We are being summoned?* 
     *Why...?* 
 
The four rose from their resting place, and presented themselves to their
liege. 
 
     *My lord...* 
     *He did not summon us?* 
     *Then how did we awaken?* 
     *The dreams are troubling him... the ones about the fall of the
kingdom...he's grasping at memories of long ago...and called us.*
     *What should we do?* 
     *His princess is linked to him-let her sleeping mind give him peace...*
 
The four looked at the lady beside him, and concentrated. Soon, she
murmured, and rolled over to the prince, resting her head on his chest.
Almost immediately, his restless tossings stopped, and his nightmares were
turned into sweeter rememberences. 
 
     *That should do...* 
     *It seems that we have the night before our minds sleep again...* 
     *Enough time to say goodbye?* 
     *Perhaps...* 
 
And with that, the four separated for the night, each going to say
farewell, and to make amends. 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
Jadeite carefully crept into her dreams, intending to say a quiet and quick
farewell to her slumbering conciousness, before he left. He'd never been
good at goodbyes... Wha! He suddenly found himself surrounded on all sides
by sentinels, who coaleased into one being... Mars. 
 
     *Who are you? What do you want?* 
     *Ah...* 
     *You!! You're dead! I destroyed you...* 
     *Wait...* 
     *I will send your spirit back, to where it belongs... Begone-* 
     *NO! Please... I just came here to say goodbye, before I return...* 
     *What? You were one of Beryl's minions... you were my enemy...* 
     *...goodbye to the former Mars...to the one from the Silver Millenium.*
     *Wha... I don't understand... What do you mean?* 
 
 
It would probably help if she remembered everything... 
 
 
      *I am Jadeite. I was one of Beryl's generals, but before that, during
the Silver Millenium, I was Jadeite, one of Endymion's four bodyguards... we
were the equivalent to the four warriors protecting the princess. We met
during the audience held by Queen Serenity, welcoming us, the ambassadors
from Earth, to the moon.* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
Nephrite strode boldly into Jupiter's sleeping mind, knowing that she would
notice him, sooner or later. He was surprised to find how much of her mind
was devoted to cooking, and to a mysterious boy... 
         
 
     *So, this is the one she loves in this life... or is it..?* 
 
 
He realized how little Jupiter had changed, since she had been reborn. She
was still the fighter, relying on her strength to see her through, but also
with a fighter's instincts...which had just noticed the foreign presence in
her mind. She immediately attacked, to find that there were nothing but
shadows, until Nephrite chose to drop his illusion, and reveal himself. 
 
 
     *You! I know you! You're that monster who I destroyed! Why are you in my
mind? If you want a fight, let's go!* 
 
 
She was still headstrong... 
 
 
     *I'm not looking for a fight, Jupiter. I'm just here to say goodbye...
and to free you from some subconcious memories...* 
     *???* 
     *Let me explain... You knew me as Nephrite, one of Beryl's generals...
but if you really reach deep inside your memories, you should be able to
remember me as Nephrite-Endymion's protector. We met during an audience
held in the throne room... but we really met a little later.  
     We had been on the moon for a few weeks, when we noticed the princess
hanging around our suite, and around our prince. We didn't think much of
this, thinking that the princess was curious about the new visitors, but we
also noticed that the prince was becoming very nervous, and distracted. 
     One day, he told us that we were going to meet a few people for lunch.
We were very surprised when he led us down to a field, off from the major
parts of the moon city. It was very close to the dome's side, and one could
see the desert outside, in the distance. On that field lay a picnic lunch,
and the princess, and her four very surprised guards. 
        You see, all of the princess' guards had thought it was going to be a
little picnic lunch for the five of them, where they would get away from
the palace, and just relax. This had all changed, when Endymion had led the
four of us down there, too. 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
        Zoisite crept silently into Mercury's dreams, wondering how long it
would be before she noticed him. Not long... Mercury silently put up her
defenses, and asked, 
         
 
     *Who are you? What is it that you want here?* 
     *I am the one who once was Zoisite...* 
     *That's impossible! Venus destroyed you! You're dead!* 
     *Perhaps... but I'm not here to debate whether or not I exist... I'm am
here to bid farewell to the Mercury of the past...* 
     *??? Please explain why you aren't attacking, and why you're speaking
about the past me..?* 
     *I will help you remember... I was once one of the protectors of
Endymion, High Prince of Earth, as you were of Serenity, Crown Princess of
the Moon. I know you don't recall much about that time, but I'll try to
explain...*
     *... Once we had all gathered, both Serenity and Endymion asked us keep
what we were about to hear a secret. We promised, and then they told us
that they had fallen in love with each other. Of course, everyone was
shocked. It was forbidden for Earth and Moon people to fall in love... They
were just too different from each other. But it was obvious from looking at
them that the two were too much in love to let that stop them. 
     They told us that we should get to know each other, and left to walk
together. We were left sitting on the grass, awkwardly trying to think of
something to say. We started to speak of little nothings that people say
when they can't think of anything else to say, before you mentioned one of
your favorite authors. I mentioned that I had found the author's books a
little dry, and we started to argue. Soon, we separated from the rest of
the crown, and went over to a few trees, and started to really talk.  
     Soon, we were discussing our favorite books, plays, music- something
neither one of us had gotten to really talk about with anyone in a while. I
noticed that after a while, everyone else split up, too...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *

 
Kunzite stopped before he went inside Venus' consciousness, and gave her
the equivalent of a knock. Her mind rose out of her dream rapidly, and
called out mental challange. 
 
 
     *What! You! How is it you're alive? All of the Sailor warriors destroyed
you!* 
     *I am Kunzite, once leader of Endymion's personal guard, here to deliver a
final farewell to the Venus of the Silver Millenium.* 

     *What? I don't understand...* 
     *Then remember... 
 
     ...The rest of the guards had split up into pairs, and seemed to be
talking, except for Venus, and I. We were both the leaders of our separate
units, and we couldn't risk seeming unprofessional... at least, to each
other. There had been a lot of tension between the Earth, and the Moon, as
some of Earth saw the Moon as an overbearing parent, choking the Earth of
its freedom. There were some of the Moon, who felt that Earth was getting
"rebellious" and that perhaps, they should be taught a lesson.  
     These extremist views were what prompted the Earth king to send his heir
to the moon as an ambassador, to put to rest any doubts about the good
relations between the two nations. However, both rulers knew that it may be
a good idea to separate the rest of the people from each other for a bit,
which was why relationships between the two peoples were taboo. 
        While all of the guard knew that the extremist views were without any
basis, it still prompted us to be careful with each other. However, it was
awkward, just saying nothing when it was just the two of us left, so I
started a conversation about nothing in particular. Somehow, soon we were
talking about the political situation, and then, the pressures of being the
leader of the guard, as we were...Soon, we had formed a bond.* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *I see... I think I'm starting to remember... We had great arguments
about everything... but Jadeite, you were so charming that soon, we would be
laughing, not fighting... We were so in love... We even told each other our
true names...* 
     *You remember that? I was shocked at how easily we told each other our
true names... After all, to tell someone you true name gives them power
over you... but it also makes them closer." 
     *We were so happy... even when the rumors started flying about the
prince, and the princess, and their guards... Of course, no one officially
believed them, but soon, your prince was called back...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *We walked off together, talking about fighting techniques, and
strategies, with me arguing for stealth, and you for strength... Then we
discovered our love for cooking...* 
     *Oh... I remember... I was so shocked that you... the big, strong
Nephrite was the one who also loved to cook... I remember you teaching me
some of your Earth recipies... I was so happy for those short weeks... before
you had to leave the moon...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *Of course, we knew that we couldn't really be together... even if we
loved each other. Even though all we wished was to be together... We even
exchanged true names...To have revealed our relationship would have been to
go against the Queen's wishes, and would have increased tensions between
the two states... Only our Princess dared to go to Earth, for secret
meetings, when you left. I, as Mercury, one of the four guards, had a duty,
to try to distract her from Earth... but I kept thinking back to it,
myself...* 
        *Until that day, when our Prince came back...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *Though we'd only known each other for a short while... we were so in
love... we revealed our true names to each other...it felt right, because
the names we used- Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Mercury... had been held by the
former guards of the crown princesses for so long, as had your names.
Kunzite, Jadeite, Nephrite, Zoisite... named after elements of the Earth,
as we had been names for the protectors of the Moon.* 

     *When we came back, to the Moon, we never had a chance to say anything
to each other, before the attack came... That's why we came to say goodbye...*

     *We?* 
     *All of us are saying our true goodbyes, before we have to go back...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *I came to say goodbye, Mars, because we'll never meet again... at
least, in this lifetime... There was so much I wanted to tell you, that we
never got to say... because of Metallia...* 
     *When she attacked, using your Earth people... we were all so shocked...
and when...* 
     *When Endymion was killed... and Serenity commited suicide...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *I think that when we saw what had happened, all of the things that I'd
wanted to tell you, before the battle, vanished... all I could see was my
prince, dead...* 
     *Nephrite... I know... All I could see was my poor princess...dead...
and something inside of me broke... All of our full powers were unleashed
against the Earth people, against Metallia...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *I remember... that awful day, when we all fought as if possessed, even
you and me, Mercury, though we'd never been fighters...*
     *Yes...but we fought singly, not as a team... though we should have...* 
     *I remember being overwhelmed by too many for me to handle... I remember
regretting that I never said goodbye...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *So now... all of us- Jadeite, Nephrite, Zoisite and I- came back to
truly say goodbye... because we'd never let you go... our unresolved feelings are
affecting you real lives... We want you all to love again, and not let us
subconciously weigh you down... and to do that, we have to let you go... we
want you to have a chance to love, in this life, as we never had a chance
to do...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
     *Farewell...* 

                        *        *        *        *        *
 
Mamoru woke up a little shaken, by the strange dreams he had had last
night... before his princess had banished them. He looked down at her
sweet, innocent face... 
        *Somehow, this just feels right...Even we feel right... Mamoru Chiba...
Earth Protector... I'll always protect you, my love... my little rabbit of
the Moon...* 

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