SONGS

New poem dedicated to first love and first loss....

MANIC MOMMENTS

I can't help but feel this pain inside
you wouldn't talk to me and i don't know why
I am all alone now in the things i do
that must be a result of being without you
I thought about seeing a councelor today to talk about my life
Which is now so full of woe and strife
If you'd only talk to me I'b be ok
It's not like anyone wants me anyway
I drove you away with my "neuronics" you say
so now that I'm going crazy this must be my pay
Now i'm doomed to live in the dark of the day
Look there are my friends the tv, the Vcr, all are bright
Why should i ever venture out into the light

I must spend time with those on the phone
They help forget that i'm all alone
stories of trails and sadness worse than my own
and happy endings that have turned out fine, maybe this i can find if i leave you behind
let you fall and mess yourself up for leaving me helpless ,meltless and stressed up.

Look now i'm fine!
here to deal and push the rest up
I don't need you in my life now
your cynicism only keeps me down
well seems as if i'm better
For now

Refrain:

ok heres one i like it's lil dity called We

WE

(Know what to do?)

We go we know how to be.

We live we die and in romance we lie.

We hate school we forget rules so we make amends with this circle of friends.

We forget about today and movin away.

We never obey

But we Know we will never look back

We must never leave this place because we know we will never find it again

We know where to go what to know we have been there before

So the Years rides on just singin our song We know what to do We know what to do.

Movin through life like a run away train never comin' back.

Driving and striving to find our nitche in this bitch but we know what to do

What to do?

O.K. the first two were written on the way to and from Wisconsin my fams Vacation. The next one is from a day was frickin confused! and for all the those people in love just for being in love. It's time ask questions and find a deeper side.

The Happening

I know you say you love me but where does it come from are you serious or delerious i'm not sure and im don't think u r either. What does this love do for you cause i know it does nothing for me.

Refrain

Where were you when i need you What's happend to the love now broken? what happend to you and me what happend to US the free?

You've ruined life for me for a long time and now you're out of it. This paradigm has shifted u must be uplifted derooted from the core till u fall down out of my eyes throw away that disguse. I know ther are vast oceans between us we can't put this beneath us. You must rise to the top or this shit will never stop.

Refrain......

So as the Years go on will i still be singing this song? but by then baby for long cause by then I'll be gone. So now come redeam yourself Redeam me redeam We or the Happening will continue and i'll change THIS venue.

Refrain......and you know we gotta be, you must be, We have to be We!

They still need work but thats a start heh? ok laters kids.

WHAT!

You say You're my friend but are you really a friend or just a turn around the bend? Because I don't feel it . I'm as open as they come but you don't give a fuck! What luck! I felt so good about myself now you've brought me out of line how can i find that friend of mine. How can i find that friend in me if i can't see it in you?

So you've talked about me behind my back is that a fact? is this true, friend of mine is this true?

You've killed all that was intact. So i'm throwing off my hat tearing of my neclace do u want that? What's going on why am i sing this damn song?Where does my happiness go to play What am i suppossed to say When you tell me I'm annoying not enjoying what life has to offer I'm a puaper in love and life. What am i suppossed to say? What am i suppossed to play? What am i suppossed to act like? What do u want me to be What the Hell is me?

Personal note: When i'm down like during the writing of this song i turn up the radio and play"Today" that usually brightens up my day and takes me back to my happy but not quite status. well hey there ya go

More recent writtings

Can't wait

Well, i'm here now waiting for you

waiting for soemthing new

Knowing how fa you've come

i can't wait to see how should i be?

I felt so free now you'll be here w/ me but how should i be?

These people sitting breathless around me do not see

what should i say what should i do when i see you?

friend you have arrived

how can i die?

I call your name but it doesn't feel the same

and you are to blame

you are the same and that is my shame

i have changed

What will you say?

What will you do

What am i going to do w/ you

Where shall we go

I don;t know but, i thik i love you...

(loving a friend at first meeting)

Tease..

You came into my life so kinda and so polite

you scare me w/ your charm adn the brushing of your arm

yeh i love that song too

you question my kind seem into it and so alive

then you kill it while we ride

you don't trust yourself enough to try

you tease

you tease

stay please

you tease

You come into my life and fill it full of strife

keeping me close and far away

you smile at me real nice, driving into the night

where we go from here is up to you

you hold the map

you navigate our relationship

turn right or turn left

you seem to like it don't you? strining me on?

floating on

can i get a ride

sure jump in

why did i let you do it again

You sleeze

You tease

stay please

Please

(i hate being teased this was from someone i really adored and who i think knew it and used it to thier advantage

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