i haven't writtin in a long time..this school year has been
so awesome. Last nite we through the biggest party of the
year..Me and 3 other friends that is.. we got bored over
the weekend and decided to put on a party. It turned into
B.Y.O.B. anyways the theme was dazed and confused..we had a
smile face pinata, black lights, the movie playing,
dancing, all kinds of food..everyone came and it was soo
great..i was in a dilema b/c i was liking two guys at the
party and they both were saying all this great stuff to me.
This little guy josh said i would always have a place in
his heart..he's been my friend for the past three months
i've been here..This other guy chris said he felt he could
tell me anything and that i was a wonderful person. Today
josh and me went four-wheeling and i decided i want to stay
friends.i couldn't make up my mind. I don't want to hurt
either one..so i'm deciding to stay friends with both of
them.
October 23, 1998
last nite i went to a bonfire with a couple of my friends.it was soo cold outside..anyways this guy josh from the party came along with us.. we went four-wheeling that morning..it was pretty fun except i was really tired from the nite before. anyways at the bonfire before i could tell josh how i felt, victoria just told him when he was talking to her that i just wanted to be friends. so then all nite he wouldn't talk to me at all..he just stayed far behind us and moped around. we started dancing and i danced with this guy chris who was so cute. i think it made josh jealous b/c he didn't look at me the entire nite except to give me a dirty look..i knew he was really hurt b/c i don't want more but i really like him as a friend and the chemistry just isn't there...anyways today i'll most likely go to a haunted house and just get away from everyone.
