KILLER PEOTRY I WROTE!

He was a cool old guy,never very shy,sacrificed to get by. Hard on me for my own good,gentle at heart,i understood. slept in his chair,snoring away, who ever said grandpa gets the remote anyway? He easily fixed all the problems i had. Im amazed he never got fed up or mad. He was there thru the bad and the sad,even the rad. He made me realize there is no never,he was so damn clever, cuz he's my GRANDPA,always and forever.

Too hard,too fast

gotta make it last

forget the past

remove the cast

reape the rewards of a lifetime lived totally fullfilled

didnt need ay pills

looking out the window sill

never having to kill

even though i had the will

losing it still

i've reached the top of the hill

now i realize the journey was the prize

surprise,surprise ,surprise

who could have ever devised

such a tripped out oversized villian to dispise

i saw it in her eyes

those who?what?when?where?and why's?

she always crys and sighs

maybe its because the whole world is hitting them highs

my hands are tied

magically bound by the hopeless will to survive

unbelievedly stupified!

My mind wanders.Its glides thru my achievements and does the backstroke across my dissapointments.My nerves flicker.They flow down my flawless movements and quiver wih my soft sensations.My feelings get excited,as they float up to the top of my happiness,And as they fall to the empty caverns of my heart.My soul experiences as it ages,Like the rest and as it continues to pass the test.

Amazeingly free.It's a grand idea.Hopelessly sought after,never found.Achieveing the thought is a simple thing,seeing the goal is almost a dream.I hope you take to heart the freedom you cling to,for one day it will be lost,or maybe freedom will consume you?Making you feel light and vast.Whichever the outcome,whoever feels the best, i know i'll be there ,somewhere, just as amazeingly free as the rest.

Im lost in a delusional heaven of friendship craving wonder souls.Finding my way out is pointless,keeping myself in is a lifelong project.

no title

I strive for more,i dig to the core,i yell FORE!Can i achieve this now?I hope so POW!I hit the middle ,WOW,now im complete,now im beyond defeat.

Flexible,light,but strong,thats what its been all along. MY mind is made of plastic,thats for sure,it expands to take in the knowlege,but doesnt give to the pressure. Plastic minded is the way to be,it the latest inovation, the wave of the future.All ya have to do is let your steel thoughts dissapate,let your liquid dreams evaporate. When the plastic wraps your head,you'll feel smart,funny and well read.Its an amazing concept.Crazy, yet perfectly sane. You can whack it,smash it,bend it, fold it,even twist it,and it returns to the same shape it started with.The only thing you cant do is melt it...for it has its weaknesses,its faults,and flaws,but if more people thought like i do...plastic and all,the world would revolve around you,and you,and you too,making your plastic minded ways shine thru.

I dont understand myself,my lazy nature. I'd like to succeed at and achieve all the dreams i hold dear. But for the most part.....when i am challenged....no matter how big or small,i get lazy and take the easy path. I believe lazyness is in the human nature,embedded strongly and if we dont strive constantly that lazyness consumes us,taking away sooooo much. My new years resolution is to curb as much of my lazy lazy nature as possible and actually achieve some real goals. My message to the masses is to not let the lazy person inside you out.Lock him or her in and take controll of the olympian that is prying his or her way out.All the great men and women of history could not have amazed us if there lazy side was dominant.

I need to exceed, all limits, all speeds, all rules, all fools, all hopes, i need to achieve, all goals, all dreams, all things, you know what i mean? I need to withdraw from, all wrongs, all bullys, all nightmares, you see how it works? I need to exceed and achieve and withdraw from all,all,all,all,and all that too. But first i must learn to crawl, im usually on the ball, but im ready for a fall, thats all.

i leave you now,i leave only to return reluctantly,i leave for a magical, crazy and collossal super nova of thoughts known as ...yep...you guessed it...dreamland.....where the imagination flourishes in its own juices.I love this place..even though i can never recall the brilliance.i know its there...free and clear ....for the moment...no fear.Someday i'll get lost there.Never to return....i'll watch the real world burn....soon it will be my turn. Hopeful in a hopeless place....it seems like a disgrace...but in my head theres so much space...not emptyness...but vast colorful future heavens,set aside to be filled.....or fullfilled...whichever the case....i wanna taste it...before its too late...before i awake.

Its not what i thought,not even close,not even cool,not even a joke.well....maybe cool,i hope im not the fool,it seemed kinda cruel.Not even the movies,portrayed it this way,not even the tv,man they should pay.its my fault though,my problem to solve,i jumped in the fray,i'll use my own resolve.Im hoping for the best now,but you know i fear the worst.cause sometimes all too often...i wonder if ...damn....maybe im cursed?

Over the edge,down i go,theres no hope,i cant cope,was too weak to use a rope,im falling cause i couldnt cope,never did i imagine the loss i would feel,didnt think it was a big deal,man was i wrong,im about to be all gone,remember me please,remember how i felt the breeze,i wasnt that much of a tease,i said bless you when you sneezed and gave you a tissue when you weezed,whoa this cliff is high,im almost to the bottom,will i be forgotton?

Excite me...Entice me...Love me...Hug me...Kiss me...Thrill me...Amaze me...Show me the way...Show me the money...Bare your soul to me...Wrap me in humor... Make me want you...Call me afterwards...Steal my heart...Dont break it...Love me forever...Laugh at my insane humor...Comfort me...Be my friend...Be my lover...Protect my integrity...Ill protect yours...Hold me tightly...Let me breath ...Surprise me...Ill surprise you...Dont hurt me...I'd never hurt you...Dont worry...Have fun always...Dont be cranky all the time...Forgive my mistakes...You know i'll forgive yours...Float in my dreams ...Think of me...I'll think of you...Shower me in wonderment...Lie for my own good...Invite me in your world... I want more than ever...Oh well...I know you wont dissapoint me!

There are some people ...hell there are alot of people whotake what they have for granted. I for one admit that i take the comfort and security i have for granted.But the reason i do is because i know there are many unworthy people out there who have so much more and dont cherish it.I'd like to think if i had what they had i'd cherish it and also share it.And flaunt it...but hey ..whats the use of having it if you dont flaunt it?Amazingly enough,the people with the least useally share the most and exspect the least in return....that is soooooo fascinating and unbelieveable...but true.I wish i could experience wealth and power as an experiment...just to see why greed seems to set in at all levels..no matter how rich..no matter how famous.. we strive for more..we expect more..and refuse to give in till it destroys us...little by little.Yes GREED!!thats the word i was reaching for.Greed!! is the cause of so much misery...so much hardship.I admit to giving in to greed many times myself..but i like to think that im more generous than most..yea i think i am...hell i know i am..so there..ha..i am! It seems like the way things are going now and will probaly escalate further in the future that life wont be the great whirlwind tornado that it once was and is sorta like now.The world is decaying more rapidly every day and i know im contributing to the madness.Im quite sure i'll keep on contributing to the anarchy cause im just as weak as all of you..you know who you are..you throw away tons of garbage that festers around long after your gone..and you drive cars or ride in busses that polute our once incredibly wonderful atmosphere,and you know these things are wrong but alas your too weak!!Yess i said too weak to stop the insanity and horrible GREED!!The men and women who have the power or strenth as i like to call it are consumed by GREED and that is why the madness will probably never stop and we are inevitably DOOMED!

Sometimes,when im surfing around the web looking for who knows what,i think to myself"how did all this come about?how did the net arise?how did technology evolve this way?how did we evolve this this way?who created man?if god then who created god?and who created the god who created god?...Ive found the answer to these questions and thousands more.Wanna hear the answer?Okay then send 500$ to ......just kidding..you can send money if you want though:).The eternal answer is...(drum roll)WHO CARES!Just enjoy the net ..enjoy life..enjoy technology..and let the philosphy majors ponder the unanswerable questions.This has been an insightful moment rarely heard of by me...so enjoy it.

For Her

i forgot something again, as i do so often, i never mean to do it it just happens over and over today it was your appointment. i forgot something today, can you believe it? dont hate me you know i love.......dont you? today i forgot your birthday. i forgot something today much to your dismay you didnt have to toss my cloths out you knew it anyway i tried so hard, but i forgot our anniversary . i forgot something today i was scared it would happen its hopeless to hold on i'll have to cope i forgot our last day.........together. i'll keep forgettin....forever and ever someday...soon i hope someone will come my way even if im old and gray someone will ....in my dreams...... live happily with my forgetful ways.

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copyright,1997,Cory Scott. If you wanna steal my poems and rip my heart out with your thievery then i say SCREW YOU! Seriously why would anyone wanna plagerize my poetical crap anyways?