This is my one and only time you will see me think... wow... Amy thinking. Anyways... as you guys might know, by my pictures, I'm Chinese-American. I've noticed how hard generation gaps are. My parents speak Chinese and just about only Chinese. They speak very little English... I think that's repetitive... anyways... in America, I keep hearing things like, "It doesn't matter how you look on the outside, it's what's inside that counts." But my family speaks from a different point of view. They hate the way I dress and in fact, if I don't change the way I dress, I'll have to sign papers of disownership (no lie). So, I don't know what to go about with. I really hate this generation thing. I mean, it's not like I smoke, I don't do drugs (cuz drugs are bad... mmkay), I don't drink alcohol. I'm not a bad person... or I don't think I am. Hmm... I forgot what the point of this was... Ummm... Yeah... I mean, I love my parents and all, they just don't understand me. They've seen my drawings... and they think I've been posessed by a ghost! They were actually THINKING of paying this guy to try to "fix" me! But how do I explain to her that I think my drawings are a work of art and has their own sort of beauty within them? I guess beauty is nothing. There is no such beauty in morbidity? It doesn't matter because I have to be a little happy-go-getter all the time in order to be accepted in society. I have to keep that smile on my face, be smart, dress a certain way, and act like someone I'm not in order to be liked. Life will always work out. I guess that's what I believe. I'm obviously doing something wrong. I guess I've done something to deserve all of this. I believe in karma. If all this happens to me, I sure hope that later on in life, something nice will happen. :) And if not... I'll just have to live with it. I guess that's what life is all about. Hardship. It's okay though... wait, no it's not. But oh well, maybe I'll just buy a lotto ticket just for the hell of it and see what happens. Life is all about chances and taking chances... you'll never win the lottery without buying a ticket!
Doo bee doo... Life is just one big map. This is what I think. Everyone starts out with birth and ends up with death. Life is just the time between birth and death. Life is one big clock, it ticks away. You don't know when the sand will run out and your life ends, but live life to the fullest. Do what you want to do and don't let anyone get in the way of your goals.
Life's a Bitch. Then you Die.
