Guadually the restrictive shadows vanished
I was touched by the light once more
Suddenly the world was bigger
Contained more things than I could think
Excitement
A promise of forever washed through me, over me
I was cast back into the darkness, terrified and alone
I put aside my near-certainty and asked "Why?"
Had I done something that I couldn't remember?
I received no answer
So I was left with that question
Why?
Could I have done more?
The future is now a thin layer around me
Scary, cold and boring
and the inevitable ending is distasteful
but at least it is not bad
I sink completely into
Nothingness






Damnit! Why do people discount me because I don't have a job? I am trying right now to find a job so I can finish my course, and go on as far as I can... Masters, PhD, and then study physics forever,... travel...SO many things. this is such an incredible universe if you can appreciate it. I have a LOT of drive and I hate giving up. Isn't that enough? Geez!

A little rudeness and disrespect can elevate a meaningless interaction into a battle of wills and add drama to an otherwise dull day. (Why didn't I realise this before?)
I have been trying to believe in a God recently. I'm not sure it's working though comments on Christianity OK and here is another one. Klie's to thank Friends Links Some songs I liked song1 song2 A poem written by someone I know Wow for some reason I'm getting into poetry again