7-3-02

I never thought we would end so fast. It seemed perfect and we were so happy. I wish I could change what happened. I wish I could see what happened before things blew up in my face. Dealing with it hearts me. Thinking about you hoes not help either. The things you say make me think. I wish I could go back. I wish I could make you see how my love still grows for you. I never wanted to write. I thought everything would come out so fast and all wrong. So I try and it all sounds the same. My lies hurt you I know. I want you to say what I want to hear. But what I want, You don't seem to feel anymore. Why? Where did it go? Or are you just saving yourself from the pain we caused each other before? I know you never answer me. But that same line about not knowing what to say is as old as you are. Was the whole time so bad? Did I ever make you feel the way you wanted to feel?