Glare

I glare on, looking-watching. I see the sun. Then it disappears. The dark sky takes over. A dark blanket over the clear blue sky. Another day- laid to rest. All the pain and stress finished up for another 12 hours. I look wondering what you are doing. Are you thinking of me? Do you miss our long nights together? I don't cry any more. Your emotional wounds have healed like mine have. But you came back to me. I want to love him but, I still feel drawn to you. I want his touch but I can still feel yours. Why must this happen? Why can't I be covered in that blanket for the rest of my life. I want to be free. I want to feel free. But it does not happen. Not for a single second.