Regret Lovingly


I want you to hate me
The choice I made
Seems unhumanly possible
To hold that decision
In my hands was something
I never wanted to do

I hope you felt no pain
I saw you, though
Only for a moment
I wanted to see you
Your my child

Your father was there
He couldn't stay
Don't think it was
Out of hate
He loves you, as he loves me

I made this choice
Going against his heart
I hurt him, so
But he stilll loves me
When I want him to hate me

I cried that night before
I swear that I could feel you
I wish I only could go back
I cry now
I want it to be me, not you

I hope you are at peace
That is something I
Will be far from
I deserve this so much
But he says I don't

I think you are still apart of me
You were the best thing
To come from us
I know deep in my heart
We were not ready

I wanted people to love you
And not be the talk
of hatred
To have no one turn you away
Please understand me

I'm not justifying what I did
Your daddy forgives me
Yours could help
I can't forgive myself
I robbed you and your daddy