Infinity
introduction
I came to Faith Baptist in 7th grade, and one thing was for sure:
I wasn't ready for a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, I wanted one desperately, but that
was part of the problem. In seventh grade I wasn't very popular, and to be honest,
I was a dork. I barely talked at all because I was so intimidated by the atmosphere
at F.B.S. The first couple years were rough. I wanted to have a pretty girlfriend, but
that was just about my only requirement. All of my relationships lasted about a week. tops.
As time went by I came out of my shell a little more and I started to become more popular. I was desperate to
hang on to my popularity, so I made fun of everyone who I considered "under me" in the social ladder
Until this time, I never really had any opinion of my Angel, but at this point I started to make fun of her.
(I am so sorry for that, and it is something that I continually regret to this day). There is no excuse for the
way I acted, it was a horrible thing to do. Also during this time, I developed the habit of flirting with anything in a dress that was in my "social bracket."
This lead me to another series of cheap relationships that left me unfulfilled. Around 10th and 11th grade I
slowly came to the realization that I was what I hated: two faced. I became sick of my life in general and gave up on
having a girlfriend who wanted to know me, instead of just date for fun. Around 10th grade I stared feeling
guilty for having made fun of Angel. At least she lived her life for herself and not for other people. I was really fed up with
my whole lifestyle. I made up my mind to be myself and forget public opinion. Well, it wasn't easy. Every time that I said what I thought
instead of what they wanted to hear, I slid down the ladder that took me years to climb. It took a while but I let go of the ladder
and started living my life. I was a lot happier, and low and behold, there were still people that liked me.
So there I was in my senoir year, looking at people through my own eyes for the first time. And that is when I saw an Angel.
Cyber Shrine / Chapter 1
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