Malmoe, Sweden
You walked slowly home after taking a walk around the neighborhood. Everything was white because it had snowed for more than a week now which was kind of rare and you just hoped that the snow would stay until Christmas which only was a couple of days away. As you walked, you could hear the snow crunch under your shoes. It was a great feeling and you felt so happy.
When you got inside your apartment, you started to take your shoes off and you heard the phone ring. You heard your mom answer and you heard her speak English which she normally did not do and you wondered who it was. As you just removed your shoes you heard her call:
"(Your name), it's Taj on the phone. He wants to talk to you!"
It was Taj! You had been waiting for that call and you wondered if he would ever call but now he did and you ran to the phone, grabbed it from your mom and said to Taj:
"So, you finally decide to call."
T: "I love you too."
"Sorry, I love you, Taj."
T: "Don't blame me for not calling. You know, this is my first day off in a month and a half. I'm exhausted."
"Oh, poor you." you said to him not feeling the least bit sorry for him.
T: "Thanks for the compassion."
"It was nothing. So, how are you doing?"
T: "I'm OK but I miss you."
"I miss you too."
T: "Now, Christmas? Where do we spend it? L.A. or Malmoe?"
"How about my place? You can spend Christmas with me and my family, if you'd like to, that is."
T: "I was there the last time."
"Well, there's snow here."
T: "Brrr, cold. No."
"It's not that cold, it's really cosy and besides, I'll keep you warm."
T: "That sounds good. Tell me more."
"Well, we can sleep together in my bed and we can lie really close to each other."
T: "Naked?"
"NO! Nasty boy! I could wear panties and a T-shirt though. But, only if you don't have a shirt on."
T: "Hmm. . .I'll have to think about that. . .OK, I thought. . ."
"Ooo, was it hard work?"
T: "Ha, ha, ha. Very funny."
"Yeah I know. So, what did you decide?"
T: "Well, if you want to know what I'll be wearing, you'll just have to wait and see."
"Can't wait. . .So, will you come over here?"
T: "Yeah, I'll take a flight tomorrow. But, can't we spend New Year here in L.A.?"
"Sure Taj. I'd love that! OK, just call me and I'll meet you in Copenhagen when you get there."
T: "I sure will."
"Can't wait to see you. Well, bye. . ."
T: "Bye, I love you."
"I love you too, bye."
T: "Bye."
The phone call was over and you suddenly remembered that you hadn't bought a gift for Taj yet. So, you went to town and thought of buying him a CD. No, you didn't know which CD's he had and you didn't want to risk buying him a CD he already had so, you went into a clothing store where you looked at some boxer's. Unfortunately you didn't know which size he had so, you asked one of the clerks and after you described him she picked out a pair that should fit him. You bought two pairs, one with an elephant's head in the front and his butt in the back and another one with Taz on them.
Two days later. . .
You woke up with a smile upon your face at 7 a.m. It wasn't like you to wake up this early but you weren't tired at all, just happy. Today was the day Taj was going to come. He would call when he would soon land and you would take the ferry over to Copenhagen and meet him at the airport.
The hours went by but no call from Taj. . .
You thought of calling him to see where he was but decided to wait for two more hours.
An hour later. . .
You sat watching TV waiting for Taj to call and you were getting more and more worried because it was already 2 p.m. and he still hadn't called. Then, suddenly the doorbell rang and you went up to answer it because no one else was at home and could open the door. You opened the door but didn't find anyone there, only a couple of suitcases and you didn't get anything. Who would leave suitcases outside your door and then disappear? Taj!
"Taj? Are you out here?" you asked.
"No." you heard a voice from behind the door.
He stepped out and gave you the biggest hug ever.
"I missed you so much Taj." you said to him.
"I missed you too." he said to you.
"Why didn't you call. I was so worried about you. I thought something happened to you like if you crashed and were eaten by sharks or something." you said to him because you knew that was his worst fear.
"Don't say that!" he said sounding kind of scared.
"Don't worry, it was just for fun!"
"OK. Where do I put my stuff?"
"Come on. You can put them in my room."
Taj picked up two suitcases and carried them towards your room. You were just about to pick up two yourself as he told you not to because he didn't want you carrying them and said that he could take them himself. You still tried to pick two up but just as you were about to do that you understood why you shouldn't have. They were heavy! You asked him what was in there because it felt as though he had them full of concrete and you were not a weak girl. But, he wouldn't answer you. When he got in your room he put the suitcases down and went to get the other two. After putting them down too, he threw himself on your bed, exhausted.
"Oh, I'm so tired. All this flying is killing me." he said.
"Oh, don't complain, you'll be all right. Do you want something to drink?" you asked him and he nodded.
You went out in the kitchen and poured him a glass of apple juice. When you went back in your room, you found Taj sleeping in your bed. He must've been really tired. You put the glass of juice on the table and pulled the quilt up over him so that he wouldn't wake up cold. You sat down on the bed beside him just looking at him, admiring him. He was so fine and he was yours. You still couldn't really believe that he was all yours. You laid down beside him and held him tight, you could smell the scent of his cologne, he smelled so good, just like he always did. In his e-mails, he had told you that he had started to work out more and you decided to find out if it was true or not, so, you made your hand go under his T-shirt and feel if he had got a six-pack. He had. It was just the way you wanted it too. The squares were there but not too visible. Then, you touched his arms and legs too, he had definitely been working out. There were almost only muscles in them. You stroke Taj's cheek and he made this strange sound, just like when a baby wakes up and opened his eyes. He wrapped his arms around you and kissed you. You had almost forgot how much you enjoyed kissing him, and how great of a kisser he was.
"Hold on." he said as he sat himself up.
He motioned for you to come and sit between his legs and as you did, he wrapped his arms around you and held you tight. You turned you head around and kissed him. Then, you both just sat there for awhile. It was such a long time ago you felt Taj's arms around you and it felt great. . .
"Hey, is it OK if Taryll comes over too? He asked me if he could because he loves Sweden and wanted to spend Christmas here. I guess it might have something to do with Michelle. They haven't seen each other in a very long time. When we were in Copenhagen last October, she was in Spain and couldn't see him, since then, we haven't been in Spain nor in Sweden or Denmark." Taj told you.
"Sure. Just give him a call. I talked to Michelle and she was sad because she said that Taryll told her he couldn't get away from L.A. during Christmas and that she couldn't get away from Malmoe." you said to Taj.
"Well, Taryll did say that because he wanted to surprise her. I think he talked to her brother and he's going to come and stay here with us and then, Michelle's brother's going to get her out of the house and Taryll's going to get in. Then, when Michelle gets home, she'll find Taryll in her room with a red rose. He told me all about it." Taj said proud of knowing everything before it happened.
"That's so sweet." you said to Taj.
"Yeah, he'll be here any moment now. He took the flight after mine so that we could spend some time alone." Taj told you.
"Oh. Is he going to spend the night here?" you asked.
"No, I don't think so. He's going to call Michelle's brother as soon as he gets here and he'll get her out of the house." he said.
"Oh. OK. Well, before Taryll gets here, there is something I'd like to do." you said to Taj as you made him lie down on the bed and kissed him passionately. His hands were right on your hips and you stroke his chest. You just loved touching his chest and he definitely did not mind you doing that. Then, right when you were about to remove Taj's T-shirt, his cellular phone rang. It was Taryll, he was in Malmoe now, he had just got off the ferry but remembered that he didn't know your address. Taj gave him your address and Taryll was going to take a cab to your place. Taj hung up and said:
"You have to excuse my brother. Now, where were we?"
"I think we were kissing and I was about to remove your T-shirt."
"Maybe, or, was it the other way around?" he asked you although he knew you told the truth.
"I don't know. You decide." you said teasingly.
Taj went over to you and pushed you down on the bed removing your T-shirt. You took his T-shirt off and the two of you just kissed. . .and kissed. . .and kissed until the doorbell rang. It was Taryll and he had just as much luggage as Taj did. You said:
"Are you guys planning on moving in or something, I mean you must have all of your stuff with you with these many suitcases."
They both laughed and Taryll hugged you, it was a long time ago since you met last. When he tried to give you a kiss on the cheek, Taj said:
"Hey bro', she's my girl. Stay away from her, all right?"
"Ooo, I'm scared. No, don't worry, I got my own baby." Taryll said to the both of you and you just laughed.
Taryll and Taj carried Taryll's suitcases into your room too and soon, your room was full of suitcases. Then, Taryll phoned Michelle's brother, Johan, your old boyfriend. Actually, that's how you got to know Michelle in the first place. Then, things between you and Johan ended but Michelle remained your best friend. Johan and you were still good friends, but nothing more, he had a new girl in his life too, just as you now had Taj. Johan told Taryll that Michelle already was out of the house and that he could come over right now, so Taryll left again.
Obviously, Michelle didn't come home right away, so Taryll phoned Taj and you left him talking to his brother. At one moment you happened to hear a bit of the conversation and Taj said:
". . .Hey, you know I don't go for that and neither do you, got it?. . .Besides, I love her too much for that. Every time she's close to me I get this really weird feeling in my body. . .You do? I do too. I do think (your name) is the one for me. . ."
The conversation continued but you couldn't hear anything now. Still, you were so happy about those things he just said about you. It seemed as though he wanted to let the whole wide world know how he felt for you and that was the exact same feelings you had for him. But, what was that they talked about in the beginning, what he loved you too much for. You decided not to care too much about it because if he loved you too much to do something, it couldn't possibly be anything bad. Taj finished the call and hung up. Then, you could hear a key in the lock and the front door opened, you assumed that it was your parents, but it wasn't, instead, it was your brother, Christopher. He and Taj said hello and Christopher actually seemed to like Taj. Which was good for you, or else, you would never hear the end of it from him. He was always teasing you as soon as there was someone you fancied who he didn't like. When your parents, about ten minutes later, walked through the door and you introduced them to Taj, he seemed to get along very well with them too, even with your dad which wasn't the easiest thing because he had never approved of any of the guys you so far fancied. No one was good enough for his daughter. Well, Taj was definitely seemed to be the best so far.
About an hour later, you and Taj were going to a party with your family, a Christmas party where all of your friends and their parents were going to be. This was a party you had every year, all of your families knew each other and you all always had so much fun together.
As you got there, you introduced them all to Taj, there were a lot of names and everyone wanted Taj's autograph. He just laughed as he signed tons of them. Later on, Taryll and Michelle came too. Taryll too had to sign tons of autographs and then, it was time to eat. The food was delicious, it was your friends father who made it and he's a really good cook.
When it was time for everyone to perform, little girls danced to "Macarena" and "Bailando", two twins imitated Peter André and Bubbler Rank in "Mysterious Girl" and you, Michelle and a couple of your female friends danced some Hawaii dances and there was a girl who sang too. The one who presented everything that evening had heard that Taj and Taryll from 3T was there and asked them to come up and sing something. Fortunately, Taryll always carried an instrumental version of "Anything" with him in case he'd be asked to perform it. Since T.J. wasn't there, you were asked to come up and sing his part, which you gladly excepted. It was so much fun to be up there on stage with your man and perform. Afterwards, everyone applauded, standing up!
The party continued and it was soon time to dance, all of you danced together and you had so much fun. Taj was a really good dancer too! When they played Whitney Houston's "I Will Always Love You", Taj asked:
"May I have this dance?"
"Sure, Taj." you answered him with a smile.
You danced close together and you had your arms around Taj's neck and he had his hands around your waist. You never wanted the song to end because it was all so romantic. You had never really danced together before. . .
It was already 1 a.m. and the party was over. You drove home and went directly to bed, Taj fell asleep immediately. Even at the party he had a hard time keeping his eyes open.
When you woke up the next day, you laid beside Taj in your bed with your head resting on Taj's chest. It was so cosy and you just laid there for an hour and a half before Taj woke up. He yawned loud, as always, stretched his arms high up in the air and then wrapped them around you and held you tight.
It was the day before Christmas, December 23rd, and the Christmas spirit was everywhere, even your brother was happy in the morning, he was always a bit grumpy.
You and Taj decided to go out and walk around a bit in the park. It was so cosy just walking there with Taj but soon enough, you couldn't keep your hands out off the snow and tossed a snowball at him. Then, you both went into a huge snowball fight and Taj rubbed a ton of snow in your face but on the other hand, you filled his jacket with snow. It was so much fun and afterwards, Taj walked up to you and kissed you. You thought he just wanted to kiss you but that's not what he had planned. Suddenly, you felt something really cold on your back. Taj had taken his hand inside your jacket and dropped a snowball he made there. You screamed and he just ran away laughing. You went after him and tossed tons of snowballs at him, unfortunately not a single one hit him, so, he just walked up to you and kissed you instead. Well, at least he tried but you wouldn't let him because of what happened before.
"What's with this attitude girl?" he asked you after you pushed him away from you.
"You're not going to kiss me now, not after what you did before."
"Don't worry, I don't have anything in my hands." he said and showed you his hands.
"Well, OK." you said though you wanted him to suffer a bit. The thing was this that you couldn't resist him so, you let him kiss you anyway.
You just stood there kissing for awhile, normally Taj didn't like to kiss you in public and he said that it had nothing to do with you. He was just shy to kiss when other people looked. This time, you both were all alone and there weren't any other people around at all. After kissing for a couple of minutes, you went back to your house, all the way home, you held hands and kissed every once in a while.
When you got back home, you both went to your computer and logged on the 3Tonline because Taj wanted to answer some of his messages and chat to some fans and you thought it seemed fun. It really was too. When Taj came into the chat no one believed that it was really him and he had to prove it before they believed him and went all crazy asking him all sorts of questions. You thought that they'd be really jealous when he told them about you but all of them wished the both of you the best of luck and they all seemed really happy for you. All the fans in there seemed so sweet to each other and you decided that your man had the best fans anyone could wish for and you also decided that you'd come on here and chat every now and then because they all seemed so sweet.
After logging off, you and Taj went to get some ice-cream. The only taste you had at home was vanilla so you made some chocolate sauce to have on it. It tasted really good and you ate from Taj's spoon and Taj from yours. He was so sweet and when you were about to put some ice cream in his mouth, he suddenly started to laugh and you did too as you happened to smear ice-cream all over his face.
"Now, what was that for?" he asked.
"Sorry, Taj. You know, ice-cream really fits you. Especially with that slight touch of chocolate." you said through laughter because he looked really cute.
"Ha, ha, ha. You know what you have to do now, don't you?" he asked you with a sly grin on his face.
"No, what?"
"You have to lick it off."
"I do not!" you protested.
"Oh yes, you do. Or else. . ." he said with yet another sly grin.
"Or else what, Taj?" you asked him.
". . .or else. . ." he said thinking.
"Yeah. . ."
"I'll kiss you and you'll get ice-cream all over yourself too!" he said as he attacked you kissing and tickling you and of course smearing ice-cream all over your face too.
"Haven't your mom taught you not to play with food, Taj?" you said in a pause.
"My mom's not around, remember?" he answered back smartly.
"I meant years back when you were a kid."
"Maybe she has but let's just say I forgot." he said and started to kiss you again.
After a while of kissing, you said:
"Now that's enough Taj, look, I'm all sticky."
You pushed him away from you and went to the bathroom to wash off. Taj did the same and as you were about to go back to your room you noticed that not only was your sweater full of ice-cream but also your pants and socks, however that happened. So, you took it all off and went into your room in only panties and bra.
"Ooo. What does this mean?" Taj said to you as you walked into the room, obviously, he was thinking some nasty.
"It means, that you got ice-cream all over me and now, I've got to change clothes." you answered him.
"Are you sure it doesn't mean anything else?" he asked you.
"No, Taj, it does not." you answered him with a smile.
Obviously, he didn't take much notice of what you just said and walked up to you, wrapped his arms around you and kissed you passionately. You didn't mind and kissed him back, he laid you down on the bed and continued to kiss you. You took his shirt off and touched his bare chest. This was so perfect, Taj was the one for you, you knew that and so did he. You loved him so much. Your guess was that after awhile of kissing, Taj just couldn't keep his hands off you anymore but moved them towards your breasts. As he just touched them, it felt good but you weren't really ready and moved his hands away. You both continued kissing for awhile more before you got up, got dressed and went out into the kitchen to get something to eat.
The next day, you woke up with Taj kissing you gently on your lips, cheeks, chin and forehead. You wrapped your arms around him and kissed him.
"Merry Christmas, Taj." you said to him and he answered:
"Merry Christmas? That's not until tomorrow."
"No. In Sweden, we celebrate Christmas on the 24th, I thought you already knew that." you told him.
"No, I didn't, well, Merry Christmas to you too, then. I love you."
"I love you too, Tajjy." you said as you felt that his body was really worm "Didn't I tell you I was going to keep you worm." you said to him.
"Yes, you did." he answered between the kisses.
"Now, what was all that about what you were going to wear?" you asked.
"Haven't you noticed?" he asked you.
"What? That you only wear boxers? If that's it, I love it." you told him and he blushed a bit.
"Well, yeah, but have you looked at them?" he asked.
You hadn't but now you did and as you saw them you started to laugh frantically. There was some text printed on them which said:
"I'm a computernerd but I still love you. Merry Christmas, (your name)."
They were read and had little Santa Clauses sitting by the computer on them.
"Well, don't you like them?" he asked you with a smile upon his face.
"Most definitely, Taj. I love you too." you said through laughter.
He sealed your mouth with a kiss, a long one. You could barely hold it back, you had been his girl for several months and you wanted to do something more than just kissing, but, you didn't really know if it was the right time or not. Taj stopped kissing you and said:
"I love you so much (your name). I don't know if I can hold my feelings back anymore."
"I feel the same way you do, Taj. But, I don't know if this is the right time. I mean, maybe it would be going a bit too far." you said to him.
"Yeah. I don't think we're ready to go all the way, just yet. But, maybe we could go a little further." he said.
"Exactly how far is a little further, Taj?"
"Like, only wearing boxers and panties or if you'd like you could wear your bra too."
"I don't know. Convince me." you told him teasingly.
"OK." he said as he started kissing you again.
At the moment, you wore your pink silk pajama but soon enough, after Taj kissing you for awhile, you laid there in only your panties, kissing Taj. You felt your breasts touch Taj's bare chest and chills ran up and down your spine and you had this incredible feeling in your body. Right now you both felt that it was enough to just lie there, kiss and feel your bodies close to each other.
After this little "making-out-session", you both got up, got dressed and went out of your room to say "Merry Christmas" to your family.
The celebration of Christmas began at about 2 p.m. when your grandma and grandpa had arrived to spend Christmas with you and your family and of course, to meet Taj. He seemed to get along very well with them too. Taj and your grandpa obviously shared a common interest in ice-hockey and talked quite a bit about that before you sat down and watched the yearly Donald Duck show. Even though it was in Swedish, Taj thought it was really funny and laughed throughout the whole show, so did you.
After Donald Duck, it was time to eat a little, there was a lot of Swedish "Christmas-food"; herring, cheese, liversausage and more. There was also your favorite, "black-caviar", actually only you and your brother Christopher really liked it and when you told Taj that it was really good, he believed you and took a whole spoon full in his mouth. As he did that you couldn't help but laugh because he didn't like it at all which the expression on his face clearly showed. He ran out in the bathroom and rinsed his mouth, when he came back, you just laughed at him and kissed him before you all sat down and ate your food.
Finally, it was time to hand out the gifts. You gave Taj his gift and when opened it and saw the boxers, he laughed, said "Thank you" and that he liked them. Then, he gave you a kiss on the cheek and handed you a HUGE box wrapped in red wrapping paper with Santa Clauses on it. You tore the box open only to find it empty, well, almost empty, that is. Inside, on the very bottom, a small piece of paper laid on which an internet address was written.
"What's this?" you asked Taj curiously.
"Just go check it out." he told you and you both got to your computer and logged on. When you got to the place, you saw a picture of you and Taj together, under it, it said:
"These are for you:"
A huge bouquet of red roses was shown and below them, it said:
"Merry Christmas.
I love you, (your name).
your Taj"
You realized that Taj had made a site about the two of you with pictures, messages and lots of other stuff. At the bottom of the page, it said:
"Turn around."
You turned around to find Taj holding a small package which he gave you, inside it was a CD with instrumental versions of all of his and his brothers songs. You said:
"Thank you, Taj. I love instrumental versions. How did you know?"
"Well, I didn't. I want you to save this for New Years Eve when we are in L.A., and you my dear, will get a special performance." he told you.
"Do you mean that, Taj? I've never seen you perform and now you're giving me a special performance, just for me." you said as you gave him a hug.
"Just for you, just for you." he said and hugged you tightly.
You both went back into the living room where your family waited patiently to see what he had given you. You told them about it and they all seemed so excited about it and they all wanted to hear it too, but that wasn't possible because the two of you would be going to L.A. during New Year.
After you had all opened your gifts, it was time to eat again. More Swedish "Christmas food"; ham, meatballs, chipolata sausages, brawn and more. When you had eaten and rested for awhile it was time to eat some rice pudding with cream in it "Ris ála Malta" as you called it. In the bowl with rice pudding, you put an almond and the one who found it won a prize. Way back, about 100 yrs. ago, it was said that the one who found the almond was the one who was going to get married next. It just so happened that the almond had split and you got one part and Taj got the other.
"So, this must mean that we're going to get married." you told him.
"Hey girl, slow things down a bit. It's still a bit early, don't you think?" he said smiling.
"Time will tell, time will tell." you told him and leaned over and kissed him.
You sat up the rest of the night just having a cosy time, watching some TV and playing games. Because your grandparents were going to spend the night, you and Taj offered to sleep on the couch so that they could have your bed. It was really cosy because the Christmas tree was still lit. The couch was really too narrow for the both of you to fit in it but that only gave you an excuse to lie even closer to Taj who held you tight. In the room, it was kind of cold but under the quilt, where you and Taj lied, it was really worm and cosy. After awhile of lying there talking, Taj looked at you and noticed that you looked really tired, as if you were about to fall asleep any minute. He held you tight and stroke your hair until you fell asleep in his warm embrace only a few seconds later.
On December 25th your grandma woke up quite early and found the two of you sleeping together on the couch and she though you looked so sweet she just had to take a picture of you.
You woke up at about 9 a.m. and got up without waking Taj. Both your parents and grandparents were already up eating breakfast and you soon joined them in your pajama. After half an hour, Taj too got up and walked through the hallway in his boxers on his way to the bathroom, as he walked by the kitchen, the tired boy managed to say:
"Good morning."
"Good morning." you all said in choir sounding really alert compared to him.
He wore his "computernerd-boxers" and nothing else, he looked kind of funny because he was so tired and looked as though he could just stand up there and sleep. At some point he kind of reminded you of your dad. You remembered him walking through the hallway on his way to the bathroom in his boxers, your brother used to do that too. Was it some kind of male thing to do, or something?
That day you didn't do much, watched some TV, played some video games and kissed, of course.
On December 27th you and Taj were going to take a flight over to L.A. where you should spend your New Year.
As you stood by the gate, your bag broke and all of your stuff were scattered over the floor, both you and Taj started to pick up your stuff.
"This brings back memories, doesn't it?" Taj said to you.
"Yeah, I remember looking up and seeing this really fine guy. I fell for you at that very moment. I remember your eyes, I had never seen eyes like yours before." you told him.
"Thank you. When I saw you, I think my heart stopped for a second. I'd been single for quite some time and wondered when I was going to meet the one for me and there you were. I remember seeing this really beautiful angel right in front of me and I didn't know what to say." he said so sweetly to you.
"That's just how I feel, I wanted to say something too but I didn't know what. I was afraid I'd make a complete fool out of myself." you told him.
"You wouldn't, I know that. Whatever you would've said, I would've agreed. There was nothing else I could do at that moment. Then, when you walked away, I couldn't stop staring at you and I thought about you all the way home to L.A." he said to you.
"I thought about you too. You know, I even dreamt about you that night. I actually dreamt that we would be together and that you would hold me tight, in your arms, close to you." you told him and he smiled because that is just what he enjoyed doing the most.
You boarded the plane and Taj showed you to your seat. It was first class. You had never flown first class before and it was really luxurious. Then, you sat on the plane for the next 14 hours, amazingly Taj managed to sleep through the whole flight, and he said that all the flying was killing him! Yeah right! He was probably just getting too much rest. You on the other hand couldn't sleep at all but watched the movies they showed instead.
When you arrived in L.A. you woke Taj up and you got out of the airport with a lot of suitcases. Out of everyone who was there you were probably the ones with the most luggage. Taj had called T.J. to pick you up and as soon as you got out of the airport, you saw him by his car waving at you. You both were greeted with a big hug and you wished each other a Merry Christmas, though it had been a couple of days. T.J. told you that Taryll and Michelle too had arrived, just a couple of hours before. When you got to Taj's house, he and T.J. carried all the suitcases inside and though you wanted to help, they wouldn't let you. There was no one else at home at the moment and you and Taj went into his room. You dropped right down on his bed and fell asleep almost immediately while he was still wide awake because he slept through the whole flight.
You woke up in Taj's bed at about 3 a.m., everything around you was dark and you still wore the same clothes you fell asleep in. You got up and changed into your pajama as you heard laughter from the livingroom, you went out and found Taj and his brothers sitting on the couch in their pants, without their shirts on, watching cartoons. They all looked really good, especially Taj.
"What are you guys still doing up?" you asked them in a tired voice.
"Hi. How are you feeling? Still as tired?" Taj asked you.
"No. I'm not as tired anymore. Are they actually showing cartoons in the middle of the night?" you asked them because that never happened in Sweden.
"Yeah, is there something wrong with that?" Taryll answered.
"No, I just think it's unusual to find three men watching cartoons in the middle of the night." you said.
"Well, we are unique." T.J. said.
"Yeah, three of a kind. Is it all right if I join you?" you asked, they nodded and you sat down beside Taj.
He put his arm around you and a couple of cheesedoodles in your mouth.
After a little while you decided that you had enough of this "midnight-cartoon-watching-thing" and said:
"I think I'll turn in now. Goodnight. Are you coming Taj?"
"Yeah, I'm right behind you." he answered and you took his hand.
"Ooo, going to the bedroom together." you heard T.J. say.
"Oh, shut up Teej. You're just jealous cause you don't get none." Taj answered him.
"I am NOT!" T.J. defended himself.
"You are too!" Taryll said.
Taryll and T.J. kept arguing like little children about whether T.J. was jealous or not as Taj and you went into his room laughing at his younger brothers. You both laid down on his bed and Taj gave you a goodnight kiss right on your lips before you both went of to sleep.
You woke up the next morning with a bright smile upon your face. This was going to be a lovely day. You laid your head on Taj's chest and just laid there, smiling, until you thought it was time for him to wake up.
"Taj, Taj, it's time to wake up now." you said to him in a sweet voice.
"No, not yet. I don't wanna get up." he said sounding slightly grumpy, like he always did in the morning.
You didn't say anything but got up and went out of the room. Taj fell asleep again thinking that you just left him alone to sleep peacefully but that's the one thing you hadn't. You went out into the kitchen, where you opened the freezer and took out a little piece of ice. You went back into Taj's room and put the little piece of ice underneath his shirt. He jumped up out of the bed, screamed and jumped around on the floor trying to get the ice out of his shirt. When it finally came out, you were laughing hysterically and Taj just looked at you with very tired eyes. Through laughter, you said:
"I'm sorry Taj, I just couldn't help it."
"Oh, you couldn't help it, could you?" he said before pushing you down on the bed, tickling you.
When he finally stopped, he said:
"You know that wasn't a really nice thing to do."
"I got you out of the bed, didn't I? Besides, it always works on my brother. Usually, I'm not this nice, I've poured really cold water in his ears several times. You're lucky I didn't do that to you." you told him laughing because you remembered how he hopped around in the room like a child trying to get the piece of ice out of his shirt.
He sat on top of you and as you just said that, you got this really weird, yet pleasant, feeling in the lower part of your body before he leaned down and kissed you passionately. As he just got up you asked him:
"Where are you going?"
"To get some breakfast. Are you coming?" he asked.
"No. Come over here instead." you said to him and he laid down beside you.
You pulled him really close to your body and that feeling you just had came back, only this time, it was in your whole body. You shivered as he let his fingers run down your back. You had your head buried in Taj's chest and your arms were stroking it. He only wore his boxers while you had your pajama on and he said:
"Isn't it a bit unfair that I only get to wear my boxers and you can wear your pajama?"
"But, Taj, I'm cold." you said to him.
"What if I heat you up? Can I take it off then?" he asked you and you said:
"Boy, you so nasty."
He started to kiss you, gently on your lips, then, on your cheeks, chin and moving down to the part where your head ended and your neck started, on your left side. As he kissed you there, you just melted.
"OK, you won. I give in." you said as he continued to kiss your neck which you enjoyed, a lot. He knew just how to make you want him really bad. Then, he moved lower down and kissed you above your breasts. He unbuttoned your shirt so that he could continue kissing you even lower down. You moaned because it felt so good and Taj just looked up at you, smiled and continued kissing you. He took your shirt off and your guess was that he really liked what he saw and started to kiss you all over. You just thought it felt wonderful. Soon enough, you couldn't take it any longer but got him to move higher up and kiss you right on your lips and you kissed him back, passionately. He took your pants off and then, you both just continued kissing, feeling your bodies close to each other and just as he said, he did heat you up. You turned him around so that he laid down on the bed and you kissed him on his lips at first, then moving up to kiss him behind his ears which he seemed to really enjoy. You moved lower down to his chest and kissed him everywhere, from his chest all the way down to his stomach. He too moaned, especially when you kissed him on the left side. Then, you moved lower down, right below his stomach, on the right side where you also kissed him. You moved higher up again and kissed his lips. You kissed for a very long time, sometimes with you on top and sometimes with Taj on top of you. In a pause, he said:
"I don't want to stop this. It feels so good."
"Neither do I but you know we can't really move any faster, it would just end up wrong." you told him.
"Yeah, I know." he said and started to kiss you again. . .
He got up and reached out for your hand and pulled you out of the bed after which you both got dressed, got out in the kitchen and had breakfast, as always when Taj made breakfast, it was cereal.
"Hey, why don't we do something fun today?" you asked Taj when you had finished breakfast.
"Sure! What d'ya wanna do?" his answer was.
"Well, don't you owe me a game of miniature golf?" you asked him.
"I do?" he asked trying to remember.
"Sure you do. Don't you remember last summer?" you asked him.
"Last summer. . ." he said as if he was in deep thoughts.
"You don't remember, do you?" you asked him.
"Nope, sorry." he said.
"We drove down to the place where you can play miniature golf only to find out that it was closed. . .We went and got ourselves an ice-cream each instead. . .Then, I kissed you. . .I ate from your ice-cream. . .and you ate from mine. . .You had chocolate and I had strawberry. . ." you said to him trying to make him remember.
"Aaaaahh." he said as a bright smile lit up his face. "Now, I remember. You know, that was the first time I had some dirty thoughts about you."
"You think dirty thoughts about me?" you asked him kind of shocked.
"Ooops?" he said looking very guilty.
"What kind of thoughts?" you asked him curiously as you sat down in his lap.
"Just dirty thoughts." he said trying to look innocent, which really did not work.
"Tell me." you said.
"No, some are just too dirty." he told you.
"Well, what are they about?" you asked him.
"You. . .and I. . .doing something. . ." he said with a bashful smile.
"Something?" you asked. "Like what we just did, or. . ."
"Yeah, or. . ." he said smiling.
"Well, I guess I can confess that I too have thought." you said.
"Nice to know that I'm not alone." he said.
"Yeah, I have thought, but I don't think I'm ready to do it, yet." you told him.
"Don't you mean that we are not ready yet?" he asked.
"No, I mean that I am not ready yet. I'm kind of a. . ." you said.
"A virgin?" he guessed.
"Yes. But, when I'm ready, I want you to be my first." you told him.
"Thank you. That means a lot to me. I'll wait as long as it takes. You shouldn't feel that you have to do it or anything and just tell me if I ever cross the line." he said so sweetly.
"Believe me, I will." you told him.
"Just don't feel any pressure and please, tell me if I cross the line. I don't want to hurt you or make you do something you really don't want to do." he said sweetly.
"Oh would you just shut up and kiss me instead!" you told him and he did.
"Not that kind of kiss." you told him smiling afterwards.
"What kind of kiss?" he asked you looking slight suspicious.
"This kind." you said, leaned over and gave him, the best kiss he had ever got.
"Oh, you mean this kind?" he asked, leaned over and gave you the best kiss you ever got.
"Exactly! Now, do it again. . ." you said and he did. ". . .and again. . .", ". . .and again. . ."
You kept on kissing each other for a very long time.
"Oh, get a room." you were interrupted by T.J.
"Good morning to you too, Teej." Taj said.
"Good morning, love birds." T.J. answered.
"Morning." you said.
"Still jealous?" Taj asked T.J.
"Jealous? I was never jealous." T.J. said as if he was defending himself.
"Oh yes you were and you still are." Taj said.
"Look Taj, just because I don't have a girl and both you and Taryll do, doesn't mean that I'm jealous." T.J. said.
"Oh, would you two just cut it out. If you really are that jealous T.J. you can get a kiss on the cheek." you said to T.J. and he answered:
"Hey, I told you I wasn't jealous, don't you guys ever listen to me?"
You all just bursted out laughing before Taj said:
"OK, you're not jealous because if you are, my girl will give you a kiss and I won't let her."
"What's the matter bro? Scared of a little competition?" T.J. asked Taj.
"No. But, even if I was, that's not why she won't kiss you. She loves me and I'm a whole lot better kisser than you are." Taj said to T.J.
"In your dreams, Oldie. You're so old your tongue is probably getting moldy. It's a wonder she even considers kissing you." T.J. said to Taj as he started laughing.
"Well, you're just a baby. You don't even know how to kiss." Taj told T.J.
"Since Taj is too old and T.J. is too young, I should be the perfect one." Taryll said as he walked in the kitchen.
"You?" Taj and T.J. said laughing at Taryll.
"Man, you're being a baby about everything so why should you be grown enough to kiss?" Taj asked Taryll.
"Hey, I don't think we can judge this one ourselves, we need outside help. Just ask Michelle." Taryll said trying to defend himself.
"Well, that would be the perfect thing but the problem is that Michelle never kissed me." Taj said.
"Aahh, would you guys just cut it out? As long as no one complains it's all right. What's the big deal anyway?" you asked them.
"It's a male thing. Every man has to be the best, didn't you know that?" Michelle said as she walked into the room.
"Yeah, and I'm the best, ain't I?" Taryll asked Michelle before he kissed her right in front of you all.
"No, I'm the best." Taj said as he pulled you closer and kissed you.
"Yeah, Taj's the best." you said afterwards.
"He is NOT! I am!" T.J. said.
"Nope, Taryll is." Michelle said and Taryll just smiled.
"He is NOT! I am!" T.J. said once again.
"Sorry Teej, you don't have anyone to prove that. We do." Taryll said.
"Hey, we are not going to find a solution to this so, why don't we say that (your name) and Michelle are the best kissers?" Taj suggested.
"I guess that works for me." T.J. said.
"Yeah, fair enough." Taryll said.
"Shouldn't we get going now?" you said to Taj.
"Yeah, I guess we should." he answered.
"Where you guys going?" T.J. asked curiously.
"We're going to play miniature golf." Taj told him.
"Hey, can we come along?" Michelle asked.
"Sure!" you said. "If that's all right with you, Taj."
"No problems, why don't you come too T.J.?"
"Naah, I got some work to finish." he answered. "Besides, I can't keep looking at you guys, I'll just get depressed."
"What for? I know Taj is ugly but it's not that bad." Taryll said.
"Ha, ha, ha." Taj said.
"For once, it's not only Taj's fault. I just can't stand looking at you guys kissing all the time. I don't have a girl, remember?" T.J. said.
"Yeah well, that's not my problem. I'm not going to stop kissing Michelle just because you can't stand that." Taryll said.
"Bye!" you all said in choir.
The four of you walked out the door leaving T.J. behind. You got in the two cars and drove away to the miniature golf court.
During the game, you all switched partners, you and Taryll played against Michelle and Taj. At the 18th hole, you decided to have some fun with Taj. So, you went up to him, stood really close to him and began to stroke his back and kiss his ear and neck. You could tell that he was really enjoying it and started to go all crazy. He told you to step away but you wouldn't because if Taj would make this shot, you and Taryll would lose. You continued to talk seductively into Taj's ear and kiss him on his neck. He really liked it and couldn't concentrate. Meanwhile, Taryll and Michelle stood a couple of meters away, laughing. Especially Taryll who just watched his brother lose his mind. Then, Taj hit the ball and missed. Taryll ran up to you and said, while holding his hand up:
"Way to go (your name)! High five! That was great!"
"Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever." Taj said.
"So, bro. . ." Taryll said to Taj before he bursted out laughing.
"Hey, isn't that against the rules, to disturb someone while playing?" Taj asked.
"I didn't really disturb you, I just did this." you said and kissed his neck.
"Oh yeah. Now I remember. That was definitely disturbing." Taj said.
"Let's just go get some ice-cream. The losers pay!" Taryll said and you all followed right behind him. You sat down on a bench eating ice-cream. You sat really close to Taj and Michelle really close to Taryll. It was a bit windy and Taj could tell that you were cold. He took his jacket off and wrapped it around your shoulders and you kissed him to say "Thank you".
"OK, who drives ahead?" Taryll asked.
"Well, I was thinking that I and (your name) were going to go to my place but we'll see each other on New Years Eve, right?" Taj said to Taryll.
"Yeah, bye!" Taryll said as he got in the car and drove away.
When you both had got in Taj's car, you asked him:
"What's this about your place?"
"Oh, nothing special, just got my own little apartment." he answered.
"Nothing special? Why haven't you told me?" you asked him.
"I was sure I did. I must've forgot. Sorry." he said.
"That's OK. But I have to see it." you said sounding excited.
When you got there, Taj showed you into a small apartment. A messy one.
"Sorry about the mess." he said and picked up some trash. "So, what do you think?"
"Honestly, I don't know. Where's the apartment? I can't see anything because of all this trash." you said to him.
"You know I'm kind of a slob." he said.
"I knew you were a slob, but not that it was this bad." you said smiling.
"The only reason that this apartment is messy is because I spend all my spear time with you." he said smiling.
"Yeah, I believe you." you said not believing him at all.
He showed you around a bit and the place was really nice, although it was messy. When the evening arrived and you and Taj had eaten some pizza together, you sat in the couch watching TV. Taj sat behind you and had his arms around you.
"Do you want to borrow a sweater? You're so cold." he said as he touched your arms.
"Yes, please." you said to him and you went into the bedroom.
He took his dark green "Taz-sweater" and a pair of red PJ's out which he handed you. You changed into them right in front of him watching you. You didn't feel uncomfortable at all because he was your boyfriend. The clothes were really too big for you, especially the length of the PJ's. You almost drowned in them and tripped as you tried to walk. So, Taj lifted you up and carried you to the couch in the living room where he put you down on the couch. He sat behind you and wrapped his arms around you. It was so cosy. The sweater smelled so good too, just like Taj's favorite cologne "Issey Miyake". You both just sat there for a couple of hours watching the movie "Gone With The Wind". During the movie, you had cried so much that Taj's "Taz-sweater" was all wet. Taj stood up, turned off the TV and then, he asked you:
"You wanna get some ice-cream?"
"Yeah sure, why not? Got chocolate?" you answered him.
"If I got chocolate? I'm sorry but that's really a stupid question. You know what I'm like." he said to you while laughing and walking towards the freezer.
You caught up with him, luckily without tripping over the huge pants you had on, and hugged him from behind. Then, you both got yourselves a lot of ice-cream and went into his bedroom, sat on his bed and ate the ice-cream. You talked for awhile and laughed together. It felt so good to have Taj all to yourself, not worrying about T.J. or Taryll coming in and disturbing you. Not that it happened very often but every once in a while. You just sat there and talked and talked and talked. For once, Taj didn't make a single move on you, tried to kiss you or anything. He was always thinking nasty thoughts, but, at least he kept them to himself this time. That was until he suddenly stopped laughing and became very serious.
"What's the matter, Taj?" you asked him worried.
It wasn't like him to be that serious.
"(Your name), I need to talk to you about something." he said looking down on his hands.
"What is it, Taj? Is something wrong?" you asked him still worried.
"No, no. It's nothing like that. Don't be worried. I just want to talk to you." he said.
"Go ahead. Talk. What do you want to talk about?" you asked him.
"Well, I've just been thinking a lot lately and I want you to know. . .that. . .you mean so much to me, and that I love you with all of my heart. . .I never felt this way about anyone before and I truly believe that we are meant for each other, for eternity." he said looking straight into your eyes. "I want you to know that if I had to, I'd give my life for you. . .There's nothing I wouldn't do for you. . .Without you, my life would not be worth living. . .Mentally, I feel as though we are one person. . ."
You let him talk even though you knew it was hard for him to express his feelings for you like this. Your eyes were also filled with tears because of all the sweet things he just said.
"Then, there is the physical part. . .You know how much I like feeling your body close to mine. . .and what we did this morning was incredible. Still, I feel as though the physical part isn't completed yet. Like, if there is something missing. . .This is really hard for me to say, so I'll just say it. . ." he continued and by now, you knew what he was going to say but you still let him talk. He knew that you wanted him to say those words and that you wouldn't help him so, he said, looking right into your eyes:
"(Your name), I think we should make love. . ."
A deadly silence filled the room. Even though you always knew that this day would come and you knew that he wanted to go further than you had, it still kind of shocked you hearing him say those words. Suddenly, he bursted out laughing and you did too even though you didn't really know why. You asked him:
"What's so funny?"
"You just have this really serious look upon your face, as if someone just died or something. I know it might be sudden but it's not that bad, is it?" he said through laughter.
"I'm sorry. . ." you said laughing before you went serious again. ". . .I just didn't really expect to hear those words."
"Well. . ." he said waiting for an answer.
"What can I say? Everything you said is just what I think. Mentally, we have grown so close. And yes, physically, there is something missing. I want to make love too, Taj, but I don't know if I'm ready. Do you know what I mean? I want to, but I still don't know if I want to." you said to him feeling a bit insecure.
"I understand. Just tell me when you're ready and please tell me if I ever cross the line." he said sweetly to you.
"Thank you, Taj. It means so much to me. When I am ready, I want you to be my first and I want it to be special." you said to him and kissed his cheek.
"If you want it to be special, special it will be." he said and gave you a real kiss.
"Enough of this serious talk. Let's do something fun!" you said enthusiastic and started to tickle him.
He cried out really loud and tried to tickle you back, but he didn't manage. You held him in a tight grip and he didn't have any control what so ever. Then, you stopped tickle him and you laid down beside each other in his bed after taking your pants off. By now, you were really tired, so you turned your back to Taj and tried to go to sleep. You discovered that it was practically impossible since Taj came up behind you, put his arm around you and started to kiss you on your neck, which you really enjoyed.
"Not now Taj, I want to go to sleep." you said to him trying to push him away from you.
"Please, just let me kiss you. You know I can't stay away from you, beautiful angel." he begged.
"I can't really stay away from you either, handsome,I'm just too tired, even to just kiss." you told him. "Just hold me, please. . ."
He agreed to do that and held you tight all through the night.
On New Years Eve, you and Taj were going to the annual "Jackson's New Year celebration". All the Jackson's always celebrated New Years Eve together and this time, it was at Michael's place, Neverland.
"Hey! Hurry up! We gotta go now!" you cried out to Taj who was still in the shower though you had to be at Michael's in 20 minutes.
"Don't worry, they know me. I'm always late." he said to you as he walked out the shower only wearing a very small towel wrapped around him. "Wow!" he continued when he saw you.
You were wearing a tight, short, black dress and obviously, Taj really liked what he saw.
"Hey! Get your chin up from the floor. I know I'm fine but not THAT fine." you said with a smile.
"Oh, believe me, you're FINE!" he answered.
You just noticed how sexy Taj looked and you just had to walk right up to him and kiss him passionately. You had that incredible feeling in your whole body again and your hands were exploring every inch of his back, firmly, but still gently. He had his arms wrapped around you tight and kissed you with just as much passion.
After a few minutes, he pushed you away from him and said in a high pitched voice:
"Taj, you better get dressed now, or else we'll be late!"
You both just laughed and he walked into the bedroom and changed after you gave him a fast kiss on the cheek.
Finally, he was dressed and ready to go but then, you were already 30 minutes late. It took about an hour to drive to Neverland and as you arrived, everyone was already there. You thought it was rather embarrassing to arrive that late, but no one seemed to mind and as Taj already said, they knew that he was always late. All of his relatives were really nice and you felt really welcome and not as though it was the first time you met them. It felt as though you had known them all for a long time already. You and Yashi Brown, Rebbie's daughter, got along really well together and talked and laughed a lot. You also talked a bit with Michael and took care of Prince for quite some time. Michael seemed to really like you and also noticed that you were very good with children, you just loved children. After dinner, which was really delicious, you noticed Taj and Michael talking. You walked up to them and gave Taj a kiss on the cheek before you asked:
"What are you guys talking about?"
"I was just telling Taj that he's lucky to have a girl like you. You seem to be really nice." Michael said to you.
"Thank you, but I think I'm the one who's lucky." you answered and Taj smiled quite bashfully.
Soon enough, it was time for the yearly performances. Of course, Michael and Janet performed a few songs and Taj, Taryll and T.J. too. Then, there were some Jackson's who all were really good too; Rebbie and her daughters Stacee and Yashi for an example. The old Jackson 5 performed too and everyone danced throughout all the performance.
Then, it was 11.30 and everyone started to get ready to light their fireworks. Man, were there fireworks. You had never, ever seen that many and amazing fireworks before. They must have costs thousands and thousands of dollars. You and Taj just stood there and watched them all and right at midnight, you asked Taj:
"Have you ever heard that saying that if a couple kiss right at midnight New Years Eve, the relationship will last forever?"
"No, but that's fine with me." he answered and kissed you.
You stood there for a few minutes just watching the stars and fireworks. Suddenly there's this loud "BOOM!" next to you and both you and Taj gave a jump before he saw that it was T.J. who just cracked a cracker right beside Taj and Taj was immediately off after him! It didn't take long before he pinned T.J. to the ground and declared himself a winner. You heard Tito say, with a smile on his face:
"Are those really my sons?"
"Yeah, that's us!" Taj and T.J. answered and everyone laughed at them.
Taryll answered back smartly, though he was the same himself:
"Yeah, guys, grow up! We're adults, remember?"
Michelle just laughed at him because she knew what he was like, and so did you.
After all of this, you all went to the carousels in the park and rode them all. It was so much fun and when you and Taj were at the top of the ferris wheel, he kissed you, as you watched the stars and saw a shooting star. It was so romantic.
When you all had enough of all the carousels, you went inside Neverland again and watched a couple of movies. You sat between Taj's legs with his arms around you the whole time and it was so cosy.
At about 7 a.m. you all decided to get a couple of hours of sleep and you went upstairs to the rooms you had been given, you and Taj shared one. None of you were really tired as you changed into your PJ's. You had your favorite with you, the pink silk one and Taj had a T-shirt and boxers on, the ones you gave him for Christmas with Taz on. He said that he really loved them.
You creeped into the bed together and laid down beside each other. You said:
"I think this was the best night of my life."
"Yeah, it was a lot of fun tonight." Taj agreed as he pulled you closer and kissed you on your forehead.
After awhile, you said:
"Taj, I just want you to know. . .that I feel really safe when I'm with you. I feel as though nothing bad can ever happen as long as you're here with me."
"You know I won't ever let anything bad happen to you and I'll be there for you whenever you're in need." he answered so sweetly.
"That goes for me too, Taj." you said to him.
You took his hand stroke it and kissed it. He turned you gently around so that he could kiss you. Then, you fell asleep in Taj's warm embrace.
The same day, January first 1998, you woke up at about 11 a.m. and went downstairs to the kitchen where you helped Janet, Katherine, Stacee and Yashi prepare food for everyone. It wasn't until two hours later, 1 p.m., Taj staggered down the stairs looking as if he was still asleep.
That day everyone was really tired, besides Katherine, according to Taj, she was always alert and in a good mood. The afternoon passed pretty quickly and you and Taj decided to head home at about 6 p.m. You said "bye" to everyone and walked out the door to Taj's car. After he opened the door for you and got in himself, he started the car and you were off. Right before you drove out off Neverland, you heard someone call after you, it was Michael and he was holding Prince in his arms. Taj pulled over and got out of the car to talk to Michael.
When he came back, he held Prince in his arms and handed him to you.
"Michael asked us to take care of Prince this night because he had a lot of things to do and Prince's nanny was off duty over the New year. That's OK, isn't it?" Taj asked.
"Sure! He's so cute. I'm sure he won't be any bother at all." you said to him and Taj started the car and drove away.
As soon as you got back to Taj's place, you put Prince to bed after giving him something to eat. Then, you and Taj bundled up in the couch and watched a movie witch really wasn't good, at all. You still sat there watching it since none of you really had anything better to do. Afterwards, you both went into the bedroom and as soon as you got in there, Taj started to kiss you passionately and took your T-shirt off. You were kind of shocked but didn't protest. Instead, you kissed him with just as much passion and took his T-shirt off too. He pulled your body close to his and you could feel his heart beat with an enormous speed. His body was really worm too. You lead him to the bed, still kissing him, and got him to lie down. You felt your pants being removed by Taj and then, you took his pants off. You kissed for quite some time before you fell asleep beside each other.
The next morning when you had dropped Prince off at Michael's, it was time for you to go back home to Sweden. As Taj had driven you to the airport, you waited there for about two hours before it was time to board the plane. During those two hours you talked a lot and decided that you'd see each other some time soon, when he was going on a promotional tour in Europe.
"Taj, I really don't want to leave you again. It's so hard." you said to him when it was almost time to board the plane.
"You know I don't want you to leave. We just have to keep in touch with e-mails and phone-calls, right?" he said trying to sound happy.
It didn't work.
"I don't know what to say. It has never been so hard to leave you before. We've grown so close and. . .oh, I just want to stay here with you forever." you said and hugged him.
He wrapped his arms around you and stroke your back gently as you inhaled the scent of his cologne and felt a tear fall down your cheek. You stood there for a couple of minutes in absolute silence. For every minute that passed by, you held Taj tighter and tighter and held his body so close to yours.
"You know what I usually say right now. . ." he started.
"Yes Taj, you don't want to remember me like this, and that I should smile instead. It's just so hard to smile when I know that I won't see you for months. I'm nothing without you. I love you Taj Jackson." you told him.
"I love you too (your name). Don't worry. We'll see each other again." he said trying to cheer you up.
"Yeah in a couple of months. Kiss me Taj." you said and he did.
He leaned over and gave you a good-bye-kiss. It didn't say good-bye, though. It said more like, "we'll see each other again".
"I really have to go now. Good-bye Taj." you said and tried to walk away, the problem was that Taj wouldn't let you.
He held you tight and said:
"(Your name), don't say good-bye. Say: "See you later" instead. I love you. Just call me, whenever, wherever and I'll be there."
He let you go and you walked away from him.
You boarded the plane and found out that you had a seat by the window. As the plane took off, you could see Taj on the ground waving to you. You waved back. You had never waved that much in your life. All the way home, you thought about Taj. Why was it so hard? Why did you have to live so far away from each other? Life wasn't fair, at all. Why would you be put through this? Why couldn't it be easier? As if it wasn't hard enough to be involved in a long-term relationship. It didn't make it easier that he lived on the other side of the world. . .
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