God. how am i supposed to do this? Restated: why am i dumb? I broke up with alex nearly a year ago. I broke up with him. Yet here i am, it's nearly december, pining away for the one guy i probably can't have. I can't even explain it. Well, i can, but... ::sigh::
I don't know what it is. we started talking again in September, and i finally saw him last sunday, and now... ::heavy sigh:: now i can't get him out of my head. I don't know if i want him simply because i can't have him, or if i reallt genuinely like him. AARRRGH!!!! All i can really figure out is that he's one of, like, two people in my entire life that i've never ever been mad at, i love talking to him and hanging out with him, and i really do regret breaking up with him in the first place. So now the question is, how the hell do i tell him this?
	I could deal with it if he just didn't want to get back together... i mean, it has been a year, feelings change, people change, and qho knows? maybe we really are better off as friends. 	But, see, there's this other girl that his friends are trying to set him up with. And if he doesn't want to get back with me simply because of her... i don't think i could deal with that. 	So now i pose the question: what do i do? how do i tell him? 	do i even bother to, or do i just suck it up and be content with us being really good freinds? 	bah, fie, and a pox on hormones. they've never done me any good. nytdraven@yahoo.com