Without music my life would be dreary and this section would be empty.
I have also been inspired by people in my life, the people I see everyday. Most of these people are no longer in my life for one reason or another but they still touched me, none the less. ALL of these poems were written and inspired by actual events that took place in my life or the life of someone I was touched by. Some may be upsetting or negative but they are real! I hope you enjoy them and remember...I wrote EVERY one of them so PLEASE don't take them! They are also ALL copyrighted. Thank you!
TRAPPED
I'm trapped.
The walls are sufficating.
The doors are locked.
There are no keys,
No release.
My own prison.
A sound-proof prison.
And I have built it myself.
Tear down the walls,
Unhinge the doors.
Can anyone? Should anyone?
Would I blow away if they did?
I don't know.
I'm trapped.
Forever.
LOVE
Did you promise to love her until the day you died?
Did you look at the heavens and promise the sky?
Did you look into her eyes and profess true love?
Did you promise the angels to sing from above?
Did she look at you and promise the same?
Or did she look and only see shame?
Pity and love, do they mix?
Well, my sweetheart, I can promise you this:
To show love like that will take much more than your meaningless kiss.
MEMORY
Sounds of laugher,
Sounds of fear,
God only knows, they aren't very clear.
Muffled voices echo the panic as it fades into the distance.
Silence now.
They carried you away.
Your endless laugher, only a memory.
They carried my hope, they carried my memories to a safe place within.
To a place where there is no sound.
I stand here, cold in the freezing rain,
Wishing you could hold me in your warm embrace.
It helps to know you try to, though, even from so far away.
PRAYER TO A HUSBAND
Draped in the shadows, you fade away.
Now my life is nothing but gray.
Mists of memories fade to black.
If you only knew how much I want you back.
In my arms, in my life.
I loved so much, being your wife.
Closing the coffin, closing the lid.
That's it. My life closed with it.
All my life ended with one fatal blow.
Even though you're dead, I can't let go.
Deafening silence and unshed tears.
I cry everyday you aren't here.
To your last words, I hold tight.
"Good-bye my sweet, beautiful wife."
BOW OUT GRACEFULLY
The lights went down, the actors left the stage.
They left you alone.
You're in the spotlight now.
No one to watch you shine.
Now, in sadness, you fade away.
You will never know just how good you were.
Your curtain went down way too soon.
But don't worry, you'll always be a star in our hearts.
You will always shine on.
Forever.
DREAM
Sitting in my special place all alone, just dreaming.
Staring at my subjects, gazing across my kingdom.
How they all love me as I relish all their praise.
All the gifts they bestow on me, the laughter and the dances.
The ballerinas in their slippers glide across the ice.
Gracefully they glide, smiling at me adoringly.
Suddenly they all went from my special place.
I'm alone.
Just a dream once again.
EMOTIONS
Sadness walks where smiles won't tred.
Anger goes where happiness is dead.
Emotions battle inside my head.
My heart is confused, misled.
Positive emotions lay and wait.
Take all the negitive, its not too late.
Lift my spirits to the never-ending sky.
Let them go, let them fly.
Don't worry, they won't be missed.
Not when you make me feel like this.
HEAVEN
Flying with my angels,
Perched on a velvet cloud.
In a perfect world of our own design.
In our reality, not just our minds.
Two hearts beat as one.
RETREATING
I could see the green grass and blue sky.
Then he was on me.
I wanted to die.
I wanted to just run away so, so much.
But in my own little world,
I could escape his touch.
My own little world,
I was safe there.
No panting men, no pain to bear.
Just me and my dreams,
All alone and free.
If only that were where I could really be.
Safe and sound behind a protective wall.
When he was done, I could barely crawl.
That's when I knew I wouldn't survive the attack.
That's when everything suddenly went black.
My last thought was,
As I was lying there,
At least now there really will be no more pain to bear.
DAYDREAM
Even though I may not be there,
Close your eyes and feel how much I care.
Feel my friendly embrace,
My gentle kiss on your hair.
Come what may, I will always be there.
We are settling for a dream now,
And it may seem as though it will never be real.
But always remember,
The miracle of a dream is not the fantasy,
But the way it makes you feel.
UNFEELING EYES
Blinded by your own pretences,
Your staring hurts me.
Your laughter shreads and tears,
Given away by your unfeeling eyes.
Your ex-ray vision stings,
You see the pain and turn away.
Blankly staring through unfeeling eyes.
You have no feelings, no emotion.
As you coolly stare through unfeeling eyes.
You have not suffered as I have,
You have no price to pay.
No compassion, just two unfeeling eyes.
Inside, Outside. So blind. So far.
It's not your fault you were born with unfeeling eyes.
BITTER
Did you cry?
Did you blink?
Did you even stop to think?
About my feelings,
About my heart,
About how you tore me all apart?
Did it matter?
Do you care,
About how much I tried to be there?
How I tried to make you see just how much you mean to me?
I guess I failed,
And its too late.
All this anger,
This sealed our fate.
I'm left standing alone in the pouring rain.
All I can feel now is an endless pain.
But you're so blind,
You can't see,
All the pain you just caused me.
Why you did this?
I don't know.
I never wanted to let you go.
ANGEL MUSIC
Angel song, sounds so sweet.
Fiery words, feel the heat.
Every word, from the heart.
I can't wait for it to start.
Beautiful rhythms steal my heart.
Lost in every note.
Lost in the beautiful sounds.
Lost in the beautiful angel voice.
Lost in heaven until the end.
GUILT
I took for granted what I had.
You were here, I thought, forever.
Now you're gone.
I'm sorry I wasn't there as I should have been.
Now you're gone.
Now my tears go down in a meaningless stream.
I should have cried before you left me.
Now you will never know my pain.
Because you're gone.
No more laughter.
No more hugs.
No more new memories.
Just silence.
You're gone.
And only my guilt remains.
JOURNEY
I can't go on.
I'm turning back.
The road ahead is so, so black.
Twists and turns,
I'm so confused.
Where do I go?
Where do I turn?
Scared and alone,
Suddenly a light.
Finally rescued by my gallent knight.
SERENITY
No sadness.
No fear.
Imagine how good it could be here.
No war.
No fights.
No endless, sleepless nights.
No blood shed.
No tears.
No mothers living in fear.
Happiness. Cheer.
So much good to share.
Come on. It's not too late.
Think of it this way,
Why wait?
ALONE
I awoke to silence and bare walls.
I was in a place I no longer knew.
A place I used to call home
But now it was just four empty walls.
An empty hollow shell in which there used to dwell,
Life, happiness, love, joy, forgiveness.
It was all taken away so quickly,
Taken from me so fast.
Now where do I dwell?
No home.
Just four empty walls and nothing more.
I awoke to silence and blackness.
From a dream that I could not erase.
It was real.
I was alone for another day,
To live in my dream which no one could take away.
And my fear of the silence and blackness would also live for another day,
Until they became me and I truely am all by myself.
STRENGTH
I am strong.
I can fight.
But not with anger or spite
With compassion and love,
Things you know nothing of
I'm strong, I'll survive.
I'll keep myself alive.
Ignore your let downs and doubts
All negitivity I will throw out.
I am strong.
LOSING A DREAM
She runs away from the endless darkness
Toward a blinding light
And just at the doorway of all her dreams
They die and fade from sight
That longing is eternal
Never filled
A void to remain forever
How to capture that light again
You ask her
She don't know
And suddenly their arms envelope her
Her peace returns again
Wrapped around the certainty that her faith never left
But when their arms let go
Deep down in her soul
She knows she's alone again
How to return from the black hole of despair
Is something she wishes she knew
Someone whispering in her ear
Telling her what to do
But all she feels is the eternal pain
Years of torment to follow
Wishing someone knew what to do
To take away her sorrow
She'll hold on tight
To recapture the light
To make it till tomorrow
But what if her fingers slip
She'll lose her grip
And tomorrow never comes
You lose your heart and soul sometimes
And drift along the way
Trying to relieve all the pain inside
And keep your emotions at bay
Sometimes you've got to let the river flow
And just let go
To feel some peace inside
Some things are just too big
Just too heavy
To keep locked up in pride
Well, that's it...for now. If you have any comments or questions about ANY of these poems please mail me. No question is too personal, don't worry. Thanks again!
