SWEAT
I'm sweating, and breathing and staring, and thinking, and
sinking deeper. it's almost like I'm swimming. The sun is
burning hot again on the hunter and the fisherman, and
he's trying to remember when, but it makes him dizzy.
Seems like I've been here before. Seems so familiar.
Seems like I'm slipping into a dream within a dream.
Must be the way you whisper. The sun is setting cool
again. I'm the thinker and the fisherman and
I'm trying to
remember when but it makes me dizzy. and I'm sweating,
and breathing, and staring and thinking and sinking
deeper and it's almost like I'm swimming. Seems like I've
been here before. Seems so familiar. Seems like I'm
slipping into a ream within a dream. It's the way you
whisper. It drags me under and takes me home.
I can't say what I want to, even if I'm not serious. Things
like...."Fuck yourself, kill yourself, you piece of shit."
People tell me what to say, what to think, and what to
play. I say..."GO fuck yourself, you piece of shit.Why
don't you go kill yourself?" Just kidding.
PART OF ME
I know you well. you are a part of me. I know you better
than I know myself. I know you best, better than anyone.
I know you better than I know myself. You don't
judge.You can't speak. You can't leave.You can't hurt me.
You're just here for me to use. I know you best, better
than one might think.I know you better than I know
myself. It's time for you to make a sacrifice. It's time to
die a little. Give it up. You are a part of me.
COLD AND UGLY
Underneath her skin and jewelry, hidden in her words and
eyes is a wall that's cold and ugly and she's scared as
hell. Trembling at the thought of feeling. Wide awake and
keeping distance. Nothing seems to penetrate her. She's
scared as hell. I am frightened too.Wide awake and
keeping distance from my soul. I am scared like you.
JERK OFF
Someone told me once that there's a right and wrong,
and that punishment would come to those who dare to
cross the line. But it must not be true for jerk-offs like
you. Maybe it takes longer to catch a total asshole. but
I'm tired of waiting. Maybe it's just bullshit and I should
play GOD, and shoot you myself. Because I'm tired of
waiting. Consequences dictate our course of action and it
doesn't matter what's right. It's only wrong if you get
caught. If consequences dictate my course of action I
should play GOD and shoot you myself. I'm very tired of
waiting. I should kick you, beat you, fuck you, and then
shoot you in your fucking head.
OPIATE
Choices always were a problem for you. What you need
is someone strong to guide you. Deaf and blind and dumb
and born to follow, what you need is someone strong to
use you..like me, like me. If you want to get your soul to
heaven, trust in me. Don't judge or question. You are
broken now, but faith can heal you.Just do everything I
tell you to do. Deaf and blind and dumb and born to
follow. Let me lay my holy hand upon you. My Gods will
becomes me. When he speaks out, he speaks through
me. He has needs like I do. We both want to rape you.
Jesus Christ, why don't you come save my life. Open my
eyes and blind me with your light and your lies.
THE GAPING LOTUS EXPERIENCE (BONUS TRACK)
I had a friend once he took some acid. Now he thinks
he's a fire hydrant. It's okay until he pisses on your
lighter. Kinda smells kinda cool kinda funny anyway.
satan, satan, satan... I had a friend once he took some
ecstasy. Tried to marry me and every one in the room. He
was sort of loving kinda caring, kinda tried to fuck my
lazy boy. It got a bit messy all over the curtains, arm
chair covers, throw pillows, and carpeting satan, satan,
satan...I'm getting bored again..
