At timez I waz alwayz the only one out on tha beach at this time of nite...so I roamed freely with no hesitation. Tha sun waz setting and I waz privileged enuff to be one of tha onez to view it. I swung my sandalz around my fingerz and continued walking...humming Jay Z'z " Jigga". I am and alwayz waz a Rap and R&B kinda gal.
As i walked further I realized that I waz reachin closer and closer to tha condo complexez that my parentz owned. I waz allowed to come visit their Italian Villa n e time I wanted. Like I said before..they r very loving parentz. I decided to walk further into tha sand and stop walking along the shoreline for awhile....but before I walked n e further..I heard sniffling. As if someone waz crying. I knew what that felt like...maybe knew it too well.
When I approached the sobbing figure...he lifted his head up in alarm. "Hey..it'z ok...I'm not dangerous or n e thing..haha" I chuckled.
Tha person looked me over carefully..if not believing what I just told him of my not being dangerous. I looked him over as well...he waz striking in evryway. Wild outgrown hair trouseled about on top of his head. A leopard hat layed unworn beside him and his attire waz stand-outtish..yet had a classy look on their own. His face featurez couldn't be seen too clearly but I knew all in all..he waz a very good looking man.
He quickly wipped away his tearz andstared at me...I didn't know why. But I just assumed he wanted to grieve or cry in peace. I shifted my way a little to tha side to walk pass him but turned around. By this time..this strange man waz starin out into the ocean. "You know..I don't know u...who u r..or where u come from..but I guess we have thingz in common. Tha beach seemz to be or shoulder that we can cry on.." I smiled.
He turned slowly to look at me..this time with more soft eyez.. a more gentle approach. I smiled at him one last time and made my way backhome.
Tha further I walked..tha more chilly it got. Luckily..I got home before I froze to death. I walked down the hall of the condos and heard loud screaming. Not in fright or fear..but just in victory and defeat. I stopped slowly and listened for a bit.
"I beat u!!..I beat u!!" a voicechanted.
"Yeah..Yeah..whateva Frack..I let u win.." another voice interrupted.
Something waz southern about tha second voice. I shook off tha eerie feeling and turned to unlock my door. Unfortunately I lived in a condo across from where tha voicez were stayin. I walked further into our home and turned on tha lightz. It waz quiet....tha only sound to be heard waz tha crashing of tha wavez outside below the balcony. I set my keyz down and headed towardz it. Leaning against tha rail..I drew in a deep breath and just stared above me. "Starry.." I grinned to myself.
When I waz younger..my parentz used to alwayz tell me that people who past away and wanted to see their family or friendz at all timez become starz. That way..evrytime their familiez look up..they know exactly where they are. I wondered to myself if that waz true and continued staring for a lil while longer. I finally came back to my sensez and went back in, closing tha balcony door behind me.
After showering and changing into more comfy clothez..I layed in my bed. Thoughtz of my parentz came to mind. This waz like a ritual for me evrynite. I can't sleep a wink without thinking about my parentz first. Getting bored of just lying there..I glanced over at tha clock and noticed it waz only 9:30PM. I hauled myself out of bed and stumbled back outside into tha main room." Damn..I can't sleep...again.." I mumbled to myself as I plopped down on tha couch.
An idea suddenly popped into my head and I headed off to get dressed. Coming out with tight flared leisure pantz and a elbow sleeved knitshirt..I grabbed my car keyz and headed out. As I turned my back to lock mydoor..
"Hi!.." a cheerful voice greeted me.
I turned around. "Hey..wazzup?" I asked in return with a smile. Tha guy waz about my age..but definetley taller than my 5'9 frame. He had his blonde hair tucked away in a backwardz cap and he bared his adorable face and blue eyez to be admired.
"Nuthinmuch..Brian just kicked me out of tha room cause I kicked his ass in Mario Kart." hegrinned. "I'm Nick by tha way.." he added with a hand stuck out for me to shake.
"CaSarra..nice to meetcha Nick." I smiled back. "R u guyz just visiting or sumpthin cause u don't look like ur from around here." I asked.
"Yup..we're vacationing from tou..I mean..just vacationing.." he said with a cheesy grin.
I chuckled and nodded. "Well..I gotta get goin now..I guess I'll see ya around Nick.." I said and waved to him before I went out tha main entrance door.
I spotted my car rite next to a nice Prowler..obviously an American car. I jumped into my Italian car..a Ferarri and sped off to my destination..La Cafe' near tha end of tha beach. I thought it waz too cold to walk there so I drove instead. I parked in an empty spot and got out.
Tha cafe' wazn really empty since it waz so late. Sitting near tha garden of tha cafe'..I observed my surroundingz. Not much waz there except a few empty tablez and light polez. I gave tha waiter my order of a cappucino and sat around tapping my manicured really dark red on tha glass table.
As I continued waiting..I heard someone sipping a drink or whateva refreshment they were consuming. I turned around behind me and looked around. To tha very far back and right I saw..him. Tha man who waz crying on tha beach. I didn't wanna stare so I turned back around and my drink waz set down infront of me. I held my drink up to tha tipz of my lipz and sipped slowly..being careful not to spill n e thing and make an ass out of myself.
When my cup waz finally empty..my watch read 10:15 PM. I got up and laid my money on tha table along with a tip. I wanted to look back and see if he waz still there..but finally decided against it. I saw no use in doing so.
I got back into my car and hoped that when I got back home..sleep would finally come.
I watched her evry move. She waz a fascinating creature that has caught my evry attention. She talked to me on tha beach..but I couldn't do n e thing but stare. We ran into each other again and still I had no gutz to go and talk to her. When she turned around..I finally caught a lighted glimpse of tha masterpiece known as her face. She had featurez of...I think two culturez. High arched eybrowz that defined her face and eyez really well. Full and pouty lipz glimmered in tha light. Tha twinkling of her grey eyez whenever she blinked or moved waz hypnotizing. Her layered hair framed her face prefectly...truly a work of art. I sat and looked at her evry once and while..but too..emotional to actually feel lust towardz her.
As much as I lust for women.. this would be very strange and different from my nature. I guess my break-up with Christina waz also a reason. 2yrz....can u imagine it?...2 yrz. She finally confessed that she wanted me for tha fame and fortune. Not for who I am and tha love I offered to her....mind..body...soul..and all of my heart.
Women. I can't figure them out sometimez. After all my thinking..I heard a screeching of a chair against tha concrete floor and looked up. She waz leaving..I contemplated time and time again..whether or not if I should go and talk to her. Instead.. I watched her beautiful body inch farther and farther away from me. When she waz finally out of sight in her car..I got up and paid for my 3 coffeez.
As I got back to tha condoz..Nick and Brian were still at it with each other in Mario Kart and Kevin and Howie went clubbing. "Where ya been Bone?..We were gettin worried man.." Brian said as I walked in tha door.
I simply grinned.."Out...thinkin." I stated.
"It'z been 2 monthz Bone..let it go..she told u what she waz really after..u deserve better.." Brian reasoned.
"Yea..I know Rok..G'nite."I said as I headed off into my room.
As I closed tha door I overheard Brian saying.."He hasn't been tha same lately..I'm really worried man..he has never been like this over a gurl." I guess he'z rite...my relationshipz with tha gurlz in tha past never lasted into tha next month..but with Christina it waz different..I thought she actually loved me. I sighed deeply..hoping it would make me feel better..but like usually..it never doez.
I changed and sat down on tha edge of my bed.....I thought vacationing waz actually going to help me. But tha memoriez flooded back into my mind and i leaned back into tha bed and forced my eyez clothez. Sleep never comez unless I force it too......
I heard bustling in my room and fluttered my eyez open. I sat up and searched for where tha noise waz coming from. I looked around and saw Brian in my closet searching thru my bag. "What in tha world r u doin in ma bag Rok?" I asked rubbing tha sleep out of my eyez.
"Lookin for my shirt I let u borrow..." he replied under the muffling noise.
"U mean tha Gucci grey one?" I asked while watching him continue searching for his beloved shirt. He turned around quickly with a hint of hope in his eyez... "Yea..that one..where is it Bone?". "Weeelllll..ya seee..I kinda forgot it.." I said trying to avoid his eyez.
"Where did ya forget it?" he asked standing completley straight now.
"Rome" I said and tried to smile at him. But all I got in return were yellz and hollerz bout tha shirt and my irresponsibility.
He finally stopped fuming and breathed in and out slowly. "Ok..nevermind about tha shirt..I guess I can get anotha one today or sumpthin.." he trailed off and walked out of my door.
I rolled my eyez at his quick change of attitude and got up to get dressed. As I waz about to open my door to get out..Nick poked his head in with a grin. "Move Nickay.." I joked.
"Don't call me that!!" he whined. I laughed at him and pushed my way out tha door.
As i walked into tha living room.....tha scene waz hilarious. Kevin had bagz under his eyez and waz slouched down on tha couch staring at tha muted T.V. Howiez on the other hand waz next to him waz just as tacky but looked like he waz trying to get over his hangover from tha nite before.
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