I think back on those three days, and smile when I think of the day we met. It just seemed so long ago, yet I could see it all very clearly, as if he was still right here beside me...
In some strange and funny way, I guess I should feel grateful to my mother, had she not given me the news that I was going to be betrothed that day, I would have never met Brian up at that cliff. That day mixed up all sorts of emotions in me, he showed me that love is something you find within you, something so valuable... He comforted me when I was in my worst moods, and confided in me when he was feeling depressed about his heart...
I haven't been back to that cliff since that day, I did not feel like seeing the blue sea at all, which in every way reminded me of his sweet eyes. But here I was right now, standing at the edge of the cliff, and seeing it again for the first time as I finish writing all this.
I once read in a book that nothing lasts forever, and I thought that was stupid then, because I couldn't see how all the beautiful things in life could ever stop lasting, but I was wrong. I realized out of all this irony that nothing ever lasts, and depending on your luck, you might experience love just once before you die. I was lucky enough to do that, but it was only for a few short days, and those days were the best in my life.
The sea actually looks very gray today, and it was so unlike that blue I had once been so used to. It didn't matter to me, though, it was where I would soon end my pain...
I've tried and tried, but life does not seem possible to me without that feeling of love, the one and only I had ever experienced... Brian was that one person in my life, and the only one, yet life felt like taking him away from me all too soon...
I do not feel bad at all about leaving, and perhaps the only person I regret hurting would be Nick, my dear brother. If you ever do find this, Nick, and you are reading it, please understand my reasons for ending my altogether sad life. I love you little brother.. well, I am older than you by four minutes anyway... but please don't be angry at what I have to do. I am now going to bury this book under the rock, in our place... where I first met my dear Brian... I guess I'd like to say goodbye to all the world in that same special place, for it was special and would always be...
If you ever find this, whoever you are, I don't want you to pity me, nor my life, nor Brian. I want you to understand my story, to understand how Brian had changed my life completely, and for that I am forever grateful. But i am turning on my own words, forever does not exist, does it? Nothing does last forever, and I have learned that the hard yet best way, by falling in love with Brian, and losing him in three days... Goodbye, and if you're ever lucky enough to find that one person, take it from me, hold on tight to them, for you never know what cruelty this world could have in store for you... Brian-- I love you
Taimara Dietsch... March 19, 1676
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