My Daily Diary

Nov 16, 2000:     Well, I had a very strange weekend, but the experience I went through showed me what I really need to be concentrating on in my life... and that is God.  Many times, I have fallen into lust and temptation way too easily.  Over this past weekend, God gave me a test... and I failed.  Satan was able to make me look like a hypocrite to everything I believe in.  If you're a good friend of mine, then you know who I would love to date (and no I am not talking about Pol Buckingham or Noah Bastian)... and I feel that what I did put this friendship/relationship on the line.  But for some reason, I am glad that God tested me... it taught me a lesson in temptation and controlling myself when faced with them.  On another note, I am slowly getting Senioritis worse and worse as the days go on.  I've been in the mood to keep skipping out of study hall.... not good!  I have a feeling I will be getting in major trouble sooner or later.  I've really been praying for a revival in our school.... God wants to be let in so bad, but I feel that Satan has taken control of our school.  Fortunately enough, we have a nice-sized group that prays every morning in our back lobby.  There's a good 10 people there daily... which is pretty good.  I'm really trying to organize my time better so that I can apply for a job and get some $ in my pocket.. so please pray for me about that.  Thank you so much... God Bless.

Dec 26, 2000:    Life in the world of Leanne is quite different these days.  I got a job at Bob Evans as a server so thanks to all of you who prayed for me about that.  My grades.... well let's just not talk about those.  I've really been evaluating my life and my family today... and it's so depressing.  I am really praying for more communication in my family.  My parents are being really distant right now... I won't go into graet detail about that one.  All in all, my mom is lonely and feels like she doesn't have my dad to talk with.  And that is a bad thing.  I got the new U2 cd.. it's really good... I suggest it to all of you.  And that friendship that I thought I screwed up.... I wish I could've ended that one on a good note.  Now the two of us aren't talking and he's dating someone.... sucks for me.. yes I know that.  I am just waiting for God to show me the One!  But I doubt that will be happening anytime soon so I guess I'll just wait patiently.  SOME GOOD NEWS!: I got accepted to Geneva College so I will be attending there next fall!  Well... that's about it.  My life is pretty boring.  =)  I hope I can start leaving more messages on here soon.... I've been super busy.  God Bless all.

January 19, 2001:     Well... after about two weeks of depression and having a breakdown, my life is a lot better.  I think I have a mild case of Social Anxiety.  It seemed that when I started to have a lot of homework, I just couldn't handle it and got depressed.  On Wednesday night, after crying for an hour, I decided to just go to my room and relax.  When I walked in, my eyes were just drawn to my Bible, so I picked it up and just opened it.  I came across the only verse that was higlighted.. it was Proverbs 3:5.  It says "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding."  After reading taht, I had such a great feeling of peace over me.  I realized that I was trying to control my life when I know that that is God's job!  I guess I was also feeling lonely... I wanted to talk to someone about my struggle with god, but really didn't trust anyone.  But I am all good now.  =)  The newest cd I bought.... JOHN REUBEN'S "Are We There Yet?".... it is such a good cd!  It's hip hop.... and i'm not ghetto..... but it's still good.  I mean.. c'mon... some scrawny white boy rapping... it's great!  Eminem.. is a jerk.. but John reuben..... he's 'da man!  Hehe!  Well... good night!