The ghost of Tom Joad

 
 
The ghost of Tom Joad - Straight time - Highway 29 - Youngstown - Sinaloa cowboys - The line - Balboa park - Dry lightning - The new timer - Across the border - Galveston bay -
My best was never good enough

 

 
 

The Ghost Of Tom Joad 

Men walkin' 'long the railroad tracks
Goin' some place there's no goin' back
Highway Patrol choppers comin' up over the ridge
Hot soup on a campfire under the bridge
Shelter line stretchin' 'round the corner
Welcome to the new world order
Families sleepin' in their cars in the southwest
No home no job no peace no rest

The highway is alive tonight
But nobody's kiddin' nobody about where it goes
I'm sitting down here in the campfire light
Searchin' for the ghost of Tom Joad

He pulls prayer book out of his sleepin' bag
Preacher lights up a butt and takes a drag
Waitin' for when the last shall be first and the first shall be last
In a cardboard box 'neath the underpass
Got a one way ticket to the promised land
You got a hole in your belly and a gun in your hand
Sleeping on a pillow of solid rock
Bathing in the city aqueduct

The highway is alive tonight
But where it's headed everybody knows
I'm sitting down here in the campfire light
Waitin' on the ghost of Tom Joad

Now Tom Said "Mom, wherever there's a cop beatin' a guy
Wherever a hungry newborn baby cries
Where there's a fight 'gainst the blood and hatred in the air
Look for me mom I'll be there
Wherever there's somebody fightin' for a place to stand
Or decent job or a helpin' hand
Wherever somebody's strugglin' to be free
Look in their eyes mom you'll see me"

The highway is alive tonight
But nobody's kiddin' nobody about where it goes
I'm sitting down here in the campfire light
With the ghost of Tom Joad

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Straight Time 

Got out of prison back in '86 and I found me a wife 
Walked the clean and narrow 
Just tryin' to stay out and stay alive 
Got a job at the rendering plant, it ain't gonna make me rich 
In the darkness before dinner comes 
Sometimes I can feel the itch 
I got a cold mind to go tripping 'cross that thin line 
I'm sick of doin straight time 

My uncle's at the evenin' table, makes his living runnin' hot cars 
Slips me a hundred dollar bill, says 
"Charlie, you best remember who your friends are" 
Got a cold mind to go tripping across that thin line 
I ain't makin' straight time 

Eight years in, it feels like your gonna die 
But you get used to anything 
Sooner or later it just becomes your life 

Kitchen floor in the evening, tossin' my little babies high 
Mary's smilin' but she watches me out of the corner of her eye 
Seems you can't get any more than half free 
I step out onto the front porch and suck the cold air deep inside of me 
Got a cold mind to go tripping cross that thin line 
I'm sick of doin' straight time 

In the basement, huntin' gun and a hacksaw 
Sip a beer and thirteen inches of barrel drop to the floor 

Come home in the evening, can't get the smell from my hands 
Lay my head down on the pillow 
And, go driftin' off into foreign lands 

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Highway 29 

I slipped on her shoe, she was a perfect size seven 
I said "There's no smokin' in the store ma'am"
She crossed her legs and then 
We made some small talk, that's where it should have stopped 
She slipped me a number, I put it in my pocket 
My hand slipped up her skirt, everything slipped my mind 
In that little roadhouse 
On highway 29 

It was a small town bank, it was a mess 
Well I had a gun, you know the rest 
Money on the floorboards, shirt was covered in blood 
And she was cryin', her and me we headed south 
On highway 29 

In a little desert motel the air was hot and clean 
I slept the sleep of the dead, I didn't dream 
I woke in the morning, washed my face in the sink 
We headed into the Sierra Madres 'cross the borderline 
The winter sun shot through the black trees 
I told myself it was all something in her 
But as we drove I knew it was something in me 
Something had been comin' for a long long time 
And something that was here with me now 
On highway 29 

The road was filled with broken glass and gasoline 
She wasn't sayin' nothin', it was just a dream 
The wind come silent through the windshield 
All I could see was snow, sky and pines 
I closed my eyes and I was runnin'
I was runnin' then I was flyin'

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Youngstown

Here in north east Ohio 
Back in eighteen-o-three 
James and Dan Heaton 
Found the ore that was linin' yellow creek 
They built a blast furnace 
Here along the shore 
And they made the cannon balls 
That helped the union win the war 

Here in Youngstown 
Here in Youngstown 
My sweet Jenny, I'm sinkin' down 
Here darlin' in Youngstown 

Well my daddy worked the furnaces 
Kept 'em hotter then hell 
I come home from 'Nam worked my way to scarfer 
A job that'd suit the devil as well 
Taconite coke and limestone 
Fed my children and made my pay 
Then smokestacks reachin' like the arms of god 
Into a beautiful sky of soot and clay 

Here in Youngstown 
Here in Youngstown 
My sweet Jenny, I'm sinkin' down 
Here darlin' in Youngstown 

Well my daddy come on the Ohio works 
When he come home from world war two 
Now the yards just scrap and rubble 
He said "Them big boys did what Hitler couldn't do" 
These mills they built the tanks and bombs 
That won this country's wars 
We sent our sons to Korea and Vietnam 
Now we're wondering what they were dyin' for 

Here in Youngstown 
Here in Youngstown 
My sweet Jenny, I'm sinkin' down 
Here darlin' in Youngstown 

From the Monongaleha valley 
To the Mesabi iron range 
To the coal mines of Appalachia 
The story's always the same 
Sevenhundred tons of metal a day 
Now sir you tell me the world's changed 
Once I made you rich enough 
Rich enough to forget my name 

And Youngstown 
And Youngstown 
My sweet Jenny, I'm sinkin' down 
Here darlin' in Youngstown 

When I die I don't want no part of heaven 
I would not do heaven's work well 
I pray the devil comes and takes me 
To stand in the fiery furnaces of hell 

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Sinaloa Cowboys 

Miguel came from a small town in northern Mexico
He came north with his brother Louis to California three years ago
They crossed at the river levee when Louis was just sixteen
And found work together in the fields of the San Joaquin

They left their homes and family
Their father said "My sons one thing you will learn
For everything the north gives, it exacts a price in return"
They worked side by side in the orchards 
From morning till the day was through
Doing the work the hueros wouldn't do

Word was out some men in from Sinaloa were looking for some hands
Well deep in Fresno county there was a deserted chicken ranch
There in a small tin shack on the edge of a ravine
Miguel and Louis stood cooking methamphetamine

You could spend a year in the orchards
Or make half as much in one ten-hour shift
Working for the men from Sinaloa
Ah, but if you slippedthe hydriodic acid
Could burn right through your skin
They'd leave you spittin' up blood in the desert
If you breathed those fumes in

It was early one winter evening as Miguel stood watch outside
When the shack exploded lighting up the valley night
Miguel carried Louis' body over his shoulder down a swale 
To the creekside and there in the tall grass Louis Rosales died

Miguel lifted Louis' body into his truck and then he drove
To where the morning sunlight fell on a eucalyptus grove
There in the dirt he dug up tenthousand dollars all that they'd saved
Kissed his brother's lips and placed him in his grave

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The Line 

I got my discharge from Fort Irwin 
Took a place on the San Diego county line 
Felt funny bein' a civilian again 
It'd been some time 
My wife had died a year ago 
I was still tryin' to find my way back whole 
Went to work for the INS on the line 
With the California Border Patrol 

Bobby Ramirez was a ten-year veteran 
We became friends 
His family was from Guanajuato 
So the job it was different for him 
He said "They risk death in the deserts and mountains
Pay all they got to the smugglers rings
We send 'em home and they come right back again 
Carl, hunger is a powerful thing" 

Well I was good at doin' what I was told 
Kept my uniform pressed and clean 
At night I chased their shadows 
Through the arroyos and ravines 
Drug runners farmers with their families
Young women with little children by their sides 
Come night we'd wait out in the canyons 
And try to keep 'em from crossin' the line 

Well the first time that I saw her 
She was in the holdin' pen 
Our eyes met and she looked away 
Then she looked back again 
Her hair was black as coal 
Her eyes reminded me of what I'd lost 
She had a young child cryin' in her arms 
I asked "Senora, is there anything I can do?" 

There's a bar in Tijuana 
Where me and Bobby drink alongside 
The same people we'd sent back the day before 
She said her name was Louisa 
She was from Sonora and had just come north 
We danced and I held her in my arms 
And I knew what I would do 
She said she had some family in Madera county 
If she her child and younger brother could just get through

At night they come across the levee
In the searchlight's dusty glow 
We'd rush 'em in our Broncos 
Force 'em back down into the river below 
She climbed into my truck 
She leaned towards me and we kissed 
As we drove her brother's shirt slipped open 
And I saw the tape across his chest 

We were just about on the highway 
When Bobby's jeep come up in the dust on my right 
I pulled over and let my engine run 
And stepped out into his lights 
I felt myself movin' 
My gun restin' 'neath my hand 
We stood there starin' at each other 
As off through the arroyo she ran 

Bobby Ramirez he never said nothin' 
Six months later I left the line 
I drifted to the central valley 
And took what work thatI could find 
At night I searched the local bars 
And the migrant towns 
Lookin' for my Louisa 
With the black hair fallin' down 

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Balboa Park 

He lay his blanket underneath the freeway 
As the evening sky grew dark 
Took a sniff of toncho from his coke can
And headed through Balboa Park 
Where the men in their Mercedes 
Come nightly to employ 
In the cool San Diego evening 
The services of the border boys 

He grew up near the Zona Norte 
With the hustlers and smugglers he hung out with 
He swallowed their balloons of cocaine 
Brought 'em cross the 12th Street strip 
Sleeping in a shelter 
If the night got too cold 
Runnin' from the migra 
Of the border patrol 

Past the alvage yard 'cross the train tracks 
And in through the storm drain 
They stretched their blankets out 'neath the freeway 
And each one took a name 
There was X-man and Cochise 
Little Spider his sneakers covered in river mud 
They come north to California 
End up with the poison in their blood 

He did what he had to do for money 
Sometimes he sent home what he could spare 
The rest went to high-top sneakers and toncho 
And jeans like the gavatchos wear 

One night the border patrol swept 12th Street 
A big car come fast down the boulevard 
Spider stood caught in its headlights 
Got hit and went down hard 
As the car sped away Spider held his stomach 
Limped to his blanket 'neath the underpass 
Lie there tasting his own blood on his tongue 
Closed his eyes and listened to the cars 
Rushin' by so fast 

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Dry Lightning 

I threw my robe on in the morning 
Watched the ring on the stove turn to red
Stared hypnotized into a cup of coffee 
Pulled on my boots and made my bed 
Screen door hangin' off its hinges 
Kept bangin' me awake all night 
As I look out the window 
The only thing in sight 
Is dry lightning on the horizon line 
Just dry lightning and you on my mind 

I chased the heat of her blood 
Like it was the holy grail 
Descend beautiful spirit 
Into the evening pale 
Her appaloosa's 
Kickin' in the corral smelling rain 
There's a low thunder rolling 
'Cross the mesquite plain 
But there's just dry lightning on the horizon line 
It's just dry lightning and you on my mind 

I'd drive down to Alvarado street 
Where she'd dance to make ends meet 
I'd spend the night over my gin 
As she'd talk to her men 

Well the piss yellow sun 
Comes bringing up the day 
She said "Ain't nobody gonna give nobody 
What they really need anyway "

You get so sick of the fighting 
You lose your fear of the end 
But you can't lose your memory 
And the sweet smell of your skin 
And it's just dry lightning on the horizon line 
Just dry lightning and you on my mind 

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The New Timer 

He rode the rails since the Great Depression 
Fifty years out on the skids 
He said "You don't cross nobody 
You'll be all right out here kid" 

Left my family in Pennsylvania 
Searchin' for work I hit the road 
I met Frank in east Texas 
In a freight yard blown through with snow 
From New Mexico to Colorado 
California to the sea 
Frank he showed me the ropes, sir 
Just till I could get back on my feet 

I hoed sugar beets outside of Firebaugh 
I picked the peaches from the Marysville tree 
They bunked us in a barn just like animals 
Me and a hundred others just like me 

We split up come the spring time 
I never seen Frank again 
'Cept one rainy night he blew by me on a grainer 
Shouted my name and disappeared in the rain and the wind 

They found him shot dead outside Stockton 
His body lyin' on a muddy hill 
Nothin' taken, nothin' stolen 
Somebody killed him just to kill 

Late that summer I was rollin' through the plains of Texas 
A vision passed before my eyes 
A small house sittin' trackside 
With the glow of the saviours beautiful light 
A woman stood cookin' in the kitchen 
Kid sat at the table with his old man 
Now I wonder does my son miss me 
Does he wonder where I am 

Tonight I pick my campsite carefully 
Outside the Sacramento yard 
Gather some wood and light a fire 
In the early winter dark 

Wind whistling cold I pull my coat around me 
Heat some coffee and stare out into the black night 
I lie awake, I lie awake sir 
With my machete by my side 

My Jesus your gracious love and mercy 
Tonight I'm sorry could not fill my heart 
Like one good rifle 
And the name of who I ought to kill 

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Across The Border 

Tonight my bag is packed 
Tomorrow I'll walk these tracks 
That will lead me across the border 

Tomorrow my love and I 
Will sleep 'neath auburn skies 
Somewhere across the border 

We'll leave behind my dear 
The pain and sadness we found here 
And we'll drink from the Bravo's muddy waters 

Where the sky grows grey and wide 
We'll meet on the other side 
There across the border 

For you I'll build a house 
High up on a grassy hill 
Somewhere across the border 

Where pain and memory 
Pain and memory have been stilled 
There across the border 

And sweet blossoms fill the air 
Pastures of gold and green 
Roll down into cool clear waters 

And in your arms 'neath open skies 
I'll kiss the sorrow from your eyes 
There across the border 

Tonight we'll sing the songs 
I'll dream of you my corazón 
And tomorrow my heart will be strong 

And may the saints' blessing and grace 
Carry me safely into your arms 
There across the border 

For what are we 
Without hope in our hearts 
That someday we'll drink from God's blessed waters 

And eat the fruit from the vine 
I know love and fortune will be mine 
Somewhere across the border 

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Galveston Bay 

For fifteen years Le Bin Son 
Fought side by side with the Americans 
In the mountains and deltas of Vietnam 
In '75 Saigon fell and he left his command 
And brought his family to the promised land 

Seabrook, Texas and the small towns in the Gulf of Mexico 
It was delta country and reminded him of home 
He worked as a machinist, put his money away 
And bought a shrimp boat with his cousin 
And together they harvested Galveston Bay 

In the mornin' 'fore the sun come up 
He'd kiss his sleepin' daughter 
Steer out through the channel 
And casts his nets into the water 

Billy Sutter fought with Charlie Company 
In the highlands of Quang Tri 
He was wounded in the battle of Chu Lai 
Shipped home in '68 

There he married and worked the gulf fishing grounds 
In a boat that'd been his father's 
In the morning he'd kiss his sleeping son 
And cast his nets into the water 

Billy sat in front of his TV as the South fell 
And the communists rolled into Saigon 
He and his friends watched as the refugees came 
Settle on the same streets and worked the coast they'd grew up on 
Soon in the bars around the harbor was talk 
Of America for Americans 
Someone said "You want 'em out, you got to burn 'em out" 
And brought in the Texas klan 

One humid Texas night there were three shadows on the harbor 
Come to burn the Vietnamese boats into the sea 
In the fire's light shots rang out 
Two Texans lay dead on the ground 
Le stood with a pistol in his hand 

A jury acquitted him in self defense 
As before the judge he did stand 
But as Le walked down the courthouse steps 
Billy said "My friend, you're a dead man" 

One late summer night Le stood watch along the waterside 
Billy stood in the shadows 
His K-bar knife in his hand 
And the moon slipped behind the clouds 
Le lit a cigarette, the bay was still as glass 
As he walked by Billy stuck his knife into his pocket 
Took a breath and let him pass 

In the early darkness Billy rose up 
Went into the kitchen for a drink of water 
Kissed his sleeping wife 
Headed into the channel 
And cast his nets into the water 
Of Galveston Bay 

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My Best Was Never Good Enough

"Every cloud has a silver lining, every dog has his day" 
She said "Now don't say nothin' 
If you don't have something nice to say 
The tough now they get going when the going gets tough" 
But for you my best was never good enough 

"Now don't try for a home run, baby 
If you can get the job done with a hit
Remember, a quitter never wins 
And a winner never quits" 
"The sun don't shine on a sleepin' dog's ass" 
And all the rest of that stuff 
But for you my best was never good enough 

"If God gives you nothin' but lemons, then you make some lemonade
The early bird catches the fuckin' worm, Rome wasn't built in a day
Now life's like a box of chocolates, 
You never know what you're going to get
Stupid is as stupid does" and all the rest of that shit
Come'on pretty baby call my bluff 
'Cause for you my best was never good enough 

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