dear matthew I like you a lot I realize you're in a 
relationship with someone right now and I respect 
that I would like you to know that if you're ever single 
in the future and you want to come visit me in california 
I would be open to spending time with you and finding 
out how old you were when you wrote your first song 

dear jonathan I liked you too much I used to be attracted 
to boys who would lie to me and think solely about themselves 
and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time 
I used to say the more tragic the better the truth is 
whenever I think of the early 90's your face comes up with 
a vengeance like it was yesterday 

dear terrance I love you muchly you've been nothing but 
open hearted and emotionally available and supportive 
and nurturing and consummately there for me I kept drawing 
you in and pushing you away I remember 
how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry 
in front of you for the first time you were the best 
platform from which to jump beyond myself what 
was wrong with me 

dear marcus you rocked my world you had a charismatic 
way about you with the women and you got me 
seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't 
let me get away with kicking my own ass but I could 
never really feel relaxed and looked out for around 
you though and that stopped us from going any further 
than we did and it's kinda too bad because we could've 
had much more fun 

dear lou we learned so much I realize we won't be able 
to talk for some time and I understand that as I do you 
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well 
as we could we were together during a very tumultuous time 
in our lives I will always have your back and be curious 
about you and your career your whereabouts