*NEW* Hollow
The hollow water wash upon my soul And I feel I have nothingleft Where you stood you left a hole The shallow place you used to fill I walk along alone in silence Waiting for your return But I wait in pure silence Knowing you will never come And so I wave goodbye Before I even greet you And my whole body sighs For i will never see you Through my eyes you were pure And you exposed your soul to me. I wanted to embrace your heart; You were so far away from me. And so I wave goodbye Before I even greet you My whole body cries For I will never see you. The Hollow waters wash my tears From my blood stained face where you stood you left for years And I was left with nothing.
The Mark Left Behind
Pull me out from under your fist, I never felt at all when I felt like this. 'Cause its me that holds the knife And its me that takes your life. Well into my heart the life will resist, Why has everything come to this? The meaning is lost and I am lost Everyone is lost, in life, what's the cost? I am weak and you are strong; The mark is left behind. All along I know what I would never find.
Longing
I'm so alone, I feel it will take my under, I'm so stuck in my sorrow, I am chained, I'm so weak I can feel it pulling me under, I'm so alone, it hurts and I am pained. In this big world, I am nothing, In this big world, nothing will prevail, All i'm looking for is one thing, I try my hardest and yet, I still fail. I'd give myself if there was someone to give myself to, I'd keep myself bound and chained in your love, I'd run if there was someone for me to run to, I'd give, everything that was of worth to me for love.
Before and After
When you smile My heart skips a beat I think awhile 'Bout things I can't speak You and Me, Hand in Hand, We are ment to be. My love for you Will never change. There's nothing you can do To make me stop loving you. But you went away, Left my heart astray, Stabbed me deep in my heart Now we are far apart. You did it all, And let me fall. All I have to show, Is all I know, 'Bout you and me, And how we couldn't be.
Remember You were so beautiful against the grey night sky. You made my heart full With your promises and lies
You were my world So precious and new. You gave me a world that was completely untrue
Remeber the love We shared every day Remember the love That you took away
You were so distant When I wanted you near. You were heaven-sent And took away my fear.
I was right all along...
Dark One She lays a hand on my shoulder, As the flames of my soul smolder. The hand is the only comfort I get, From this dark world I will forget. Her eyes sweep over my dead soul. Her and i played the same role, 'Cause our worlds are both the same, And people from our lives left and came. This damn world is so dark and cold And it will stay that way until we grow old. I curse your well-being because its you I hate. And I hope you suffer until your fate. When the world turns it's back on you, You become a dark one too. Together A black sea of tears flow from the worst that you say Are these words ment to keep me away? My pain runs deep Like a vein in my heart When do these words stop Why'd they even start? I loved you, I never wanted to hurt you. I didn't think you'd hate me so. The things i did were long ago. I thought we'd be together. The things you said in the past I learned to forget I wish you could do the same How hard is it? I feel so wounded I wish i'd die The words you said hurt I need to ask you why Why do I annoy you? I thought you loved me How could you say that? I love you, can't you see? Sometimes Sometimes I hate, just being who I am. It tears me apart to know how the world works. Just because I'm not one of them. All I want is a little respect for All that I am. Sometimes people wanna kill me, I can see it in their eyes. They look at me like i'm nothing, I shouldn't be here because I'm a mistake. I wish that maybe THEY would die. They have no right to judge me so. Judge not, lest ye be judged. They have no right. Maybe I am what they fear. Little ol' meek me. Sometimes I think that's just it. No Love You want to change me, What for? There are sometimes when I wanna change you, but I wouldn't, I couldn't. I love you the way you are, so why, why can't you do the same for me? I knew I loved you more. I don't care if you look different than me, But for you, it's almost a crime. Their's no shame in being with me, so why complain? Their's nothing wrong with me, And i won't change for you (or anyone else), For me to change for you would make me sad, and it's too bad for you. you won't see me wearing the latest style beside an exact replica of me. no. you'll see me wear whatever i goddamn-well want. you don't love me. (ok so this isn't really how it was sopposed to go but i got carried away) Invisable Scars My own privet hell has Burned my soul, but not let it die. I live, with many scars, Streached upon my skin like spiderwebs. Your love, your compliments, Your anything cannot remove My invisible scars They've turned me into an ugly person, Twisted and perverted inside. I feel dirty and neglected. Perhaps for my own good. My whole being, my whole self, Does not exist. My sins and suffering lie deep inside As my secret treasure The only thing I have to hold on to. My broken dreams are all I have of my True self. Leaving my invisable scars. Do I Deserve This? Look at the things I do wrong, God knows you've done that many Times before. Never have you seen the things that I've done right. You make me pay my soul for a Small mistake I committed, But never have I recived love for the Things I do right. What am I to You? A plush toy? You can't just do this to me. You can't just Make me feel like shit And grind me into the ground, Like you always do. For everything I have done wrong, Let me ask you, Just let me ask you this, Do I desurve what you give me? Do I desurve this? For all the things I've done I need it. The "Cool" One Take a look Do you like what you see? The way you look Is what they want you to be. The clothes, the hair They all look the same. Every little part of you Looks very lame Think you can change? I don't think so You're worried what others think, Trying to fit in the status quo You think I'm trying to be cool? Well look at you You don't see me trying To look the way you do! Take a look at yourself Before you judge others Are you the kind of person Trying to please your friend's mothers?
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