My Poems

Wandering about this earth
not knowing where to go.
The sun is tilting,
where is it going?
What place will it light up next?
I try to find my way,
but it is dark.
No one will help me, no one cares.
I feel my self falling
although I am standing still.
Why do I feel this way?
Control, I have no more.
Where has it gone?
Won't someone answer me?
Maybe I should go home,
but how can I when I can't see anymore?
I feel no longer, I am numb.
I want the sun to tilt back my way.
Maybe then I won't need to care either.
I will be able to find my way around.
But will the sun ever return?
Will I ever know for sure?
What's going to happen next?
Once again, no one answers.
I think I'll lay down to rest
and try to decide what to do.
I am so very tired.
The darkness is closing in on me.
I feel my breath start to quicken.
Is it in my head or is this really happening?
I guess I'll know if I don't wake up tomorrow.

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Lost, and feeling alone
Will I find my way back?
It is so hard
no one around, helpless
The air is biting
at my ears
at my fingertips
at my toes.
There is no moon
to light my way
I cannot see
where I am going
"Run," my heart says
I take off
not knowing what I will come to
Trees, they are bending their branches
trying to catch me
I won't let them
I feel the air getting thin
I must stop
I look around -
I have not moved
I feel something tighten
around my wrist
I look- it's a hand
I see no face
I am not frightened
The hand pulls me backwards
I follow
We stop, a light shines upon us
I look - it is He
He who I feel I am to run from
I try to pull away
His grip is too tight
"Relax," he says
I have no choice
There are the trees -
they are shaking and swaying
Are they laughing,
or blocking our path?
We cannot pass by them
a branch wraps around my waist
it pulls, he won't let go
The pain, oh the pain
I cry out
he frees me
I am being pulled
into oblivion
no light
the air is warm nor cold
I am moving so fast
I see nothing
Stopped, looking around
I am home
He is not here
I sigh
Is it relief or despair?
I need to rest
People look at me strange
I scream
Will nothing be the way
it used to be?
The air swirls around me
I collapse on the floor
Wishing not to live
The ground swallows me
I am with him again
"Decide," he says, "where you want to be."
My heart is heavy
I cannot decide
I am in his arms
it feels so good
Is it wrong for me to feel this way?
We are holding tight
Something comes between us
I am letting go
What is it that doesn't want us to be together?
I am back home
no one is there
I sit in the chair
The heaviness lifts
I am truly free
Sadness overcomes me
Alone, and wishing to be

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