Well I've decided to take matters into my own hands here. I'm gonna take away the one thing from "God" that he supposedly has control over. I've decided not to let him take my life from me. You ask how I will do this? Simple. One easy word. Suicide. Yep yep. I don't have any plans to do that right now, but when I feel I've lived enough, then I'll do it. This is my stand against God, I'm gonna get him b4 he can get me. I asked him so many times to take my life away, well help me to, and he never helped. He never did anything for me. So, next time I wanna die, I'm not gonna turn to him, specially since I haven't since the 2 years I've been Wiccan. Let me clarify what a just said a bit. Itz a little cloudy to myself as well. Ok, when I was a christian about 2 years ago, I was extremely suicidal at this time, i used to ask God to help me commit suicide so I wouldn't go to hell. Well obviously he never helped since I'm still here, alive and well. Ok back to what I was saying. I'm not gonna give that fucker up there the privilege of "letting" me die. I'm gonna take my own life when I damn well please. Fuck his "power" over me. I'm the only one who has power over myself. You can't have it God. HA HA HA HA HA!!!! ok, I'm losing my mind. I'll write more later, I've lost the zest for it right now.

~Lynne