Nothing ever changes
Nothing ever moves
I swim around in circles
In the same old lifeless room
And talk about the mirror man
The whispers in my ear again
The hot and sticky pillow man
Is smothering my face again
Nothing ever changes
Nothing ever moves
And I run around hysterical
In dead persistent gloom
And babble out in simile
Like dog-head-monkey-music me
Shut up shut up shut up shut up
Shut up!!!
And let me breathe...
I've been up for days
And I feel like a menagerie
I'm scratching 'til I bleed
And I keep on seeing
Imaginary lemurs
In the street
In the middle of the day
But as long as I can breathe
Then I know I'll be OK
I'll be alright
I'm out of mind
I'm out of sight
I'm out of sight
I've been up for days
And I feel like a laboratory rat
Inside a maze
And I reel in the monotony of
Screaming
At the moon
In the middle of the day
But as long as I can see it
Then I know I'll be OK
I'll be fine
I'm out of sight
I'm completely out of mind
Completely out of mind
OK
Alright
Come and watch me shake tonight
Mouth wide
Soft and bright
Bite my hand and scream
OK
Alright
Come and watch me break tonight
Push deep
Out of sight
Bite my hand and hold on tight...
Like a feeling that I'm down
Deep inside my heart
Like I'm looking out through
Splitting blood red
Windows in my heart
From a higher up than heaven
And a harder down than stone
Shake the fear that always clawing
Pulls me clawing down alone
As I spitting splitting blood red
Breaking windows in my heart
And the past is taunting
Fear of ghosts
Is forcing me apart
And the further I get
From the things that I care about
The less I care about
How much further away I get...
I am lost again
With everything gone
And more alone
Than I have ever been
I expect you to understand
To feel it too
But I know that even if you will
You cannot ever help me
Nor can I
Ever help you
So I'll wait for you
Where I always wait
Behind the signs that sell the news
I'll watch for you like yesterday
And hope for you
One day that once
Spent out on me
And up 'til late
I search for you
Your hat pushed straight
Away from me
Your measured step
Heads up you win
Always too late
If I could just once catch your eye
Invisible against the words
That hold you down in solitude
And never let you go
The way that every time
My eyes just close
Like lids of wooden men in file
I put you under rainy day
Your hat's all off
And I'm gone away...
However much I push it down
It's never enough
However much I push it around
It's never enough
However much I make it out
It's never enough
Never enough
However much I do
However big I ever feel
It's never enough
Whatever I do to make it real
It's never enough
In any way I try to speak
It's never enough
Never enough
However much I try to speak
It's never enough
However much I'm falling down
It's never enough
However much I'm falling out
It's never enough
Whatever smile I smile the most
It's never enough
Never enough
However I smile
I smile the most
So let me hold it up
Just one more go
Holding it up for just once more
One more time to fill it up
One more time to kill
But whatever I do
It's never enough
It's never enough
Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever gets on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind
Nothing ever loses me sleep
Nothing ever wins my heart
Nothing ever makes me want to sing along
And nothing makes me want to start
If I'm falling down a mountain
Then I pick myself up
If I crash into an iceberg
I don't give a frightful look around..
If I am burning then I put myself out
I'm so completely full
I scare the world
Oh all the world
All inside out
Just look around...
Nothing ever puts me out
Nothing ever pulls me in
Nothing ever makes me want to jump
And nothing makes me want to begin
Nothing ever gets me down
Nothing ever gets me uptight
And nothing ever makes me run around
And nothing makes me feel I might
If I'm hanging from a peach tree
Then I cut myself down
And if I look into the sun
I just turn up the sound
And if I swallow deathcap loverooms
Then I spit them right out
I'm so completely full
I scare the world
Yeah all the world
Inside out
Nothing ever gets in my way
Nothing ever gets on my mind
Nothing ever makes me stop to think about
Nothing of the kind
Harold and Joe
Go go go!!!
Yeah...
Sing birds sing...
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
It will all be fine
It won't be like this next time
The days you wait
Turn into years
Always wait
Helpless tears
Hopeless nights
And all the fears
It will always be like this
You give me everything you have
Hoping it will someday be enough
To melt my heart
To make me fall in love
Day after day
I let you down
Promise you to change it all
Then change my mind
And every time I promise you
Soon be fine
It won't be like this next time
But tonight we play I think
The final act
I push too hard
And you crack
Walk away
Don't look back
This time you've really gone
You give me everything you have
Knowing it can never be enough
My heart's too old
Too hard
Too cold
For your love
I never felt like this with anyone before
You only have to smile and I'm dizzy
You make the world go round
A thousand times an hour
Just touch my head
And send me spinning
I never felt like this with anyone before
You show me colours and I'm crying
You hold my eyes in yours
And open up the world
I can't believe all this
I want to keep this feeling
Deep inside of me
I want you always in my heart
You are everything
I never felt like this with anyone before
You fill my head all full of rainbows
And all the rainbows end
Is every step you take
Just to be with you forever
I want to keep this feeling
Deep inside of me
I want you always in my heart
You are everything
You know those things I said
All those things that made you cry
I didn't really mean that stuff
I didn't really mean that stuff
All I ever really mean
When I scream and shout the way I do
Is I don't know
I really don't
I'm just the same as you
You know those things I said
All those things that made you
Run away from me
I didn't mean a word
I didn't really mean I don't believe
All I ever really mean
When I rant and rave the way I do
Is I'm scared
I'm scared
I'm just as scared as you
And sometimes it's so hard
Not to just throw it all away
Sometimes it's so hard
Not to just throw it all away
Like all those things I said
All those things that made you cry
I didn't really mean that stuff
I didn't really mean to say goodbye
You know those things I said
All those things that made you
Run away from me
I didn't mean a word
I didn't really mean I don't believe
All I ever really mean
When I scream and shout the way I do
Is I'm scared
I'm scared
I'm just as scared as you
The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your dreams go small
And all your friends run away
Until your memories fail
And the words don't fit
But the way the big hand smiles
You just won't care about it
The big hand makes all of your favourite things
Like all your days run out
And all your hopes disappear
And your smiles just stop
And your eyes go dead
And the shadows start to crawl
In the back of your head
But when the big hand speaks
It's like fireworks and heaven
So you listen
Don't think
And wish for nothing at all
And when the big hand sings
It's like fireworks and friends
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone I'll never
Leave alone again
So when the big hand holds up all your favourite things
And with a touch like glass
Starts to squeeze
You don't ask
"Why me?"
You just slip to the floor
Just slip to your knees
But when the big hand speaks
It's like fireworks and heaven
So you listen
Don't think
And wish for nothing at all
And when the big hand sings
It's like fireworks and friends
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Never leaving alone
Leaving alone I'm not
Leaving alone
Leaving alone
I'm not leaving alone again
Christabel strips
And slips like a dream
Breaking ice with arms that gleam with pain
Disdain...
She throws her head
And glides against the stream
Throwing me her bravest smile
Defiant
Glittering
Shivering guile
"Catching a cold is quick this time
But fish?...
Fish may take a while... "
Christabel dips and slips from me
And hand pushed deep inside is suddenly free
Triumphant
Reluctantly
Struggling six legs held up for me to see
"Don't be so scared
It's nothing new
It's the same old game
Only fun with two... "
But fast and over and over
"I can't play this game with you"
Everything she tries to tell me
Leaves me open mouthed and still
Foolishly arrange tomorrow
The way I always will
Christabel trips
And grips my hand
But never to be saved...
For a second I understand
and I fall with her...
"I'll never leave you
Love you
See you change into the man I want
But it's not for long this thing
It's not for long... "
"Don't look don't look" the shadows breathe
Whispering me away from you
"Don't wake at night to watch her sleep
You know that you will always lose
This trembling
Adored
Tousled bird mad girl... "
But every night I burn
But every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I fall again
"Oh don't talk of love" the shadows purr
Murmuring me away from you
"Don't talk of worlds that never were
The end is all that's ever true
There's nothing you can ever say
Nothing you can ever do... "
Still every night I burn
Every night I scream your name
Every night I burn
Every night the dream's the same
Every night I burn
Waiting for my only friend
Every night I burn
Waiting for the world to end
"Just paint your face" the shadows smile
Slipping me away from you
"Oh it doesn't matter how you hide
Find you if we're wanting to
So slide back down and close your eyes
Sleep a while
You must be tired... "
But every night I burn
Every night I call your name
Every night I burn
Every night I fall again
Every night I burn
Scream the animal scream
Every night I burn
Dream the crow black dream
