Where does Jason End, and Geycen Begin?

The complex machine is back. I haven't written much here lately for lack of anything new to say. But I have come to a crossroad in my life. Half of me (We will refer to as the Mario half) Wants the stability, and career conscious LMC to continue. To be the band of the new millenium, you need to work hard, and fast to get there is a few short months. I feel it is possible, but only if everone contributes 110% of themselves. After going to see Counting Crows, I realized (even and especially for Gwen) I cannot give up on my dream. Or I will only grow older living with doubt, and regret. Always wondering if I could have provded a financially, and more unique life. The other half (we will refer to as the Gary half) Is laid back, and doesn't want to worry about rushing to get things done. If it is all about the music, and a lifestyle, than by God let it happen on its own. I shouldn't worry about dedicating the next ten years seeing what my music may bring about. Either way, I still have faith in us. But now I have to pick a road. And I have never been good at turning one way or the other. I always wait for those decisions to arise on thier own. But I am no longer in a possition to allow that to happen. That's me ever complex, ever searching, ever confused.

In body there is only one, but in spirit, there is undeniably two of me. No, I am not skitso, but I would be lying if I said I am a simple being. Often I find it best to describe it in terms of a great battle between two sides. Jason is a quiet, loving, unselfish sap. He loves people for who they are, and can accept flaws. He would throw himself in front of oncoming traffic for any one of his friends or family a thousand times over before seeing a single hair on their head hurt. He rejoices in the comfort of fellowship, but mourns in the wake of sorrow. In a stange way, both sides of him are adept in a sixth sense he refers to by emotion. He can feel inside of a person even if he just met them. Sick or well, Jason would lend you both his hands, and the shirt off his back. Peace, family, morality, and love are what drives him every morning he rises. At heart he is the pisces he was born under.

And the other side of this strange coin is given the name Geycen. Origionally it was intended to show the evolution of a being, rather set a dividing line in a man. Just like life, people evolve. In the lyrics section, you will find (eventualy) a song entitled, "Silk" It contains a line that follows "...I'm a demon, I'm a devil, I'm an angel on a mission..." That about sums it up. Geycen is a wolf in sheeps clothing molded by his worldly enviornment. The dreamer. When LMC preforms, Jason fades away as soon as his feet hit the stage. Jason dies away everytime Geycen has gotten caught up in the moment. Geycen isn't afraid to take a chance, and often takes it too far. Born nearly three years ago, he has done more in that time than Jason saw in the 20 previous. He is the suave one, where Jason is the romantic. He has no less compassion, but follows a path of power. Fed with the desire to be the best there is, and that means in general, not specific. Where jason can settle for a quiet night at home, Geycen wants chaos. He even welcomes it. Mayhem and reaction, passion, and lust, darkness describe Geycen.

Go Back Foul Demon From Whence You Came!