Friends,
But the way you looked at me,
The words you said.
And suddenly in my mind,
I'm screaming,
"Kiss me!"
"Touch me!"
"Let me know you feel the same!"
And your arm is around me,
Gently rubbing my shoulder.
And I like it.
Because you're the first,
To actually look at me,
To know me.
Still it doesn't feel right.
My time with you is intense,
But so little.
And I try to be cute,
But I don't know how.
Because you're sitting there rolling your eyes.
And tonite you kissed me,
But tomorrow you won't.
And tonite you touched,
But tomorrow we won't be alone.
And I've asked you twice,
The first answer beautiful,
But the second...
You broke my heart,
Because you knew.
August 13th,
The death of us.
But tonite...
Or maybe a week ago,
We crashed.
And you forgot to tell me.
And now it's not the same,
When I see you.
And it's not the same,
When you touch.
You said we work great,
But as we were first line.
But I can't go back now.
I knew this would hurt,
Our death date so close,
But you drove off the cliff,
You've always knocked me out.
And to fuck with my head further,
You expect certain "privliges"
And I can't deny them to you,
Cause I want them just as badly...
But in different ways.
I cannot,
And I will not,
Continue to let you hurt me.
I know you don't realize,
I know you're busy.
That's why we crashed.
Or maybe it was,
That I'm not pretty enough,
Or that I'm not smart enough.
Well, you go to Harvard,
And you fuck Natalie Portman.
And I wish you the best,
Because I've always loved you,
But in confusing ways.
And I love the only words you ever wrote me,
Because I think they are truth...
So the truth for tonite is,
I will learn,
To love you,
In the way we used to be,
Again