so here we are, looking out for ourselves again. looking to please ourselves. not concerned with anyone but ourselves and those who will benifit ourselves directly. selfishness defined. in and out. pleasure defined. in and out of characters lives. interchanging for a brief second something we try to make meaningful. do we know more than a name and face? or just what was done for us, and that which we did not do in return. we don't concern ourselves with the outcome. just pick up and walk away. tomorrow's a new day, why worry about what we don't have to deal with. just so long it is the "other person" who is struggling to survive. we can't seem to pick up the pieces...

refusal to accept anything outside our own life. anythong outside our own reception area. a closed mind is a wasted mind. it's been said a thousand and one times before. racism is wrong. sexism is wrong. homophobia is wrong. we've all agreed that "isms" and "phobias" are wrong. such a popular tune. it's on any station. watered down words. mass produced and meaningless. it's time we looked within ourselves and came to terms with our own individual fears and prejudices. we can't change the world single handidly, but each of us has the power to change ourselves. still, i've said that one thousand times and i have heard it 20 thousand times more, but nothing seems to be getting done. are we only capable of talk> catchy slogans are nothing more than catchy slogans, used solely for promotion. it's time to finally change on a personal level. that is the first step...it's time we all took it, instead of standing idle.

episode #52... reach the breaking point. survive. reach the breaking point again. have you ever wanted something to hold onto so much that it made you sick? life doesn't offer up much to help us by. in the back of your mind you always know that something is wrong, something is amiss, something, somewhere, is just waiting to snap and fall to pieces. living in fear of all that life has to offer. living in fear of not being able to get back up. grabbing on to whatever is in reach to hold us up for two seconds longer. anything it takes to delay the breaking point. anything at all...

nothing is worth compromising your beliefs. nothing is worth losing your sanity and identity. don't blindly believe what they tell you. we all have minds of our owns. don't sacrifice your thoughts.

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