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ok, i know i am not the goo goo dolls number one fan, and i most likely will never be that, but i do know that i like them a lot, and it is all within reason. they helped me out of a depression i had a while ago. i used ot think that i was alone in the world, i was going through a lot of trust issues after discovering everything i had depended on (my family) was a lie.. they were not the perfect family i had thought.. my parents were contemplating a divorce, and my sister started hating my dad. i ended up feeling like i was in the middle... my dad showed consistent favortism to me, and i loved my dad, and yet every time i was with my sister and/or mom, they would say things, it just made me feel like they were saying "its him or us, and if you are any smart, it will be us." all with this i was finding that they were hiding a lot (more than this) from me.. they said it was "too protect me" seriously.. if any of you are parents, or future parents, dont "protect" your kids.. it messes them up, big time.. anyways (now that i realize i am off subject a bit) finding all this out made me stop trusting my family, and i realized i didnt know who to trust, all my life, i would trust anything (being so gullible) and now i felt like nothing could be trusted.. i felt descieved, i wouldnt beleive anything anyone ever told me.. especially if they were saying something like "i am your friend" i found myself alone in a lot of ways. i didnt trust anyone or thing.. well, i trusted my cat.. my faithfull twizz.. she was the only one.. i had beleived in lies for so long, i didnt even want to trust myself anymore. then one day, as i was riding home from school, a song came on the radio. iris. i was in a trance, just listening to the words. the song spoke to me in a way i can never explain. i felt like someone could relate to how i felt. like i wasnt alone.. someone i felt like they were singing to me. they really cared. i found myself buying the cd, and listening to it alot. and everytime i listened to it, i would feel better about myself, and some how, through all this. i began to trust again. i realized people go through the same sort of problems as i did, and that life was meant to be this way, i shouldn't be so afraid. suddenly i trusted the people around me again. if they said they were my friend, i beleived them, and i didnt feel so alone anymore. to this day i still listen to that cd, almost constantly. i love every song and every one tells me another story that i relate to. i listen to the songs not only to pull me farther from depression (it was only 2 years ago) but also, to keep me grounded. so i dont get too ahead of myself.. so i remember that i too had some rough times, and life isnt like a game of candy land, its like shutes and ladders, you gotta take the ups with the downs, but you gotta learn how to roll the dice to win.

a ha! i found my most favorite song!! i am so happy, i might just scream.... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! well, now that that is over, and done with, please enjoy iris by the goo goo dolls. this is the best versian i could find, and i think it sounds excellent, so have fun, and enjoy!!! :o) woohoo.

ahh, aren't they a bunch of cuties... i like the group for who they are, they have the best most meaningfull music in the world, and that is what i find so adorable about them... some people think i am weird for whom i find attractive ,but for me, it really isnt whats on the outside.. sure if a guy who is extremely good looking on the outside walks by, i will take note.. but if i truly find someone attractive it is purely because of their soul... and no i am not just saying this... i mean.. some may call me crazy, but i really dont find john rzeznick that attractive, but when i listen to his music.. its something else.. something just clicks, and when i look at his picture while listening to his music... and ackowledging the lyrics, i think he is the sexiest man alive.. and that is all i have to say on the matter :)

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