sad poetry

sad poetry by myself and others

here's looking at you

indulge your tastebuds in a little "killing me softly" as redone by the fugees

Yearning for the highway

Dreams set out before you

Like a highway

Your map of hopes studied and remembered

Aching to start your adventure

With enthusiasm charging your world

You turn the magic key

Wanting to feel the breeze of speed in your hair

Knowing you could go that little bit faster

Taking a turn here a turn there

Each junction a choice made a decision taken

Looking back but moving forward

Yearning for the highway

NR 5/21/99

lightning

as she watched,

from the safe interior of her house,

at all the comotion outside,

she dreamed of a way to free herself of the protection.

she wished she could be free

like the birds flying above the trees in her front yard,

and run through the long grasses in her backwoods

much like the white tailed deer she saw the day before.

but alas,

she could not,

her family had said that while they were away

she was not to stray from the house,

except to go to school,

and nothing more.

if they would only hear of her going outside

to the unknown sorroundings

she would be banished from all that interested her now.

so as it was told,

she lived a life of fear and boredom.

not being able to do anything,

but afraid to have less to do.

by laura 4/10/99

fire

i sit

and i watch

as my best friend sits alone

everyone hates her

except me

and no one joins her

including me

i am not brave enough to give my best friend company

because i am afraid-

afraid that i will lose all my other friends

if i choose to sit with my best

friend

by laura 4/12/99

fire

my world, or i wish it was

i am sitting in a world of darkness

where no one dares enter

they are scared off by my unjust walls

and don't bother try to help

i sit in my hole deep in the earth

night after night

i am afraid to exit,

and find what waits for me

in my future path of hate

i know it must

and will be bad

and so i am afraid

should i stay alone

or voyage into the unknown

it is the question of my life

i have not found that answer yet

when i have found that answer i will be brave enough to die

but when i find that answer

i will no longer want to die

by laura 4/16/99

a line from googoodolls, iris.... "i don't want the world to see me cause i don't think that they'd understand"

flames.. heehee

fading

When u look at me

I feel like your just looking through me

It's like I was never there

You said you loved me, but that was never true

I started to feel like I didn't exsist to you

or anyone.

I needed you and you just looked right through me like I

wasn't really

there.

I thought it was just a phase

but that proved to be wrong

I started to fall apart

I started to have a break down

then I realized

"I had faded away from life."

This was the end

It's all over now

But I couldn't do it

I couldn't kill myself

I'm still invisable to you

your no longer part of my life

I'm free

But I still don't know what it's like to be happy

I hope to find that again

someday

I'm still fading away

Jen Morse 4/20/99

flames.. heehee

candle stick.. show me light!

Night

Silent air stays still and cools the street

Cars are there then gone

What was that

As a door shuts or a box lands

Lamplights splay like stars to the horizon

Made soft focus by hazed magic

Wings tap as a bird flaps by

A far off centipede of a train marches its long way

home

Hushed rules are broken by a breeze through leaves

Their sway waves a gentle goodbye to the day

And a quiet hello to the night

Then still again as rest begins its sleep

Time stands still in the absence of movement

Unwatched clocks refusing to tell the time

A distant dog barks a distant goodnight

All is done now till the arrival of the golden

tomorrow

NR 5/22/99

candle stick.. show me light!

Alone

I walk

Alone but I walk

Nowhere to go

But I walk

I talk

Alone but I talk

No one around

But I talk

Alone

And on my own

I go on and on

Alone

And by myself

I try to reach the higher shelf

I dance

Alone but I dance

No one to look

But I dance

I read

Alone but I read

Not one book

But I read

Alone

Empty places

Nothing around

Silent places

Not a sound

Unlimited spaces

Not a single bound

Look around

Nothing to see

Look around

It is only me

Look around

I cannot be

I stop

Alone but I stop

Nowhere to rest

But I stop

I hope

Alone but I hope

There is no best

But I hope

Nothing

Is everywhere

Everything

Is nowhere

Go down to the beach

I am there alone

Open my hands and reach

All the fish are gone

I run

Alone but I run

Under the sun

But I run

I sleep

Alone but I sleep

Under the moon

But I sleep

Look up to the sky

No birds that fly

I walk with my soul

I have no goal

ALONE

This is how I was meant to be

ALONE

This is how he wants me to be

ALONE

I walk under the stars

ALONE

I won't go too far

ALONE

I listen to the lyrics

ALONE

I write all the lyrics

ALONE

I walk in hate

ALONE

I am with no date

ALONE

Water runs from the mountain

ALONE

I drink from the fountains

ALONE

I have lost my breath

ALONE

One day closer to death

ALONE

I walk

Alone but I walk

Nowhere to go

But I walk

I walk

Alone but I walk

Older I grow

But I walk

Jen Morse 6/15/99

angry crying to get free

scratching against the walls

let me out

i scream constantly

no one is here to listen

they have ran away with the key

i am stuck here forever

and ever

theres no chance now

but thats probably a good thing

never have to deal with peoples ridicule again

no dealing with lost loves to evil grins

no more paranoia of that girl

sitting three seats infront of me in all my classes

no more anyhthing

crushes dwelling in my head

leading me to suicide

driving me insane

i love you

do you love me?

tell me!

i am tired of your games!

going insane

happiness

no one to love me

no one to hate me

no one to hold me

no shoulders to cry on

wheres my boyfriend when i need him?

wheres my romeo that i could so use right now?

does anybody know?

does anybody care?

why do i care?

i care to much!

paranoia!

driving

insane!

by laura 6/19/99

tearing my body in half

sometimes wishing it were possible out of my mind

loving both worlds

but knowing

i can only have one

i know which one

but i will forever miss the other

crying alone on a plane

no where to go but up

literally

my ears pop

the pain emmense, but less than my heart

i miss it all allready and i am barely off the ground

i cry because i miss home

and because i know i will miss this home... too

why must you live across country

i know your not right for each other

but you were right for me

i love you both

your not making me choose

just making me hurt

i can have one or i can have the other

you know which one i am going to choose

so why make it so hard

why live so far apart

same state you still wont see each other

why across the country

why so far

adventure and heat only go so far

by laura 8/6/00

where do i go from here

where can i turn around

my heart is shredded,

and i need hope again

so many mixed signals

so many miss conceptions

i love you more than any other

i feel my rapid heartbeat yearn for yours to match it

and we seemed so close that one time

that one time

but now i am invisible

i walk the planes alone

you dont seem to see me

you dont seem to even care

everything is heart break and despair

i want to beleive that you love me

i want to beleive that you just dont know how to admit it

but

you dont seem to care

you seem to have ignored me

as if i am a speck of dust

that needs no attention given

i dont even get a hello

or a wave

how can you be so naive

how can you be so vane

why cant i do right

why cant i find true love

why am i always seeking

why cant it be my turn to hide?

by laura 8/10/00

that was a really stupid mistake, laura

why did i ever say no?

why did i ever get so close?

why does love have to be so painful?

why do you seem to have two sides?

why cant life be simple?

why cant we be together again?

why must i write all my feelings down here?

if i had asked you when i was told to, would you have said yes?

or do you truly hate me?

by laura 8/10/00

Sitting in silence

The world crashes down

Around me

I see all the unicorns loosing their last piece of pride

I worry about the future of our peace and joy

The last tear of joy

Falls from the sky

I start to cry

I miss the joy the unicorns once brought

There is no happiness left

There is no joy for us all

As I sit

In the corner

Of the world

As the scenes all flash by

I shall think of those times left so far behind

No more joy

No more friends

Loneliness is what's left

The unicorn sleeps tonight

There's no joy left for him now

There's no joy left for us

As I cry

As I wait

For that time once again

When all is happy

The rain falls

Down to the earth

Peaceful sleeping... We all die

Happiness

Gone

The unicorn all have died

And the life left behind

It is gloom, it is sad

Left behind are our tears

And our memories engraved

In the mere soul of the tears left behind

And we cry in our sleep

Lifting away our souls to you

Waiting for that time when

All is good again

And the unicorns they run fast through the wind

Through the wind

And the unicorns they smile

As the tears fly away

And we know all that is to come is good

For the weeping willows smile now

And the evils are gone

And the unicorns

They always knew this day would come

For they always had one hoof in the soil

And the people of this land

They don't believe happiness

It is too far in the past

And no joy has come anymore

No joy anymore

Its gone away

To the past

No more tears of joy

Crying for the past

by laura 2/13/00

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