Letters to Cleo--Aurora Gory Alice

BIG STAR

There it goes again got a little habit
Stay away from him
Clinging, gnawing things tucked away like secrets
Stay away from him
It comes and goes
He comes and goes
Look he's turning around
I can't help it - I'm still waiting
Guess I wouldn't seek underneath a bed if I had not
Hidden once or twice or maybe three times there myself
How 'bout you?
It comes and goes
He comes and goes
Look he's turning around
I can't help it - I'm still waiting
Oh my, what have I done now?
Oh my, what have I done now?
You're mine, what's come over you?
Am not, are too, oh my.


I SEE

I think I'll close my eyes and wait as the world goes by
Won't see the same old thing it's out there everywhere
The thousand wishes I have had in my life come true
After they are gone I say
"What did I do that for?"
I see this world going in circles around all around me
I'll end up mad before life is through with me
Guilty old me

I think I'll pay my dues and drive real fast to stand in line
Then I'll wrack my brains to find some chaos
As the image forms I'll let it swallow up my mind
Time will pass I'll ask myself "this is a joke right?"
I see...
Thinking, thinking, thoughtless, it sometimes seems
Think too much, too hard and it confuses me
Rectify myself to all the things
I thought were real or lock the bedroom door and simply stay at home
I see...


RIMSHAK

Like a gaping hole in the universe
 as obvious as anything could be,
trip fall pants at ankles as it
 as it only possibly could be
It's a cosmic thing and it's all around me 
dangling like life above me,
If you knew where it was headed to, I say you'd be there already
Can't tear yourself away, can you?
If I'm different now in a brand new light so,
darts in time changed everything
I'm moving this, 
hurdle over that now as it, 
as it only possible could be
It's encompassing 'cause it's all around me 
dangling like you above me
If I knew what I was coming to, make it stop already
Can't tear yourself away, can you?
It's only right to throw your arms around it
It's only right to keep it to yourself
Just be sure to be sure that you're right.


WASTED

The saddest sound I ever heard
The saddest sound I ever heard
The quiet that takes the place of the silence
That takes the place of your voice
You're right, reasons are dumb and I'm
Just talking too much
And I want to be alone with what I am - wasted
The cruelest voice comes back to me
The cruelest thing, you think you didn't know me
It's alright, I'm outside now - smiling, but eyes don't lie
You're right, reasons are dumb and I'm
Just talking too much
And I want to be alone whit what I am - wasted
I'll just come apart or something
No one could be more empty than I am and
I would take it all back if I could.


GET ON WITH IT

The Sunday paper is a mess and
I'm not gonna pick it up you are
If I could just get on with it
It don't matter my hair's a mess cause 
You're not gonna fix it up for me
I am if I could just get on with it,
I would take a breath outside myself 
a stranger place I couldn't find and no one knows who I am
and you can't say my name
Can't think of anything else worse 
cause if I didn't fuck it up you would
why can't you just do something right?
Just once change my mind cause if you can I'd be the one you know
I am but you're so blind you always were
I didn't catch your name
I would take a breath...


HERE AND NOW

Just living on a Sunday morning, got my toast and tea and I'm warm
and I just thought I'd think about
All the things to get and keep getting never enough and never ending
I just thought I'd think about
And it might be... (all 2x)

The comfort of knowledge of a rise above the sky above could never
parallel the challenge of an acquisition in the here and now

Parody of yourself in color, giving it to everybody but your mother
 And you've got much to think about
Soaring higher with every treason
Never justify, never reason
You've got much to think about
And it might be...

CHORUS:  3x


FROM UNDER THE DUST

It gets loud down here
Fourteen scurrying feet getting as feet can carry
From under the dust I hear every one of you,
from under the dust I can feel it all
I know what you're thinking,
I know what you're saying
It was another time
I guess you were a friend of mine
It was another time but not much to recall
From under the dust I hear every one of you,
from under the dust I can feel it all
I know what you're thinking
It isn't hard to tell at all
I know what you're saying
You're not whispering.


MELLIE’S COMING OVER

And as I stood in the place where I once saw a friend standing
I didn't mean to walk away from you
I almost lost the chance to save myself
Mellie's coming over; she's coming over; Mellie's coming over, yeah

Not really lucid but wide awake,
a kind word to snap me out of it is all that I know it would take from you,
if I knew you really wanted to
Mellie's coming over; she's coming over; Mellie's coming over, yeah

Hey, where's everybody going?
You can't leave me all alone when it's been such a long time 
since I've had this much to say
Hey, where are you going?
You can't leave me alone and I guess I feel a little silly but
Mellie, can't you stay a little while?
Mellie's coming over.


COME AROUND

Don't feel small when I'm looking down.
Don't get too high if I'm looking up at you.
And if the answer looks at me I'll still say I don't know it,
not that I could come around anyway.
Look your dreams walk away with mine.
Stumble and cry but I'm clapping on the inside.
So what your answer comes to me.
I'm not saying I don't know it
 but it's not likely that I'll come around anyway
If I should say something like "no, please don't go"
 I am in a bind as much as I am telling you goodbye.
Don't feel small when I'm looking down.
Don't get too high if you're looking up at me.
And if the answer looks at me I'll still say I don't know it,
not that I could come around anyway.
If I should say something like "no, please don't go"
 I am in a bind as much as I am telling you goodbye.


STEP BACK

Appear and fade away so far so good
and I'll tell you the story this time.
Plan too far ahead, it's the same old thing.
Finally kicking it out this time.
Tell me where were you, just where you when it really mattered.
Like this time?
Staring down a haze it's supposed to be a better day
 but it doesn't matter, not this time.
Step back, step back just suppose you're where you're supposed to be now.
Step down, step down off that pedestal and maybe you'll see.
Like that time we went back in time surface wounds could not scar
 that tough exterior far superior where were you.
Appear and fade away so far so good
and I'll tell you the story this time.
Plan too late again, it's the same old thing.
Finally kicking it out this time.