Athenaeum--Radiance

WHAT I DIDN'T KNOW

I complain
When nothing's even wrong
And you're ashamed
Cause you're not quite that strong

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
I miss your face as you can tell
I hope my absence makes you well

Cause what I didn't know
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I am sorry too
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you

I am shy
I never speak a word
And you are numb
From all the things you never heard

That's when I said I'll need
More than you can offer me
But now I own an empty space
And I can't fill it with your face

Cause what I didn't know 
Is I was killing you
I said a lot of things that I didn't mean to
But I am older now
And I believe in you
So I can wait awhile
If it brings me back to you


FLAT TIRE

So tough
I didn't even wanna chew
You're lies were the best I ever knew
New car new clothes
New attitude
You were always in the headlines weren't you?

You better slow down
They're draggin' your name all over this town

No luck
Always in second place
A flat tire on the road to a better place
And you know
There's some things that you can't deny
That you were always on the run with some other guy

You better slow down
They're draggin' your name all over this town
What comes around goes around

The truth is gonna come out
And I'll be the first to open my mouth
But who is gonna treat your right?
You better know tonight

The truth is gonna take place
And I'll be the first one savin' my face
But who's gonna love you more?
No one ever knows for sure
Who?


ON MY MIND

I don't know what to
Think about
It's just something that's
Been on my mind
If the mood ain't right
You might say goodnight
Leave me here in this shallow bedroom

You take a little more than I can find
It all comes down to change my mind
And every word you say makes me feel so small
I just don't understand at all

I don't know what you
See inside me
I've been lucky so
I can't complain
If the mood is right
You might stay the night
Lead me into my humble bedroom

You took a little more than I could give
From all the life I've had to live
And every word you say makes me feel at home
I just don't want to be alone

You take a little more than I can find
It all comes down to change my mind
And every word you say makes me feel so small
I just don't understand at all


LIFELINE

You can find a way
To stop thinking about it
When every minute is a lifetime
The pain will go away
You won't believe but it's true
Just count the inches on your lifeline

And I hate to be the one
Telling you that everything's ok
Cause what kind of god would give you life
And take it all away?

Oh but I don't want to be in your life
If you don't
And I don't want to wake in your arms
If you won't
Be alive when I need you the most
Not to say that I won't
Grieve a little when you pass away
When you pass away

You can find a place
And start thinking about it
When every second is the right time
The pain will go away
You won't believe but it's true
Just count the inches on your lifeline

And I hate to be the one
Telling you that everything's ok
Cause what kind of god would give you life
And take it all away?

Oh but I don't want to be in your life
If you don't
And I don't want to wake in your arms
If you won't
Tell me everything you needed to be
Is everything that I am
Everything that you fear
About me
What you fear about me

You'll come back for all the wrong reasons
Maybe your life was out of season
You can't breathe
When you don't have a reason to die
And someday soon when the memory has faded
We'll defend all the lives we once hated
And I'll be there baby glad that you made it alive

I don't want to be in your life


SPOTLIGHT

Know yourself
Better than your favorite book on that shelf
Cause you are more than what you seem to be
You can be
Stronger than the biggest ship out at sea
But you'll move on and sail through me
I believe

Goodnight step into the spotlight
Overcoming stage fright
And my fear
Bad dream cover of a magazine
Idol to a million teens
Perfect life

But we can't part
Cause you have put an arrow straight through my heart
I'm a basket case with a shopping cart
Incomplete

But it's too late my brother
For I've been watching you
It's too late to discover
Your life is almost through

Goodnight step into the spotlight
Overcoming stage fright
And my fear 
Bad dream cover of magazine
Idol to a million teens
Perfect life

But we can't part
Cause you have put an arrow straight through my heart
I'm a basket case with a shopping cart


AWAY

He's got a really bad sense of time
He only listens when she's about to break down and cry
But she's got a lot to learn about herself
She's always blaming her sorrow on someone else

He's not a really good person from the start
He's always making it a habit of breaking her heart
But she's gonna have to take half the blame
She's always taking his shit
But I swear it's gonna change

Just walk away like you never cared
Don't even look at him if you're still scared
And you don't even have to give him a reason why
But all the things that you never said
They're gonna stay with you until you're dead
So take advantage of the way he made you feel

It's only a matter of time
You're gonna find your peace of mind
And maybe settle down in a one bedroom apartment
And all the evil things he might say
Will come back to him one day
When he least expects it
And then maybe you'll be a million miles away

Miles away
Away


UNNOTICED

It takes a lot of power
To change your point of view
And I worry every hour
That I'm away from you
It makes me feel unnoticed
Like I was never there
But I'd give all my life savings
To know you ever cared

Cause you leave me higher
Than I could ever say
But my heart has been on fire
And she's gonna find out
Much too late

Too young to have a boyfriend
Too old to be alone
You're sneak him in your bedroom
When no one else is home
He'll make you feel rewarded 
So blessed and self assured
You never had a prom date
Now you know it's secure


NO ONE

You're telling me things
I already know
You take me places
I never would go
And you act so freely
Like the world was your own
You can do anything you want
But don't you leave me alone

And no one feels
And no one feels like we do

When will we learn 
That nothing is real
And everything's changing
Except what we feel
And out on your doorstep I was all butterflies
Cause all of the moonlight in the sky
Was no match for your eyes

And no one feels 
And no one feels like we do

You're telling me things
I don't want to hear
But you are my answer
When nothing is clear
And the music played softly
As you whispered a word
I had to sigh and catch my breath
From what I had heard

And no one feels
And no one feels like we do


 SO LONG

Was I a fool to ever think
That we could be together till the end
I was afraid to be alone
And touch with my imaginary friend

So long so long
You put your foot where your mouth belongs
For so long so long

I was afraid
You made me say
That I was just a little immature
Now I am older than before
Diseased and you could never find a cure

So long so long
You put your foot where your mouth belongs
For so long so long

Can I get by
Without a  tear from a broken eye
Can I can I


DIFFERENT SITUATION

He'll take you home
And then write a song about it
He's so alone
You'd never think to doubt it 
He is the tricky kind
And she's gonna fall into his covers 
He's gonna search his mind
He will find a way to love her

In his mind he's written every line
He just recycles them all the time
It's a message that sweeps the nation
Same words different situation

He'll make demands
At first you'll be so willing
But take command
Your pride is not worth killing
He's gonna make it hard
And twist your words until they crumble
It's is a work of art
The way you jump at all he mumbles

In his mind he's written every line
He just recycles them all the time
It's a message that sweeps the nation 
Same words different situation

And if you get stuck with a millionaire
You can always come home
There'll be a place for you at a table for two
If you ever feel alone

In his mind he's written every line
He just recycles them all the time
It's a message that sweep the nation
Same words different situation

It's gonna take a while
To sew the wounds that he had opened
But you're a lucky child
So all you do is keep on hoping


ANYONE

It's very very necessary
To take things as they come
No hurry don't get yourself worried
I know you're not that dumb

Oh anytime you want 
I'll be there for you 
Anywhere you are
Is where I'm running to
And anyone would agree
I'm so right for you
Anyone

It's easy it's so very easy
So why are you so sad
Take all your problems
Know that you can solve them
It might not be that bad

Oh anytime you want 
I'll be there for you
Anywhere you are
Is where I'm running to
And anyone would agree
I'm so right for you 
Anyone


RADIANCE

Goodnight sleep tight
My movie star
You don't know how fortunate you are

You said you had a job you didn't like
Nothing to lose
You're running from the things that you can't fight
But they all catch up with you

Living in the wrong place, wrong time
Searching for the things you  couldn't see
I could never stand in your light
But at least you noticed me

Living in the wrong place wrong time
Searching for the things you'll never do
But if it makes it easier on your life
I hope they notice you

Goodnight sleep tight
My movie star
We don't know how fortunate we are

Did you ever have a dream where you couldn't speak
Or you couldn't scream?
You're running from the past that makes you weak 
I know who at you need
 
Living in the wrong place wrong time
Searching for the things you couldn't see
I could never stand in your light
But at least you noticed me
Living in the wrong place wrong time
Choked about the things you'll never do
But if it makes it easier on your life I'm on my way

I'm on my way